ZaRa_biOlz

To whom it may concern .

2011-08-04T03:53:00.003+08:00

Why must you ask about my past ?

What has it got to do with my future ?

Why must you hurt me this way ?

You make me feel like a whore .

Rather than i hurt myself more , it's better to keep myself quiet .

It's up to you if you think what i did is not right or unreasonable .

What i know is , your words hurt me too much !

If you really want to know about my past , you're most welcome to get to know it BY YOURSELF !

Or maybe you want to be in it ?

I'm sick and tired of this stupid thingy .

If you think my past is more interesting than my present , then might as well leave me .

I don't want to hurt myself anymore .

Especially because of guys .

If you think i'm over-reacting , well , yes , i am .

I won't let anybody hurt me .

Be it the one i love or whoever who's in my life right now .

If you think we could be happy with you keep on asking about my past and hurt my feelings , well then , FUCK YOU !

I'm a human being full of sins and mistakes .

All i want is your love to go through all these pains and start anew .

But you keep on reminding me about my past .

You think i'm okay with it ?

Do you want me to write you a long composition about my life ?

Who i dated with , who i had sex with , how many rounds we had , where it happened , how it happened and whatever shits .

Would you like it if i were to ask you those questions ?

Ouh yahh ! You're a guy .

No loss anyway hurh .

Seems like you're giving up on me right ?

If you can stand it , neither do i .

Being with you , who keeps on asking me about my past , might as well i stay on my past right ?

Why must i find somebody NEW who always talks , asks and reminds me of my PAST ?

If you think you're better of without me and can't stand with my attitude , then just fuck off .

I think about myself first before thinking about others .

Why should i try not to hurt you when everything you do for me seems like bullshit the moment you started to mention about my past .

Yeah . I promised not to leave you .

But i ain't gona apologies for your stupid acts .

And if you were to leave me , i'm not going to stop eu either .

Do what you think is right for you .

If separation is the best for you and me , then just let it go .

Saye Zara Biolz

Thank You Friend .

2011-05-26T15:26:00.002+08:00

Today is the 26 may 2011 .

Exactly 2 years back , on 26th may 2009 , was the first time we met .

Not holding on to the past we shared .

Just miss the moments we had .

You're a good friend .

How can i forget you .

I don't know why we ended up like this .

But i think you've made a good choice to stop being a friend of mine .

I really appreciate for everything you've done for us .

Thank you Sazali Bin Othman .

Muchly appreciated . (:

I Love You (:

2011-05-24T14:33:00.004+08:00

Even after we argued or have any misunderstandings , i will still love you .

Even if you continue biting or pinching me , i will still love you .

Even when you said that you love Miko more than you love me , i will still love you .

Although you're shorter than me , i will still love you .

And although you sometimes keep some things to yourself , i will still love you .

I never get tired of telling you that i love you .

I never hated it when i missed you so much .

I never think of letting you go .

When you're infront of me , i just can't stop looking at you .

When you're not with me , i just can't stop thinking about you .

I can't remember when i started to love you .

I don't know why i love you .

But what i know is , I NEED YOU .

I always thought that guys the same age as me thinks immaturely .

But you proved me wrong .

And i love you more for that . (:

I know that you don't get to read whatever i post here in my blog , but i just want you to know that ,

I really do love you so much Muhammad Shakir .

I hope we'll go through everything TOGETHER .

And also hope that we will last forever . <3

My Baby You ~~

2011-05-15T18:58:00.004+08:00

Boo ! Just want to do some updates .

Muhammad Shakir Bin Mohamad Sharom is the name .

08.05.2011 is the date .

He's a sweet guy . NOT handsome BUT cute . (:

Very the caring gitu lo .

And the best part is , i have a feeling that i could move on with my life with him .

That's a good thing right ? ((:

ABOUT HIM :

Gets older every 21st may .

Was born in 1991 .

Staying at Yishun .

Serving NS now . ORD on the 7th dec 2011 . SCDF at Jalan Bahar .

SHORT ! Hees . No offence b .

Part -time rider at MacDonald's .

Rides Super 4 Spec 1 .

Bonchet !

AND HE LOVES ME !! (:

Ouh yahh . This morning i dreamt about Toyol .

About us , spending time together and stuffs .

Sungguh takk perlu shey .

Didn't even think about him before i sleep .

How i dreamt about him also i don't know . Haish !

Please get out of my mind !! Thank you .

P/S : I Love You . <3

No Title .

2011-04-20T18:05:00.002+08:00

I miss YOU ! ):

What A Coincidence !

2011-04-16T02:30:00.002+08:00

Felt like eating Mak's Roti Kirai just now .

Then i sent a message to Zali .

That was really really really really really really random ehk bdw .

Then Titi messaged me telling me that Mak cooked Roti Kirai today .

Was so hapie . Wanted to go ther .

But was half-hearted .

Nothing got to do wif them or whoever .

Its just me .

Hmm . Mayb i will go later in the afternoon .

Den evenin or nyt wana go Iman's chalet .

Den mayb go out wif Diyan n Naz fer awhile . Den bck to the chalet n SLEEP !

Sunday goin to ECP . Yaya's burfdae .

I wana play Rollerblade !! I don't care !!!!!!!!!!!! ((:

Okay , now , shud i go to slep ? Hees .

I can slep . But my eyes r tired . ):

Ohh yahh . I haf a secret to tell .

Iman likes me .

But i can't seem to like him .

Mayb cus he's too quiet .

Shud gif him mor tym .

Teach me how to fall in love again .

I kinda forget how to . Hehs .

And to that Pai Ka , im really hapie fer him .

Hope he last long wif gf .

They really look kiyut tgt . Awwww !

Sweet2 !!

He's my one n only Abg Pai Ka . Hahahaha .

Okay . Buhbye ! Muahks !

To My Dearest Stranger .

2011-04-11T19:21:00.001+08:00

Heyy Stranger ,

I Miss You .

I Want You To Know How Much I Love And Miss You .

Yeahh , I Still Do . ):

fucked up !

2011-03-17T01:45:00.002+08:00

heyy .
just now watched movie at cwp .
wif adi farhan .
we watched red riding hood den mars needs mom .
hees . den chill n drank a can of beer b4 going bck hm .
hmmm . den at fb momok said dat 'die dahh berpunye .'
down sekejap . but its not serious at all .
stakat calar jekk . takk luke ponn . haha .
Sunday , got kendarat n gona get drunk afta dat wif adi farhan , fadily , syed n fyfie .
only if i haf the mood to go lahh . hmmm .
just now Nazlie went out wif ayie ! fuck sia .
stress jap aku dibuatnye . haish .
dah lahh . tdor urh . nytes . (:

Just Bored (:

2011-03-12T02:39:00.002+08:00

weeehoooooo !
at home , bored !
well , he went fer the operation yest .
all went well . thot of visitin him .
but , can i ?
if i can , shud i ?
if i shud , wud i ?
it's at j.e sia .
nehmind ! it all depends on momok .
if momok's gona visit him den i'll just tagg along . ((:
hope he's doin gud now .
wonderin if he's aslep .
tgh tinggikan ego niek .
tanak mcg die .
bialah die . haha . die igt die sorg ley ego .

hmmmm . i noe im strong enuff to let go .
but y i didnt ? siao !
haha . wad saket aty jekk .
buang mase jekk .
takyah lahh nakk pk2 .
im hapie now .
so y shud i think abt sumtin which makes me unhapie .
tol takk ?
takk tau lahh kan .
bdw . on 5th march , Sat , went fer bbq pit .
saw EC ther .
he kol me minah batam !
kwang asam tols .
sengaje kcao org . org takk kcau die tuh dah urh .
mangkok urh diktuhh . besar pehh mangkok .
den on the 8th , momok ajak lpak nan EC .
den i said i dowan .
then EC kol me tnye nak lpak ke takk .
momok showed the mcgs btwn me n him to EC .
tuh lagyk satu mangkok . haha .
but they r nice ppl . FRIENDS i mean .
i made a bet with momok .
hu drinks hafta treat swensen's . haha .
actualy i did dat cus i wana restrain maself frm drinkin .
just makin up excuses . (:
but dis sunday mayb pojie nak bkak botol . CHIVAS !
woww ! temptation sia . cb tols . takpe2 .
c how it goes . ((:
klah . nytes . muahks ! <3

-.-'

2011-03-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

Clubbing yesterday .

But seriously no mood for all that .

I dont know why im starting to think about him again .

was in the bus on our way to Clarke Quay , thinking bout him .

was gonna cry . but stil stay strong .

changed my wallpaper to the tazzy he airbrushed when we just got to know each otha .

im not okay , m i ? idk ! fuck !

was thinkin of getting drunk yest . but when reached there , lost the mood to drink . -.-'

i know i dun haf anie feelings fer him animor .

but y i stil mish n care fer him ? idk !

sometimes i just hate maself . i hate this feelings im feeling . -.-'

MSN conversation . That will be the last . (:

2011-02-04T03:33:00.003+08:00

Sazali Toyol says :
can do me a favor?

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
wad ?

Sazali Toyol says :
bbl serious jap leh?
bout us...
can?

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
ape ?

Sazali Toyol says :
hmm..
cam ne ehk nak start
u have anytin 2 ask me tak?

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
ape yg eu nak ckp eu ckp jek urh .

Sazali Toyol says :
takpe lah..
nvm

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
ckp urh .
dahh ckp gtuk behh takk bbual .

Sazali Toyol says :
hm..
takut sakit kan hati u..

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
takpe .
dah biase .

Sazali Toyol says :
takmu ckp gitu
haiz..
sblm ape2..
i wana say sorry n also thk u 4 all the things u have done for m
me*
sorry cos i gave u hope..
sorry i always ignore u..

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
n y ish dat ?

Sazali Toyol says :
thks cos u always b there if i need u..
dun ask why lah.
i also dunnoe
but i want all dis to end..
not even as a fren.. i just cant lah..

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
y not ?
cus i always kacau eu ?
disturb eu ?

Sazali Toyol says :
yeah.
sorry
i dun like

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
okae den .
sory

Sazali Toyol says :
no im sorry not u

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
no .
im suppose to say dat to eu .
ish dat all ?

Sazali Toyol says :
tsk ape2 lah..
yeah tats all..

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
ok .

Sazali Toyol says :
have u got anytin 2 say?

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
just take care .

Sazali Toyol says :
u 2..

Last message received at 3:32 AM on 4/2/2011.

What do i actually want in life ? I dont know ? That's not a good answer .

2011-02-01T07:04:00.003+08:00

i realy dont know wads gonna hapen next .
i dun even noe wad im thinkin ryt now ?
why do i like him so much ?
n why he reminds mie of toyol so much ?
the way he acts , the way he toks .
haish . i dun think we wil ever b tgt .
even if he sound mie now , i wud haf rejected .
he's a mature guy . mie ? not even near . haha .
he's expectin a future . wher as i dun even think abt it YET .
well , mayb i do . my heart is ready to commit .
but me , myself n my life like dis ? NO !
i hafta change b4 finding a guy .
my stubborness always gets in the way .
haish . y was i born like dis ?
can i just shut maself down just like a computer ?
or mayb reboot ?
ARGHH ! fuck man . i hate dis life .

The Girl Inside Me

2011-01-27T02:51:00.002+08:00

Lets welcome AtiM back .
In my life . haha .
The symptoms are there .
Tak keysahh , kutok org , tak pedulik ape org rase . haha .
Slow and steady ......
n BOOM ! We attack !! haha .
But someone said she hates AtiM .
Y ehk ? okay pe .
hmm . sedih shey org tak suke kter . haha !
takpe lahh . asalkan ku bahgie sudahh . (:
lebih baek ku jdyk cam dulu . daripade makan aty . (:
i really mish those tyms .
i really ned AtiM now to move on . ((:
haha .
Adios ! ((:

Random post . Random feeling .

2011-01-25T00:59:00.000+08:00

gosh !
I LOVE YOU !

[[L]ad[Y]o[L]]

2011-01-21T01:08:00.003+08:00

i realie think dat i shud take a break from lpakin . haha .
i mean , seriouslie . i must !
okaes dis ghurl's thinks dat - it is fun havin them ard . they make me hapie n stufs . yea .
but dis young lady thinks dat - it ish tym to think about your future . eu shud have started plannin by now . a gud one .
haish ! pai bler kann nak cam niek .
unhealthy lifestyle ! ((:
i wil start by concentratin on my job .
den i can make the next move . ((:
ehk bdw ! end of the month nak enrol lesen okay .
with syarull n fyfie .
tuh pon lau fyfie jdyk .
lau tak jdyk takpe , ku amek nan syarull .
lau syarull tak jdyk takpe , ku amek sorg . ((:
ckp tak gune , tembak tak kenek .
just wait n c lahh . hmmmm .
bdw kann ! mie n fyfie planned to do tattoos .
hmm . shud i ? idk .
i realie wan to haf one . no ! 4 ! haha .
ntah lahh ehk . dats not important anyway .
bdw , tdyk abg ckp , ku dahh jual SP ku aru kau nak amek lesen . haish .
hahaha . takpe lahh . its not the tym fer mie to b a minah rempit yet . *winks2*
klah , i wana slep . later werkin at 7am (abg anta) . haha .
nytes loves . muackies ! (:

After 10 Months . . . . Still the same old ZaraBiolz . (:

2011-01-12T23:12:00.002+08:00

woahh ! blog lahh shey .
hmm . almost 1 yr ku tak update blog . hehe .
wad hapen ehk . . . .

hmmmmm .2010 , thru out the year ive been in n out of love .
dats a normal thing ryt ? haha .
but stil , i onlie haf 4 ex okayy .
maintain dokk ! hees .
2010 taught me that not all 'tue kutoks' r matured n not all 'anak abus' r immature . (:
n yea , ive learned how to overcome heartbroken-ness . haha ! in a way urh .

recentlie , ive a family at BP .
We care , we share .
Simple life . Full of lafter , joy , happiness n also sadness .
With them ard , i dont feel down .
Always 'UP THERE' . whaeng ! haha .

But now , i think dat im gona stay at Marsiling back .
Someone told me that i know wads ryt n rong fer me .
Its just dat i dun bother to think about it .
First step to change everything bck to normal ish to go bck Marsiling .
Den from ther , its easier to see the ryt path .
N he said dat my BP family influenced me .
Dulu tym tgl Marsiling , slalu gy keje .
Smlm mabok pon sok tetap gy keje .
Tpyk at BP takk gy keje . haha .
But wad he said is true lahh kann . (:

Okayy . 2011 - A Brand New Start !!!!!
Lets make a change .
A big change . ((:
I hapie , ma family hapie , everyone hapie . Weeeee !~
n lets not think too much about love life dis year okayy zara ?
Atim wouldnt wana c dat hapen .

2010-03-06T23:01:00.001+08:00

Heys . N0w in the car .
0dw t0 City Square .
Gona watch m0vie . Hmm . Cant mit my baby shey . ):
0n m0nday g0in t0 sp0re .
My dad g0in t0 c0urt . Hmm . H0pe everythings 0ryte .
I realy mish ma bear2 . *s0bs*
Hmm . Klah . Buhbye . Muahks !

Haish !~

2010-02-26T12:50:00.002+08:00

Okay .
now can i complain ?
He's online whenever im not .
n wen im online , he's not .
haish .
dunoe wad to say lahh kann ..
yest , i was online til 2+am .
he wasnt online .
behh when i checked my FB dis mornin all the notifications are from him .
grrrr ..
wadeva lahh kann ..
dun wana think .

hmm . bdw mayb im goin out wif ma aunts n kuzzies later .
hope im gona haf a gud day .
haha . n just now i ate prata b4 had my shower sia .
prangai burok pe atim . huahuahua .
tpyk skg dahh andie okays . (:

Cafe World ...
it just makes mie bsy sia .
thanks to Sayang , kak maia n FyFiE lahh ehk .
hmmph !~

bdw kann .
Hadri Bin Omar a.k.a HBO sound ku jdyk scandal die .
haha ! funny lahh dat guy . hahas .
if eu alreadie haf probs wif eur ghurl , having scandal will onlie makes things worse eu idiot ! haha .
guys . no sayy no sayy ..
haha .

today ish the 2nd day i dun smoke .
good fer mie ! haha .

had a rough year last year .
hope this year gona b better .

tpyk kann ..
i'm afraid to commit urh .
i trust him . but i dun trust maself .
haish .
camane niek de ?
haiyah ...........

Mcm sial .

2010-02-15T22:08:00.000+08:00

N0w waiting fer fo0d .
My mo0d ish n0t s0 gud ryt n0w . Haish .
Lyk cb sia !
Hmmph !
G0na head t0 cherating afta dis .
Dahlahh bdan gatal2 . Kenek gigit nyam0k .
Mak die peh mak lahh sial !
Fcuk !

Cant slep !

2010-02-15T02:39:00.001+08:00

H0la .
Just pinish watchin pisau cukur .
M0squit0s bit mie sia ! Nabei !
Just feel lyk takin a knife n scratch .
Bdw , im kinda slepie n0w but cant slep .
0r shud i sae i d0nt dare t0 slep .
G0t cicak lahh shey .
Very the scary .
Hmm . Just n0w i cried .
Dun0e y .
If i n0e 0s0 i w0nt tell . Hahas .
3 m0r days !
Aiyay0 .

Finally . Reached kelantan .

2010-02-14T15:04:00.000+08:00

Yo0ho0 .
Ive reached kelantan .
Hees .
N0w at m0k (mak) hse .
Its hard t0 understand wad the say shey . Hahaha !
My batt flat dis m0rning .
Haiyah . Was s0 b0red sia in the car just n0w . Hmm . Update so0n . Adi0s .

0dw t0 KELANTAN !

2010-02-14T00:29:00.002+08:00

Hey .
N0w im in the car .
Feelin slepy . But cant slep . Hees .
Huggin ma bear2 n bl0ggin .
Bdw , i mish 'bear2' .
It's been a few daes since we last mcg n t0k wif each 0ther .
Haish .
W0nderin if he's 0kay .
Wad he's d0in n0w .
Haish . Haish . Haish .
Bdw , just n0w mie n fyfie to0k a vide0 0f 0urselves singin This I Pr0mise Y0u n Never Be Replaced .
Wil b upl0aded at Facebo0k so0n . Hees .
Bdw , the r0ads here shucks man !
Haiy0h .
Bdw , left 0nlie 4 days t0 quit . Hehs !
To0k 0ff my t0ngue stud(barbell) .
Quittin sm0kin so0n .
These r the tw0 things i did cus 0f 'him' .
Its a big change 0kay !
Felt awkward w/0 barbell . ):
N cant imagine mie w/0 cigarette . Haha .
Wadeva lahh kann .
Hmm . Klahh . I'll update so0n .
muahks ! (:

0ut 0f Rand0mness And Bored0m

2010-02-12T13:04:00.000+08:00

H0la !
Aftanun t0 every0ne !
Hehs .
Tmrw g0in t0 kelantan lia0 .
N wil b bck next wk .
By the tym i c0me bck , can0t sm0ke anim0re i gues .
Bdw , didnt sm0ke fer 2 daes 0readie ta0 .
Gud kan kan kan ?
Hees .
Ehh bdw kann . Cam susah gtuk ehk nak cntct ku pehh bear2 .
Haiyah .
6 M0RE DAYS !!!
Shit !
):

BLOGGIE EDITTED !!!

2010-02-11T03:57:00.001+08:00

haha .. simple edit ..
as long i editted my blog lahh kann .. (:
cheerios ..
nytes !!

AtiM !!

2009-12-16T17:11:00.002+08:00

heyys !!
saye dahh 18 !!
hahaks !~
at last .. he confessed ..
haha ..
leading a hapie life now ..
love 'HiM' ..
tata !~

[[04-12-2009]]

i love you .. i REALLY do ..

2009-10-23T00:01:00.002+08:00

i love you ..
but til wen wil it b dis wae ?
to make eu trust mie , its like impossible to mie ..
cus eu never trust mie ..
even if eu trust mie , they wont ..
sum ppl just wont change ..
dorg slalu bising2 bler atim alekk lmbt ..
tudoh atim wad bende yg bkan2 ..
can i ask eu sumtin ?
bende yg mepek tuhh , mlm jekk ke ley terjdik ?
asl takk cayekan atim ?
asl slalu nak kenek kaitkan 'atim kua' n 'dgn jantan' ?!
kua jekk nak kenek nan jantan pe ?
mepek kann ..
i just dun like to be treated dis wae ..
y im quiet its bcos i haf the feeling dat thers no use of tellin people hu dun understand ..
cant c the reason fer mie to voice out ..
kept quiet n do ma own stuffs ..
til on wednesdae , i cant take it animor ..
i was treated worst den a kid wif probation ..
ish dat wad eu kol TRUST ?..
haish ..
i noe how to take care of maself ..
n im doin dis cus i wana prove to eu dat i can take care of maself ..
stubborn ? rebelious ? EGO ?
yea .. i admit dat i am ..
sorry if it hurts eu ..
but just wan eu to noe dat it hurts mie too ..

[[Fatimatuzzahrah]]

i wana tok to you !

2009-10-17T17:54:00.002+08:00

maken nak rilek maken huru hara hidop kush ..

haish ..

watched The Proposal yest ..

we cried lahh shey .. hehe ..

that guy ish so swit !!

waaaa ... (:

talked to Bakya bout dis ..

n i think its tym fer mie to realie talk to HiM ehk ?

smuorg tnye ku okae ke takk ..

ape korg pehh maksod siol ??

mesti urh okaes ..

lau takk ku takde pat cnie ..

kan kann kann ??

belo tols lahh ..

but .............

haish .. nvm ..

hmm ..

smlm lpak jap nan zaini n his fwen ..

nantokk pe sia ..

hmm .. n to 'Minah' ..

wil tell eu wen im readie to hear 'everything' kkaes ..

wen i think back ..

its not the ryt tym to know about 'them' ..

n yahh ..

not all mat motors r the same ..

ade baek , ade cam sial ..

so takmo lahh ckp mat motor smue same ..

ade mat yg takde motor lagiik cam sial ..

tuhh camane laks ehk ? haha ..

klah2 ..

im outs ..

bye ..

AtiM_sEtaN

Kelakar Seram

2009-10-12T09:16:00.002+08:00

woots !

im like so slepie lahh kann ..

hmm ..

yest went out wif Diyan , Mamat n 'Mumy' ..

went sheesha ..

den went bck ..

reached home at ard 12 ..

den went out again ..

to wdls ctr fer supper ..

waited fer Bakya ..

den blah darik sane ..

aru jln ckit den got dis one car , kimak ! pehh laju ..

heading towards us ..

n mie n Bakya was like 'eh siallah !'

den ran lorr ..

org bodoh jekk yg tak lari ..

otak blank ehk bdw at dat point of tym ..

i remembered pulling Bakya's hand ..

but den she wasnt beside mie ..

PANICKED !

pusing2 carik die ..

den found her ..

she was injured ..

kau ..... dramatic lahh shey ..

wad ku panic gyler shiots ..

menggigil japs ..

n yahh ..

surprisingly .. i asked her to mengucap ..

cam all of a sudden gtuk kann ..

ME ? MENGUCAP ??

WOW !!!

n they said i looked pale ..

VERY ...... pale .....

ape takk .. tgn pai menggigil ..

haha .. k LAME ..

behh ambulance n bdak CD dtg ..

siak urh .. mat CD takde satu ponn yg hansem ..

dahh bngit nan c musibat tuhh .. the driver lahh kann ..

behh npk bdak2 CD muke pecah lagik lahh bngit ..

hees ..

odw to hosp dorg byk tnye ehk bdw ..

bngit !

i was like 'Can eu shut eur mouth up ?!'

hahaks ..

umm .. so ... yea ..

was at hospital all nyt ..

Bakya ? die ok lahh die ..

kaki luke n ribcage die saket ..

tuhh jekk ..

supposed to werk morning shift todae ..

but didnt go to werk .. hees ..

nak slep lahh pasni ..

umm .. klah2 ..

buhbye .. (:

plate num die JLQ 2019 ehk bdw ..

sibat die .. hmmph !~

adios !~

Sazali Bin Othman

2009-10-10T00:50:00.004+08:00

heyys ..
i hafta let dis out ..
til wen i wana kip dis to maself ryt ..
haish !~
i think i made the wrong move by mitting HiM ..
shudnt haf done dat in the fers place ..
He's doing just fine w/o mie ..
n i dun think thers a ned fer mie to bother HiM animor ..
i love HiM too much lahh ehh ??
lau ikot kan ati , mmg ku takley lpaskan die ..
i cant stop lovin HiM ..
i wana b wif HiM ..
but dun think He feels the same wae like i do ..
thot of mittin HiM dis Sunday to tok about it ..
but He's goin out wif His camp mates ..
i dunoe wen i can tok to HiM ..
or i shud just leave ?..
just walk outta His lyf ..
haish !~
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH LAHH !!
urgh !!~
sial lahh ..
wher's AtiM ??
wher's the strong ghurl ??
haish !~

[AtiM_sEtaN]

to my 'baby' :

just wana tell eu dat i love eu so much ..
so damn much ..
of all these daes we didnt mit , i never 4get to think about eu ..
even fer a dae ..
mish eu lots ..
mish the tyms we spent 2geder ..
i noe its hard fer mie to express ma feelings n communicate wif eu ..
but dis feeling i haf fer eu ish true ..
i love eu so much ..
i want eu so badlie ..
but unfortunatelie , we cant b 2geder ..
yea , it hurts ..
so much ..
but i hope dat tym wil heal the pain ..
i realie hope so ..
yg2 , eu tc ok ..
Muahks !~

[[BabYoLurpes]]

BOO !~

2009-10-08T12:36:00.002+08:00

hello ..
tuesday ..
lpak wif titi a.k.a kak nor ..
hahaks ..
belo .. siap kau ..
nnt ku kcau kau rabak2 .. hehe ..
now stil thinkin bout the $300 ..
haish .. fed up jekk ..
hmm ..
dis week all the way sia keje ptg ..
pnat pe ..
haha ..
bdw , bear2 didnt eplie ma mcg since dat day i told him dat i was at tOyoL's hse ..
haha .. prangai pe die ..
pnat lahh ku lyn kau .. haiyoh ..
klah2 ..
tata .. (:

GOOD or BAD ?? haish !~

2009-10-05T22:59:00.002+08:00

heyheyhey !!
nak tau about yest ehk ??
haha ..
kkaes .. umm .. ape ku wad ehk smlm ..
hmm .. ouh yahh ..
met Nadiah , matae pojie ..
g mamm at IMM ..
den jln2 japs ..
pastuh g umah die ..
lek2 pat sane from 4+ to 8+ ..
hmm ..
die saket .. ):
smlm tgk die cam cian gtuk ..
agik ckit nak nangis ..
tpik takpe lahh kann .. simpan jekk airmate ku tuhh ..
hmm .. narie laks ..
werk pagy ..
met fyfie n bakya at cwp ..
n gues wad ??
wa kena saman lahh sia ..
like CB sia ..
haish ..
den went bck .. get readie den met tOyoL ..
den took bus to his hse ..
lek jap , mkn ..
den alek ..
sejok pe ..
now mie just reached home ..
watchinng Criminal Minds ..
sok keje pagy dehh ..
haiyah ..
klah .. tata !~

Thursday & Friday

2009-10-03T01:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterdae ..
werk aftanun ..
til 6 onie ..
suroh bakya coverkann ..
met iffah , mira , linda n her fwen ..
went bugis den bedok fer karaoke session !
whaeng ..
haha ..
just now werk PM ..
not tired .. but slepie lahh shey ..
yest slept at 3+am n woke up at 7+am ..
haiyah ..
went breakfast at mac wif FyFie ..
den jln2 pat cwp pagy2 bute .. haha ..
waited fer ma sis ..
den went bck 2geder ..
not long afta dat i hafta go werk oreadie ..
suppose to reach ther at 2.30pm ..
but i went out at 2.40pm ..
wakakakaka !
siak jekk ehk prangai ..
hmm .. just now at werk , wasnt realie concentrating on ma werk lahh kann ..
pkran .. but takk tau pk sal ape .. haish ..
dunoe lahh wads rong wif mie jus now ..
skg niek kann .. ade henfon ponn cam takde henfon ..
tak bunyik langsong !..
dulu slalu bsy wif mcgs n kols ..
but now , jgn harap !..
pena nak try knal2 alek ..
but tak pai 3 jam dahh malas nak lyn ..
haha ..
ku ponn tak tau ape ku nakk ..
bler henfon snyp , bored ..
bler dahh ade org utk nak bbual n mcg , malas nak layan lahh plaks ..
hmm ..
ouh yahh .. havent told eu bout December ehk ..
plan jeklahh kann ..
tak tau jdik ke takk ..
hmm .. mayb mid Dec enrol motor ..
abg nak sponsor beb .. huhu !~
den wana buy helmet ..
den pelan2 kayoh urh .. hees ..
cant wait fer Dec ..
waaaaaa ....... (:

bdw kann ..
dis Sunday .... shud b mittin HiM lahh kann ..
He said He's free on Sunday ..
Lookin forward to Sunday ..
wee !~
hehe .. kkaes .. i nak slep ..
tata .. MuAcKiEs !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

Monday - Wednesday

2009-10-01T13:09:00.003+08:00

heyys ..
blogg tym !!!!!
hehe ..
tired lahh these few daes ..
werk , den lynkan dorg g jln aye smue ..
hmm ..
Monday ..
forgot wad i did on dat dae .. haha ..
Tuesday ..
g jln aye nan bdak2 KK ..
the Kedai Kopi gang ..
(Mamat n his ghurl , bAcHeNn , Bear2 , Bro , Salleh , Nazar , Kak Maia n family , Bakya , Fyfie n Pojie)
dorg plan nak jmp kul 4 ..
but mie , bro , kak maia family , bakya n fyfie reached ther at 6.30pm ..
hahaks .. baek pe ..
pat umah , dah ciap smue , slipper laks takde ..
bngit pe .. nak pkai tnye urh org dulu ..
den ku prangai lahh kann ..
malas nak g ..
beh dorg ajak g ..
terpakse kai heels ..
like cb sia ..

Fers hse .. umah bear2 ..
mamm mee hoon ..
den went to bachenn's hse ..
mamm roti wif curry ..
den g Jurong West ..
umah Izzati ..
perjalanan nak p sane tak perlu lahh ehh ..
haish ..
at dat hse mie , bakya , kak maia , bear2 n salleh sat at the dining table ..
kecoh pe ktorg ..
bear2 pehh lokek ..
ku mtk ckit behh die tanak kasik ...
haiyo ..
den brooch ilang ..
kwang3 ..
Siti , matae Mamat , irrits ehk bdw ..
org gurau2 nan matae die ponn nak jeles ..
fed the ups shiots !!
kkaes , tanak ckp urh ..
pastuh3 .. g umah Siti at bkt panjang ..
den g Sembawang .. umah Mamat ..
naseb baek bdak irrits tuhh takde .. haha ..
Nazar kasik kter duit aye lahh shey .. hahaks ..
siaks jekk .. hees ..
den g umah yan bunny .. pat blk sblah pehh blakang ..
heheks ..
they ask fer drink refill ..
beh wen yan refill satu , ade agik satu cwn kosong ..
dorg minom cpat2 kasik abes ..
byk kali shiots org tuh patah alekk nak refill kan air ..
hahhahaahahahahaha !!!
pastuh , ALEK !!
pi umah , lek 10-15 mins den tros K.O ..
hehe ..

Wednesday ..
werk .. den ask papa to fetch mie ..
den g makan pat Sembawang ..
den alek jap den g kdai ..
wif bakya n p2 ..
thot of buyin choc .. but ntah lahh kann ..
haha ..
lek2 pat bawah blk ..
minom ..
ckit jek !
den alek .. dgr mj12 ..
den online jap ..
den bbual nan tOyoL ..
tdor same2 ..
hmm ..
huggs ?? Kish ?? Mishh ??
haish !~
Still Do Love You Baby ..
but den .. haish ..
klah3 .. nak p werk niek ..
tata .. (:

[ZaRa_biOlz]

Jalan Raya

2009-09-27T02:25:00.004+08:00

heyya !!
just reached home ..
tdik g jln aye ..
pnat lahh shiots !!
hmm ..dorg smue kai heels ..
hah ! amek kau !!
hahaks ..
fers hse was at 541 .. umah jiran p2 ..
den went to kak yati's hse ..
ku tdor lahh shiots pat sane ..
siak jekk prangai .. hees ..
den g umah Alang ..
den walked to wak esah's hse ..
den took bus to bedok .. umah wak payah ..
so slepie siak .. slept in the bus ..
contact lense irritates mie .. cb !
den went to Mac civic ..
g makan ..
kul 1am ehh .. makan Mac ..
dah lame pe tak wad gtuk .. hees ..
im gona slep soon ..
later werkin lahh at 7.30 ..
dpat tdor jap ponn jdik lahh kann ..
hahaks .. kkaes ..
nytes ..

Loves ..
Muahks !~

~! bab[Y]o[L]urpes !~

TWOmonthsANDtenDAYS

2009-09-26T08:31:00.000+08:00

quick updates ..
bakya werk at ma werkplace ..
yest fers dae ..
better sia .. if not all aunties sia werk ther .. no teens .. except fer christin lahh ..
the indian ghurl ..
sial lahh .. racist siak !
haha .. jokin .. she's okaes lahh .. (:
umm .. went to Zali's hse on Thursday ..
smue ade ..
n smue cam biase jekk ..
saw Dale ! hahaks ..
didnt pinish ma mee ..
SEBAB :
1) im not hungry ..
2) i feel diff lahh ..

den tym nakk alek mak die ckp
'senang2 dtg lahh ..'
*silence* fer a few secs b4 sayin InsyaAllah ..
otak blank japs ..
haha ..
den he sent mie home ..
salam him den walked away without lookin bck ..
tak tau ehh asl camtuh ..
den watched him go from 6th floor ..
haish ..
he asked mie wen wana mit again ..
i didnt ans him .. i think .. hees ..
BECAUSE shud ask himself lahh ..
not mie ..
kann3 ?.. (:
an an an an !! hahaks ..
he called mie wen he reached home just to tell dat he reached home le ..
hmmmmmm .. wonder y ..
teringt ku tym dulu2 ..
haish .. kkaes .. tak perlu ehk !!
klah .. peace outs ..

Cherrie Cherrie Boom Boom !!!

2009-09-22T19:08:00.003+08:00

Hello .. yest i tok on the fon wif HiM .. He said i sounded like a guy .. rabak pe .. batok pehh pasal urh niek .. suare dahh cam gtuk , sengau laks tuhh .. haish .. apelah naseb c bangau niek .. wakaka !~ we tok3 den slep together2 .. onie wif HiM lahh im like dat .. nan org laen , jgn harap ! malas nak lyn .. hees .. umm .. die ade tnye whether im stil sgl .. lupe laks nak tnye die alek .. hehs .. die ckp bpak tnye 'bangau tak dtg ?' hmm .. nga pk niek .. bler nak p sane .. g sorg ? cam tak biase lahh pulaks kann .. hmm .. im thinkin .. camane ehk ? thot of goin ther on thursdae or saturdae .. i think saturdae wud b betta ryt ? hmmmmm .. behh beAr2 ponn jempot p umah die .. tak tau lahh ape angin die jempot zara kann .. but he did .. tuh ponn i havent plan wen to go .. beh die tnye zara itot ke takk g jln aye nan bdak2 KK .. hmm .. c how lahh kann .. bdw kann , 'He' posted "MERAH JUGAK !!" pat FB .. we actualie wore red on the fers day of aye .. doinkk !! behh kenek kcau .. haish .. fedup2 .. im slepie ehk bdw .. jap agik dean's family nak dtg .. but dunoe wad tym .. hmm .. nak tdor jap lahh .. kkaes .. adios !~

Second Day Of Raya

2009-09-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

dis mornin went to Johor ..
atok's hse ..
naek motor ..
rambotku kusut !!
siak betol ..
umm .. tdor jap pat sane .. hehe ..
den alek .. sambong tdor ..
til 5+pm ..
den angon , ciap2 den tros g bugis ..
wif bakya , fyfie , yaya n awin ..
ferst thing we did ish to find food !!
haha ..
ate at Rex ..
den patah alek g bugis street ..
jln2 jap .. den alek ..
singgah pat port cus maia ajak tron ..
but den bler kter sampai die takde ..
siak tol ..
kter kenek trick shiots ..
so kter alek tros ..
MERAH JUGAKK !! wakaka ..
bdw kann .. tdik tym odw alek pat dlm train kecoh sak ..
hahaks ..
kacau org .. kekek lahh shey ..
i laff til ma face turn red ..
hehehe ..
beh pai umah , online , tgk fb , jiwang ..
hahaks .. pai skg ..
cough n flu .. like CB sia ..
umm .. wen ehk nak g umah die ?..
i wonder ..
hmm .. klah .. nak slep ..
nyte2 .. muahks !

First Day Of Raya

2009-09-20T18:50:00.003+08:00

Hari Raya ..
just now woke up at 9am ..
den waited fer everyone to arrive ..
eat ! eat ! n eat !
hmm ..
todae kann , very the touchin gtuk ..
hmm .. we had the 'seek for forgiveness' session ..
den photo taking session ..
den makan session ..
hahaks ..
fer the fers tym , i cried ..
realie cried ..
dunoe y lahh kann ..
hahaks .. pai nak mtk maaf ponn suare tak terkua ..
later afta maghrib , we all goin to pojie's hse ..
den go bck ..
wil blog again later ..
tata (:

eve of hari raya ..

2009-09-19T17:14:00.003+08:00

heyys ..
now mak2 nga seybokk2 pat dapor ..
tdik kter2 tlg jap jekk ..
haha ..
i dunoe wad i wana do wif ma hair lahh kann ..
gunting botakk urh .. hahaks ..
hmm .. dis wil b the fers aye i didnt buy aniting ..
NOTHING ..
mood aye tol2 takde ..
but thanks to adeq n ayg fer the 'taik kambing' ..
love dat thing .. haha ..
sodap dok !!
hmm .. sok cam biase jgak ..
kua g umah sdare2 ..
den mlm mok , man n mamat dtg ..
standard procedure .. hahaks ..
klah2 .. nnt mlm gue sambong ..
tata !~

slepie n tired ..

2009-09-19T00:53:00.002+08:00

boo !
just came bck ..
werk in the morning ..
den went to auntie pojie's hse ..
hmm ..
wat inai lahh shey ..
hahaks ..
2moro i wana do sumting to ma hair ..
hahaks ..
canot tell lahh kan ..
surprise .. haha ..
so yea ..
i gotta get ma beauty slep now ..
toodles .. (:

2009-09-17T23:51:00.002+08:00

work morning shift ..
came late ..
reached ther at 8am ..
ma dad sent mie to werk ..
in his cab , he kinda nagg bout mie stayin up late den werk mornin shift the next dae ..
but i didnt hear wad he said lahh ..
cus i was slepin .. haha ..
so slepie lahh ..
hmm .. 2moro mayb goin to putri's hse aft werk ..
off on Sat , Sun N Monday ..
huhu !~
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO THOSE WHO ARE CELEBRATING .. (:

Pictures Of Us ..

2009-09-16T21:28:00.005+08:00

PIX OF US !!

otw nak g buke

waiting fer buke

the brader lurb

all the guys

US at Geylang

otw bck !

Sunday - Monday - Tuesday

2009-09-14T21:40:00.007+08:00

~~Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa khabarnya pujaan hatiku ..
Aku disini menunggunya
Masih berharap didalam hatinya ..~~

lets blog bout Geylang .. umm .. sunday .. went out at ard 3+ .. met kak maia family , pojie , nad , paijal , an , faiz n bro at Cwp at 5pm .. den proceed to Geylang .. pick mamat n couple , man n mok up .. den went fer break fast .. eventho majority of us didnt fast .. muahaha ..

den walk2 jln2 .. hehe .. saw Eddy at Joo Chiat .. wahh .. dat was soooo 2007 .. hahaks .. kkaes .. den we walk2 jln2 till 12+ .. Thaqifah was unwell .. she vomitted fer mor den 3 tyms lahh shey dat nyt .. den drove to KKH .. reached ther at 1am .. accompanie kak maia in the hosp while the rest went sumwher to chill .. den hafta wait fer a few hrs .. so we chilled at KKH fer awhile .. til 3+am .. den headed to Wdls lame .. went sahur .. but i think onie sum of dem puasa today .. haha .. ate black pepper beef wif rice .. woahhh !! perot ley meletop beb !! byk makan urh smlm .. kkaes .. afta dat smue alekk .. reached home at 5am .. planned not to slep .. but den tertdor jap .. slept fer 45mins onie .. den hafta go to werk .. was abit late .. hehe ..

heyy .. stil remember Didi ?? if eu dun den go read ma May posts lahh kkaes .. haha .. kkaes .. met Didi afta werk .. he fetched mie lahh .. hmm .. dat was the fers tym we met ehk bdw .. umm .. went to 888 .. den admiralty .. bought lenses .. hehe .. den he sent mie home .. afta dat went out wif mama n kakak .. went to Cwp .. buke pat Banquet .. den alekk !!!!

Todae .. cam zombie shiot ku pat werk .. haha .. kak ju asked mie to do banking .. so went to amk hub .. behh ley terlelap jap pat dlm bus .. padahal jap jekk shey journey .. haha .. tym nak p werk , uncle anta naek van .. tuhh pon ley tertdor .. hehe .. cam lahh pnat cgt aku niek .. hehes .. den met kakak jap pat cwp .. bought sum studs .. heheks .. dah kai studs alekk lahh shey .. dah lame pe tak kai .. dah 4 mths plus .. huhu !~ now just reached home .. tros online .. hahaks .. wad the hell lahh kann .. hmm .. lapar .. tak puase ponn lapar .. hahaks .. bdw , todae's weather like cb sia .. panas gyler .. den just now i clipped ma hair lahh shey pat werk .. till now lahh kann .. haha .. fers tym pe .. weehee .. n im addicted to dis song now .. the title ish 'Your Eyes Don't Lie' sang by David Archuleta ..

I saw you yesterday,
It's been a while
You tried but failed
At holdin' back your smile right then
It's not over yet, I knew, for you
(You see)
I couldn't sleep
I thought of nothin' else
I needed help
Everyone was tellin' me
You were movin' on with someone else
But what we had was so special
People can be jealous, oh
I had to see it for myself
I can see it in your eyes
You feel the same about us as I
There is no way the truth can be disguised
You're still in love with me
You were never really out of love with me
Your eyes don't lie
I know I hurt you
I know you are hurtin' still (mmm, yeah)
But I'll make it up to you
Yeah, baby, I will
'Cause what we had was so special
You know we can't give it up
Now that I'ma lookin' at you I can see
I can see it in your eyes (your eyes)
You feel the same about us as I
There is no way (there is no way) the truth can be disguised (there is no way)
You're still in love with me
You were never really out of love with me
Your eyes don't lie
And they never will, girl
Oh, now that I know
We were apart but your heart never let go
So thank you for showin' me with one look
What used to be, and still is, a possibility
I can see it in your eyes
You feel the same about us as I
There is no way the truth can be disguised
You're still in love with me
You were never really out of love with me
Your eyes don't lie
Your eyes don't lie

91182114 ??

2009-09-11T04:15:00.000+08:00

i cant slep ..
haish ..
hafta wake up at 7 am ..
dunoe if i can wake up norts later ..
now got no one to chat wif ..
no one to tok to ..
feelin so damn bored ..
but STILL CANT SLEEP !!
gahhh !!
i gotta go training later ..
hmm .. not shure wad training lahh ..
but i noe its a training ..
cus i was told that it IS a training ..
hahaks ..
den hafta go werk ..
wil b pinishin at 4.30 pm ..
dunoe wher to go afta werk ..
go home n slep ? haha ..
ok jgak tuhh .. (:
well .. just now read thru the Army Notebook ..
was jus flippin thru at fers ..
but den sumtin caught ma eye ..
91182114 ..
dat was the line i used ryt ??
haha .. shud b urh ..
hmm .. but its not mie hu wrote dat ..
it was HiM ..
umm .. mayb he wrote dat wen we just got to noe each other ..
nak hafal num kott .. haha ..
n yea .. afta i saw dat , i took out the movie tix from ma wallet n pasted it on one of the pages lahh ..
hahaks ..
gyler ? yea ..
let it b 'OuR' book ..
dats the book wher he drew tazzy on ma very fers mornin at Jurong ..
sat in the room ..
mimicked Kahmunrah from the movie Night At The Museum 2 .. ahaks ..
laff like hell ..
den played poker ..
n chilled ..
the funny part is wen we made plans to buy breakfast ..
haha ..
June '09 ...
i miss dat month ..
had a lot of fun ..
unforgetable memories ..
wish to stay dat way .. (:
hmm .. now its alreadie september ..
known him fer almost 4 mths ..
it took mie 1 week plus to fall in love wif HiM ..
he was my first priority fer 1 mth plus ..
n the rest of the daes were spent on gettin hurt .. haha ..
afta dat 'separation' , thinkin bout HiM became ma daily routine ..
everyday without fail ehh bdw ..
haha ..
ppl thot dat im okaes ..
onie the closest noe how i feel ..
felt LOST ..
totallie lost ..
i was like 'Who Am I ?' , 'Why Im Like This ?'
seems okaes .. but dlm aty hanye tuhan saje yg tau .. haha ..
ehh .. im supposed to blog bout the Present ryt ? not the past ..
hmm .. got nothin to say actualie ..
onlie one thing lahh ..
ma bro dah bkak P plate .. huahuahua ..
klah .. enuff of the story telling thingy ..
buhbye .. muahks !

ADDICTED - stevie hoang

2009-09-09T10:40:00.001+08:00

since u went away its been one year two months
but it just dun seem like yesterday we were still together
time has passed and things have changed so
why do i feel this way
cos you're with somebody else
and im with somebody else but

whenever i think about the the love we had
it hurts so bad
whenever i think about the love we made
i said that i'd be strong
girl i really thought that i'd move on
but still i find myself asking

do u still think of me like i think about u
do u still dream of me cos i cant sleep without u
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
your love has got me addicted
said i dont know
when im with a chick and hittin it girl i call your name
said i dont know
when i be with somebody else i push them away
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
i know i gotta move on but im so addicted to u

its been long enough dont know why im still holding on
if i had a wish babe i would turn back the hands of time
cos u dont know what u got untill its gone
its the reason why im writing u this song
girl im slippin and i dont know what to do
girl i admit it, im sick over u
damn i realised my mistake, my pride got in the way
i should have begged u to stay

do u still think of me like i think about u
do u still dream of me cos i cant sleep without u
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
your love has got me addicted
said i dont know
when im with a chick and hittin it girl i call your name
said i dont know
when i be with somebody else i push them away
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
i know i gotta move on but im so addicted to u

if u ever lost someone u truely love
let me hear u say yeah
and if u lost someone u truely need
let me hear u say yeah

do u still think of me like i think about u
do u still dream of me cos i cant sleep without u
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
your love has got me addicted
said i dont know
when im with a chick and hittin it girl i call your name
said i dont know
when i be with somebody else i push them away
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
i know i gotta move on but im so addicted to u

Putus Terpaksa

2009-09-09T10:22:00.000+08:00

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Terpaksa jua ku undur diri...
Terpaksa jua ku undur diri...

Kekal

2009-09-09T10:21:00.001+08:00

Sayang dengarkanlah
Syair kau tulis ku lagukan
Moga jadi siulan
Suatu masa
Dan moga engkau kan tersenyum
Dengan irama indah
Hanya itu
Yang mampu ku beri

Di dalam mimpiku
Syair indah
Yang masih ku baca
Hangus terbakar
Dengan tak ku sangka
Yang ku mimpi
Rupanya terjadi
Punah semuanya

Kesepian kini
Menyusuli hari
Syair nan di rindu
Kau bawa bersama
Tinggallah irama
Terus ku lagukan
Kekal ia bersama
Serpihan harapan kita yang punah

Kita tak menduga
Dari kenalan lahir sayang
Hingga ku terlupa
Kau siapa
Setulus kasih ku kalungkan
Dan selautan sayang
Kau singkirkan
Di persada ramba

mishin HiM loads ..

2009-09-09T05:01:00.000+08:00

okaes ..
dat song realie shucks ryt ..
hahaks ..
cant slep ..
thinkin of hu ehk ??
i wonder ..
haha ..
klahh ..
wateba .. (:

Tiada Jodoh Antara Kita

2009-09-09T04:59:00.000+08:00

Mungkin ada rahmatnya
Kita tidak bersama
Andainya diteruskan
Apakah kesudahan
Itulah ucapanmu
Dihujung pertemuan

Kuat mana diikat
Pasti akan terlucut
Andai disambung lagi
Tidak sekuat dulu
Kerana cuma aku yang menarik
Bukan lagi tanganmu

Tak guna mendustai
Pada diri sendiri
Sedangkan rindu itu
Sering mengganggu
Salah usah dicari
Seharusnya berdua
Kita menghadapi menanganinya

Pada zahir tidak terlihat
Ada garis yang terbentang
Tapi batinku sering berkata
Biar ada batasannya

Walau tidak di sini
Cinta kita bersemi
Berkat keyakinanku
Dan doaku pohonkan
Moga diperkenankan
dipertemukan
Suatu masa nanti
Suatu masa nanti..oh..oh

'HiM' & HiM

2009-09-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

heyys ..
just came from werk just now ..
just now ate YanYan n KitKat fer break fast ..
drank Hl Chocolate n Oreo Chocolate Ice Blended ..
ALL CHOCOLATE !!
hahaks ..
now just pinish eating Kinder Bueno ..
hees ..
just now i mcg him ..
asked whether he's followin or not dis Sunday ..
den he said that he wil konfem wif mie again on thursday ..
haish ..
realie hope he wil follow ..
mish him lahh kann ..
die tak mish tuh die pehh pasal urh ..
bdw kann ..
bear2 viewed toyol's profile ehkk ..
hmm .. wondering wads his purpose of viewin toyol's profile ..
nak tgk kter ade pape ke takk ehk ?
wakakaka !!
belo tols ..
wadeva lahh ehk ckp nan die ..
hees ..
now i wana eat !
lapar beb .. (:

sleeping beauty

2009-09-08T12:29:00.000+08:00

woots !~
slept fer 13 hours ..
waaa ... best pahh ..
hahaks ..
its oreadie 12.30 lahh ..
haish ..
hafta get readie n go werk ..
malas nyer .. lau ley fly kan bagos ..
hmm .. bdw yest b4 went to slep i mcg 'HiM' ..
but was oreadie asleep wen he eplied bck ..
haha .. tak pai 10 min dahh pengsan ..
canot tahan oreadie urhh ..
narie nak buke ape ehk ?..
hmm .. CHOCOLATES !!
yea .. kkaes .. bye !!

slept fer one hour onie .. haiish ..

2009-09-07T22:04:00.001+08:00

weiits !!
ku nantokk !!
aiyayo ..
just now werk till 3 ..
bro fetched mie ..
den lekk2 japs n went out again ..
met kak maia den went to pojie's hse ..
i ate maggi goreng fer buke ..
n donut .. (:
den walked to port ..
otw ther , as we're walkin kann , saw bear2 ..
den we walked wif him ..
cus he's goin port too ..
umm .. yg ade pat port kter2 , bear2 , man n mamat ..
Thaqifah jatoh byk kali shey ..
pai luke2 smue .. haish ..
ciian die ..
NAMPAK DIE MAEN GUITAR !!
woohoo !~
had fun ..
but at the beginning of the day was like wad the hell lahh kann ..
im so tired n slepie ..
but stil cant slep ..
*sMiLe*

Dale

2009-09-07T02:59:00.000+08:00

yest reached werk place a bit late ..
hees .. star karat lahh kater kann ..
werk was okaes ..
buke mamm nasik wif black pepper beef ..
was allowed to go home earlie cus im werkin at 7.30am ehk later ..
but stil havent slep .. haha ..
well , abg fetched mie yest ..
he said just mcg him if i wan him to fetch mie todae .. hees ..
kann bagos gtuk .. (:
now gona eat !!
cus im lazie to wake up fer sahur later ..
hees ..
saw DALE !! haha ..
kiut nyerh die ..
haha .. k lame ..
adios !!

haish ..

2009-09-06T02:00:00.000+08:00

bro saw his pic ..

Bro : sape nie ?
ZaRa : Zali .. yg dat tym kau npk die pat tangge tuhh ..
Bro : yg ade moto TZM tuhh ?
ZaRa : camane kau tau ? niek mesti pojie lang .. hmm .. a'ah ..
Bro : ouh .. die matae kau ehk ?
ZaRa : dulu kter ade pape lahh .. tpik takk matae .. skg kter takde pape ..
Bro : asl ?
ZaRa : ntahh .. agikpon die nga bsy .. commited nan skul die ..
Bro : skul ane ?
ZaRa : NAFA .. hmm .. he's a gud guy lahh ..

ermm .. i tried not to tok bout HiM to anione ..
but y did Bro started it ..
haish ..
i ned a hug man .. cb urh ..

fer the fers tym i dun tok muchie2 .. (:

2009-09-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

heyya ..
todae was okaes lahh ..
hmm ..
i was late ..
so bro sent mie to werk ..
dahh lame beb tak naek motor ..
helmet besar ehk bdw ..
cam cartoon shiots ku kai ..
wakaka !~
reached ther , do sum stufs ..
abehh , pastuhh agu 'Wait For You' laks bunyik ..
melayang japs plahotaks kush ..
haiish ..
mepeks !!
umm .. ehh bdw kann ..
tdik ade org belik condom pai berkotak2 shiots ..
1 mth supply agaknye ..
wakaka !~
tdik kann , i buke sorg eu ..
makan sorg .. minom sorg .. amekk angin sorg ..
mendaks pe ..
naseb baek dahh lame practice idop sorg2 ..
heheks ..
klah2 .. adios amigos ..
wiket2 !~
kuruku !~
mumuchai !~
[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

URGH !!

2009-09-05T02:31:00.002+08:00

i dun ned all dat ..
hate all dat ..
like wad the hell lahh kann ..
haish ..
mepek urh ..

I'm Your Guardian Angel

2009-09-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

heyys ..
just came bck ..
just now went to the Guardian thingy ..
n yeah ..
got a job ..
hahaks ..
keje die cam rilek lahh kann ..
leyy slack .. hehes ..
tpik kann .. takot boring laks ..
hmm .. sok fers dae ..
hope its gona b ok ..
ermm .. nak puase ke takk ehk sok ?..
haha .. puase jekk lahh ..
umm .. den went to pojie's hse ..
buke ther .. walauponn ku takk puase ..
huahuahua !!
tdik ade syarahan ckit pat sane ..
hees .. sape lagik lau bkan wak2 kush n aunty pojie ..
haha .. kkaes wateba ..
pale pening urh ..
i think i smoke too much lahh ..
cus dat tym rape ari tak isap rokok ..
ishh .. irritatin siak niek pale ..
huhu !~
n bdw , eu wont get tired tokin bout sum1 eu love ehk ?
haha .. tak abes2 pk sal die , bbual sal die , rindu die n apape yg sewaktu nan nye lahh ..
n im slepie ehkk btw ..
padahal smlm tdor cpat sheyy ..
terlebih tdor agiik ..
aiyayo .. (:

Pening Lalat Lahh ..

2009-09-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

im so damn tired .. haish ..
sleepy plus tired ..
like wad the hell lahh kann ..
pale pening ehk bdw ..
ade lahh sebab2 tertentu ..
well , received a mcg from sumone dis aftanun ..
dun wish to mention his name lahh kann ..
if eu noe den gud lahh .. (:
urgh !!
pale kush SUPERpening lahh shey ..
now nak edit kann kak maia nye blogskin ..
den im off to slep ..
canot tahan oreadie ..
sok nak puase ke takk ehk ?
hmm .. i wonder .. haha ..
klah .. toodles .. (:

Happy !!

2009-09-03T18:28:00.000+08:00

Heyy !!
just got to noe dat he passed his TP ..
dunoe y im like excited gtukk ..
hehe ..
cant stop smilin from just now ..
biOlz tols .. haha ..
happyHAPPYhappy !!
haha ..
k stop it ..
hahas ..
Love eu bebeh ..
(:

ZaRa Owl

2009-09-03T05:27:00.004+08:00

heyys ..
slept fer 1hr just now ..
from 3+ to 4+ ..
i was so damn slepie dat i thot of not wakin up fer sahur ..
cant barely open ma bloodie damn eyes lahh shey ..
but forced maself to wake up ..
onlie drank milo n ate few slices of bread ..
umm ..
thot of goin bck to slep ryt afta sahur ..
but cant slep lahh kann ..
wahh .. dis lappy become ma husband lahh ..
been wif mie all the tym , watch mie slep ..
wakaka !~
bdw , thot of mcgin him n wish gud luck fer his TP ..
tpik takpe lahh kann ..
biar lahh die tak tau yg AtiM ingat ponn ..
even if he noes dat i remember it wont make anie diffs ryt ?..
hahaks !
hmm .. dun haf plan lahh fer todae ..
lpak ? ntah ehh ..
dah rape ari niek AtiM jdik gud ghurl lahh ..
dok umah jekk .. kua pon wif family ..
haha .. now ma brader is in his gyler2 mood ..
he's singing all the songs he haf in his lappy ..
hahaks .. nga mendak lahh tuh ..
kiyut laks abg ku niek .. hees ..
sok mayb i follow Yaya fetch Yasin from skul ..
i mean later lahh kann .. hehe ..
klah2 .. dis supposed to be a short post .. hahas ..
toodles !~
MuAckiEs !

Random Post

2009-09-02T18:24:00.002+08:00

okays .

lets make a plan .

tonight slep at 2 .

den wake up for sahur at 4.30 .

den slep at 5.3o .

wake up again at 11.30 .

haha ..

okayy takk ??

cam takk jekk .

hees .

now waiting fer buka .

sooo thirsty !! haha .

bdw kann .

dun feel like raya-ing lahh dis year .

takyah belik aju aye .

puase ponn cam nak tanak jekk dis year .

sebelom puase pnyelahh smangat .

dunoe wad hapen lahh kann .

hmm ..

and if im not rong he's goin fer TP 2moro .

if i remembered correctlie lahh .

hope he wil pass . hmm .

and yeah .

like sumone said ..

dis ish just the beginnin .

LovesLoves (:

out of boredom

2009-09-02T04:32:00.005+08:00

boohoo !~
cant slep lahh sheyy ..
hmm ..
he's stil awake ?..
at dis hour ??
aiyayo ..
bdw kann .. i've tryna find a suitable blogskin ..
a nice one of cos ..
but takk dpat .. ):
been edittin dis stewpid thing since 11+ ..
haish ..
like wad the hell lahh kann ..
hmm .. klah .. nak g sahur ..
buhbye .. MuaCkiEs !~

Haril Ahmad Dhani

2009-09-01T21:14:00.005+08:00

My Dearest Nephew

well .. just now went to bugis n arab street wif mum , sis , niece n nephew ..

jln2 jekk .. n belik mamm tok buke skalie ..

hmm .. dokong bdak gemok nie pnat lahh sheyy ..

lengoh tgn .. haha ..

kiyut .. dah pandai salam org ..

n tdik pat dlm bus he bit mie ..

saket gyler .. cam nak sepak2 muke die ..

naseb baek die kecik .. hees ..

he's so damn kiyut sia ..

OMG .. haha ..

bdw .. 3 daes oreadie ehk tak berasap ..

tak makan tak smoke ..

i dunoe y ..

hmm .. k wadeva .. (:

mendak lahh shiots

2009-09-01T00:57:00.002+08:00

heyys ..
stayed home the whole day ..
bored lahh shey .. haha ..
wad i did ehkk ??
hmm ..
woke up at 11+ ..
online til 3+ ..
den bathe ..
went out wif ma parents ..
bought food fer buka ..
den went bck home ..
slacked all the way ..
haha ..
n here i am now ..
stil haf nothin to do ..
wakaka ...
hmm .. mayb i'll slep a bit earlie todae ..
yest i slept at 4+ ..
wanted to wake up at 5 fer sahur but slept all the wae til the next mornin ..
haha .. siak2 ..
but den .. im stil not slepie sia .. haiish ..

a girl with a broken heart

2009-08-30T20:28:00.000+08:00

47 days had passed ..
14th July was the last tym i met him ..
n i didnt expect it to b the last lahh ..
cus dat day , we're like NORMAL ..
thers no signs dat it wil b like dis ..
he asked mie 'eu .. kter aper ?..'
ma ans is the same ..
well , eventho we're not together , the feeling ish stil ther ..
i love him so much .. haiish ..
i may look okaes on the outside ..
but deep inside , everything is broken ..
tried to act as if nothin hapen ..
but how much longer can i pretend ?
i stil remember everything bout him ..
ma love fer him never fades ..
but does he feels the same way bout mie ?
hmm .. ntahlah ehk .. haiish ..
i just dun believe dat i can b like dis ..
brokened n hurt ..
weneva i realie think bout him jekk i feel like cryin ..
even just now ..
tym makan pat al-ameen , airmate bertakong lahh shiots ..
tried to control ma emotions ..
talked wif ma mum n try to cheer maself up ..
haiish !!!

[[MiSsY_biOlz]]

kenangan lalu

2009-08-29T12:31:00.009+08:00

nie tym dulu2 ..
kter lek2 pat Gelare ..
we competed in finishin the drinks ..
n the last one to finish wil b forfeited ..
n so .. yahh .. im the LAST one .. haha ..
funny lahh ..
hafta walk in Cwp bare-footed ..
hahaks .. muke slumber jekk .. wakaka ..

yg nie laks ..
it was on last 2 yrs countdown if im not rong ..
we were so damn bored ..
haha .. muke mepek kann ..
we had so much fun lahh dat tym ..
haha .. 4 org dahh mcm 15 org .. huhu !~

6th day of puasa

2009-08-28T21:16:00.002+08:00

wad the hell ish rong wif mie shiots ?..
i didnt fast since the 2nd day lahh shey ..
haish ..
y ehk ?.. i noe im not like dis lahh kann ..
hmm .. maken biolz ?..
yea mayb .. hees ..

thinkin of nothin ............
haha ..

ouh yahh ..
beAr2 owaes tok bout him ..
like wad the hell ..
cam nak cekik2 die .. ahaks !..
bahase kan org jekk keje die ..
tanak kalah laks tuhh ..
well .. sape takk knal die kann ..
slalu tanak kalah ..

hmm .. dis Mondae nak g WGS ke takk ehk ?
cam malas ponn ade .. haha ..
suspect kuat 'dorg' ade ..
haish ..

I MISS YOU SO MUCHIE !!

this song is for YOU

2009-08-27T15:26:00.005+08:00

~ YoU ~

You were there to light my day .
You were there to guide me thru .
And my days down and up ,
I'll never stop thinking of you .
How can i forget all that .
You're the one who make me smile .
You'll always be a part of me.
How i wish you were still mine .

Never will forget the day .
How we've met and came this far .
Eventhough we got this feeling ,
but somehow it has to end up here .
I know its me who said goodbye .
That's the hardest thing to do .
'cause eu mean so much to me
And that's the truth from me to you .

For all the things we've done and say
For all the hurt that i've caused you .
I hope you will forgive me baby ,
cause that wasnt what i mean to do .

You were there to light my day .
You were there to guide me thru .
And my days down and up ,
I'll never stop thinking of you .
How can i forget all that .
You're the one who make me smile .
You'll always be a part of me.
How i wish you were still mine .

For all the things we've done and say
For all the hurt that i've caused you .
I hope you will forgive me baby ,
cause that wasnt what i mean to do .

4th day of puasa

2009-08-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

can i say today shucks to the core ??
haish !~

woke up , met fyfie den went to maia's hse ..
as usual .. we just do our own stufs ..
hang out .. talked about so manie things ..
i was listening to songs wen fyfie sudenlie stood up n rushed out ..
den i heard people shouting .. arguing .. haish ..

y did they haf to treat her like dat ?
y r they so selfish ?
y cant they just understand ?
haiyoh .. i dunoe wad else to say lahh ..
i cant do anitin ..
all i can do ish just to b ther fer her ..
tok to her .. accompanie her ..

hmm .. their way in handling probs n our way ish diff ..
our families owaes sit down n tok ..
express wadeva eu feel n tell wad seems to b the prob ..
but the way they solve things are diff ..
not to say anitin bad bout them in dis fastin month lahh kann ..
but pls lahh ehk ..
THINK bout others like others think bout eu ..
yes , people do make mistakes .. but dis ish too much ..
like wad others said to you , just endure kkaes sis ..
i noe its too much oreadie , but just a bit more ..
im shure dat all dis hapens fer a reason ..
b strong aiites ..
we will owaes be by eur side ..

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

3rd day of puasa ..

2009-08-24T19:43:00.000+08:00

heyya ..
wana noe a secret ??
im not fastin todae ..
hees .. shhhhhh ..
dun tell people lahh kkaes ..
hmm .. just dun feel like it ..
or mayb i shud sae thers dis one devil ask mie not to ..
earlie in the mornin laks tuhh ..
ish ish ish ..
wakakakakaka !!
hope dis devil wil tag at ma tagboard 2moro mornin wen she read dis .. haha ..

well .. beAr2 didnt online yest ..
i wonder y .. hmm ..
ku takk cukop tdor ehk btw !! haish ..

i feel like cryin lahh now ..
dunoe y .. but i just feel like it ..
everything just shucks shiots ..
m i greedy or wad ??
love tOyoL but stil cant bear to lose beAr2 ..
hAish !~
its like wad the fcuk ..
feel like lettin go of everythin ..
but dis feelin ish just wayy too strong ..
urgh !!!
they wont understand how i feel ryt ??
ryt ryt ryt ??
like sumone said ..
i noe hu i wana b wif ..
but wif dis kinda situation i wonder if thers anie chance fer mie to b wif him ..
a part of mie wans mie to move on ..
but the other half wans mie to wait fer him ..
he said he dowan mie to get involve wif dis matter ..
i understand .. very well ..
but i dunoe y dis heart just cant seem to understand ..
haish ..

y do i hafta face all dis shit ?
y do i hafta b the one hu gets hurt ?
y i never get to be wif the one 1 love ?
y mie ?
y ?? y ?? y ??
hate it ! hate it ! hate it !
haish !~

im being childish eay ??
hees .. immature lahh katekann ..
18 ponn lom .. so its okaes fer mie to think dat way kann ??
haha .. kkaes .. wadeva ..
craps .. i noe ..
(:

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

suppose its gona b a bad dae .. haish !

2009-08-24T06:41:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE HELL ??
he stil kips his ex mcgs ?..
now den i realize ?..
haish ..
kkaes .. think positive ..
mayb he's just lazie to delete all the mcgs ..
urgh ! wadeva ..
shit !! its gona b a bad day i gues ..
haish ! haish ! haish !

ouh yahh ..
btw , i miss eu too .. haha ..
muahks !
cant stop loving eu lahh kann ..
ILYSM !!!!

2nd day of puase ..

2009-08-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

todae ish the lamest dae ever ..
haish ..
tell mie wads e use of fastin if eu slept al dae long ??
like wad the fuck kann .. haiyoh ..
just now break fast wif ma bro n yaya onie ..
ma parents went to ma grandparents hse..
hmm .. den afta dat went to my port ..
lek2 , chill2 , tok2 wif yaya n smoke ..
n gues wad ??!!
ma brader actualie saw mie smokin lahh sheyy ..
i was like OMIGOD !!
hmm .. but his reaction wasnt like wad i expected ..
feel guilty lahh kann .. hees ..
oh2 !! kuruku !~

FIRST DAY OF PUASE

2009-08-23T01:42:00.002+08:00

hello ..
yest afta sahur i watched army daze n slep at 8am ..
haish .. army daze ..
reminds mie of sumone ..
ermm .. woke up at 12 ..
read mcg den kol HiM immediatelie ..
tok wif HiM .. den andie den went out ..
break fast outside ..
den go home ..
gues wat ??
thers no one at home wen i came bck ehk btw ..
dunoe wher ma parents gone to ..
everybodie's missing ..
hmm .. gerek pe fers dae puase nie mcm ..
well , wat to do .. hmm ..
to sumone .. i haf 2 werds fer eu ..
GROW UP lahh ..
dun b soo childish lahh kaes ..
im just a step away from hating eu ..
dun make mie hate eu lahh kkaes ..
just stop wadeva eur doin ..
they dun wan mie , its up to dem ..
they haf their own reason(s) fer not accepting mie ..
as fer the EGO guy eu mentioned in eur journal ..
i noe he's not as EGO as eu think he ish ..
i understand his situation very well ..
he even pitied eu wen he read eur journal ..
ish dat eur motive of writing those journals ??
to make dem feel dat wae ??
haish .. post it on tagged fer everyone to read ?
tak perlu lahh ehkk ..
haish .. im realie irritated shiots ..
haishh .. kau pehh pasal lahh ..
let mie repeat dis again ..
JUST DON'T MAKE ME HATE YOU KKAES ..

toodles .. (:

THIS IS FOR THOSE WHO WANTS TO SEE ME WEARING A DRESS !!

2009-08-21T17:18:00.003+08:00

hahaks .. got nothin better to do lahh dat tym ..

so tried out the dresses lorr ..

wakaka !~

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

SMILE !!

2009-08-21T13:21:00.001+08:00

woots !~
mie chatted wif beAr2 till 4am ..
webcam .. hahaks ..
he kip on askin mie to smile .. haha ..
gyler lahh die ..
hmm .. ouh yahh ..
he told mie dat he read kydo's journal at tagged ..
he said ' i believe the journal ish fer eu .'
n he pitied kydo ..
gud lahh kann ..
at least thers sumone hu pity him ..
mie ?.. i just cant b bothered lahh ..
sory to say dat ..
i was not in a gud mood yest ..
but i felt better wen i chat wif bear2 ..
much2 better !! (:
he kol mie nyonya lahh , amoi lahh ..
haha .. biskott tol ..
btw kann ..
i havent had 1 since yest nyt ..
hees .. kecoh pe .. sengaje tak belik ..
n yahh .
i think i noe y im confused ..
im confused cus i dunoe whether tOyoL realie love mie or not ..
im confused cus i dunoe whether i shud wait fer tOyoL or not ..
hmm .. im addicted to my sweetest addiction ..
love him loads .. muahks !~

AtiM_sEtaN

2009-08-20T14:54:00.002+08:00

about AtiM ..
people said dat she doesnt haf a heart ..
haf no feelings ..
cus she dun gif a damn to those hu like her or haf feelings fer her ..
she dun mind being single for years just to wait fer sumone she realie love ..
its not easy fer her to fall in love ..
but if she started to realie love the guy , its hard fer her to let go ..(pity the guy .. haha .. )
if she dun like means she DONT ..
she's stubborn n hardlie listens to wat people say ..
she dont care wat people think bout her ..
she love being herself - the biOlz ghurl ..
she's complicated .. but easy to get along ..
she's very close to FyFiE ..
kept no secrets from her ..
if eu wana noe mor bout mie eu can ask her lahh kann ..
hahaks .. miss serba tahu .. (:
toodles !~

It Ends Tonight ..

2009-08-19T21:10:00.001+08:00

well .. todae ehk ..
was a normal dae ..
fetched Yasin ..
i was late ehk btw ..
haish ..
sent him bck den i went to kak maia's hse ..
lek2 pat sane ..
SLEEP !! haha ..
ate alot .. seriouslie ..
cam nak meletop sia perot ..
haha .. ouh yahh .. bought donut at Marsiling ..
hees .. sodap shiots !!
tak caye g belik urh ..

yest tok wif beAr2 ..
bbual cam biase ..
klaka seram ade , kiyut ponn ade ..
hmm .. i enjoyed tokin to him ..
dari dulu pai skg , atim senang nak communicate nan die ..
walaupon kdg2 'network' cam siak .. (cHiPsMoRe kann .. jap ade , jap takde .. )
walaupon die panggil atim nyonya ..
i stil feel comfortable tokin to him ..
he can b a brader , a fwen , a father n a biscuit ..
hahaks !~
yea .. lu gerek urh brader !! (:

tdik pat umah kak maia i disturb kydo ..
sal Diyan ..
den i think he canot take it n kol zali ..
i dunoe wats his motive lahh kann ..
but i was realie pissed off ..
acted normal ..
thers no use lettin him noe how i felt ..
not a big deal aniwaes ..
Zali ..
he's one of the passer-bys in ma life ..
dunoe whether he realie love mie or not .. haha ..
wateva it ish .. i dun care animor ..
kak maia said its ma fault ehk btw ..
wat hapen btwn mie n beAr2 - my fault ..
wat hapen btwn mie n zali - my fault ..
yelahh .. my fault .. nak ckp ape lagiik kann ..
smue aku yg salah ..
org maen tarik2 tali nan aku ponn aku pehh salah ..
org busted aku ponn aku pehh salah ..
org tglkan aku n kasik alasan bodoh ponn aku pehh salah pe kann ..
so no matter wat they did to mie , its all my fault ..

BEST ACTRESS - the title kydo gave mie ..
if im the best actress den eu must b the best actor ryt ?
tell eu wat ..
lets just end all the acting thingy here kkaes ..
its jus not ryt ..
susah lahh nak jdik actress .. byk sgt pressure ..
so i gues the game ends here ..
n btw , i dun deserve the BEST ACTRESS title ..
cus loving bear2 wasnt an act .. NEVER !!
but i noe i did okaes ..
loved zali , it wasnt an act either ..
so i dun ned to b an actress ryt ?
loved people unconditionally n dis ish wat i get ?

haha .. im not a player ..
so to those people hu wana play games , im totally out of dis kkaes ..
sick n tired wif all dis stewpid games lahh ..
haish ..
all my life i onlie trust 1 guy ..
just one ..
n he wil b the onlie one .. foreva n owaes ..

hmm .. klah .. dahh pnat type ..
gudnyt !! Loves .. (:

[[AtiM_sEtaN]]

beAr2 .. bebeh .. bby ..

2009-08-18T11:25:00.000+08:00

hello ..
he told mie dat he love mie ..
but im just confused lahh kann ..
haish ..
im dunoe y im afraid to lose 'HiM' n HiM ..
do i stil love HiM ?..

ANSWERS FROM THE HEART :

beAr2..
i noe dat i stil ned eu ..
its sumtin i cant deny ..
ive known eu since i was a kid ..
n ive been sharing wif eu since i dun even remember wen ..
how can i ever forget eu ??
eu wil owaes b ma 'One-In-A-Million' guy ..

bebeh ..
if eu were to ask mie dat qn once again ..
the ans wud stil b the same ..
im stil the same ZaRa eu knew ..
i wil kip ZaRa in ma heart like i kip eu in ma heart ..
ZaRa remain unchanged cus of eu ..

bby ..
it touches mie wen eu told mie dat eu love mie ..
but i stil cant get over beAr2 n bebeh ..
haish .. im sory ..
i noe dat the truth hurts ..
but i just hafta let eu noe ..
hmm .. but no worries ..
nothings gona change ..

Loving Someone Is Not Easy .. And Being Loved By Someone Is Difficult ..
i noe it makes no diff ryt ?? haha ..
klah2 .. gues dats it ..
toodles ..

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

my weekends

2009-08-17T12:13:00.000+08:00

hmmmmmmmmmmm ....
friday ..
fetched Yasin .. n handed him to Yaya ..
den waited fer p2 at Cwp ..
makan LJS .. den g lpak pat port ..
afta dat thot of goin to maia's hse ..
but wak man dah pai pat bwh blk maia's ..
so p2 tak naek ..
mie n Kydo naek jap ..
den i planned to go to Admiralty's pasar malam ..
n we did .. haha ..
we walked ehk btw ..
n i slept earlie dat day ..

saturday ..
met putri at Cwp den walked to her hse area ..
lpak jap den met kak maia n her family at Yishun ..
go makan ..
mie n Kydo shared a plate of nasi ayam penyet as we've oreadie eaten ..
den we took train to Admiralty mrt den walked from ther to ma hse ..
haha ..
mental torture ?? nolah .. blueks !!

last week was great !!
i ate so much .. haha ..
2 plates of rice one day ..
a plastic full of tidbits ..
n a dozen of donuts !! hahaks ..

all thanks to Kydo ..
cos of him lahh i ate so much ..
haha ..

yesterdae ..
woke up at 7.45am ..
went to Johor .. ma kuzzies wedding ..
the journey from the guys hse to the ghurls hse ish so damn far ..
i slept sia in the van ..
gerak dari umah makcik kush kul 7.30pm ..
pai s'pore ard 10+..
like WTF ??!!
so tired ..
hmm .. den bdak2 dtg umahh ..
bAchEnN ponn ade .. hmm ..
he didnt salam mie ..
but ther was a couple of tyms i caught him lookin at mie ..
hmm .. biar lahh die .. sukeati die lahh kann ..
malas lahh nak pk anyak2 ..

hmm .. 2 movies in a week ..
UP n Where Got Ghost ..
huhu ! bler nak g tgk agiik yg2 ??
hahaks .. dis Friday mitting Iffah ..
woohoo !~ she ask mie bout my new guy ..
haha .. hmm ..
im mitting Kydo n p2 later at ard 3+ ..
lpak jekk kott ..
hmm .. i got no money lahh sheyy ..
like cb .. haish ..
wth .. wateba it ish ..
im realie moving on ..
i dun think of him latelie ..
but i do mish him as a fwen lahh kann ..
hope he's doin gud too ..
the guy hu gave mie dis name - BabYol
**smiles**
klah .. tc yahh .. Happy Monday !! wakaka ..
Loves ... MuAckiEs !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

Where Got Ghost

2009-08-14T02:55:00.000+08:00

FUNNY ! BEST !
hees .. yea bebeh ..
'Where Got Ghost' is soooooo worth eur money n time ..
hees .. i laf all the wae ..
sittin arrangement was like dis .. from left to ryt ..
mamat , siti , farah , wawan , pojie , an . paijal , beAr2 , kydo n mie ..
hehe .. 10 peeps altogether ..
hmm ..
kydo said dat beAr2 kept on lookin at us ..
n wen we fers came beAr2 said to kydo ' laen mcm jekk .. ' n looked at mie ..
wats his motive ehk ?..
stop it ehk ckp nan die .. hees ..
den wen he's goin off , i salam him ..
but it just felt diff ..
his hands didnt even touch my forehead ehk btw ..
haish .. dunoe wats he's thinkin lahh kann ..
but yea .. overall it was so damn FUN !!

afta dat sent kydo bck home ..
den followed ma parents to changi ..
makan tym ..
but i onlie drank milo ..
i was so slepie lahh shey ..
i fell aslep otw bck home ..
haha .. but i stayed awake just to blog bout dis ehk ..
so ya ... haha ..
now im off to bed ..
but thers anotha thing i shud tell eu guys ..
narie , 14th , genap sebulan atim takk jmp tOyoL ..
well , thers nothin much to sae bout dis ..
but yea .. sumtyms i mish him ..
but just let the feeling remains as just mish .. FULLSTOP !!
nothin mor , nothin less ..
everythings gona b okaes ..
i'll do just fine .. (:
so , i gues dats it ..
gud morning .. MuaCkiEs !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

BonCett

2009-08-13T16:11:00.002+08:00

heyys ..
im at maia's hse ..
these few daes i ate so much lahh shiots !! haha ..
dahh boncet !!!!!! sobbs ..
hmm ... tonight gona watch movie ..
wif ma brader , pojie , kydo n sum othas ..
gona watch 'Where Got Ghost' .. huhu !~
perot dahh mtk ampon lahh sheyy .. haha ..

just now p2 met Jhazman ..
he's ok lahh kann ..
onlie dat he's a Malaysian lahh kann .. hehe ..
n he's too quiet lahh sheyy ..

hmm .. den we lpak at maia's hse ..
ate rice den watch tv ..
now p2 ish slepin .. Kydo n mie r just slackin ..
dunoe wat to do .. cant slep .. haish ..
n yahh .. i hafta go home earlie today .. hehe ..
will blog again later aiites .. hees ..
Loves .. MuAckiEs !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

National Day !!!!!!

2009-08-10T02:01:00.000+08:00

HELLO !!
fers things fers ..
KU TAKK CUKOP TDOR !!!!
haish !~
i slept at 8am n woke up at 10am ..
wahhh !! gyler ehk aku niek .. haiyoh !~
woke up , read bAchEnN's mcg ..
he wans to lpak .. but i cant .. haish ..

hmm .. den andie , ciap2 den jmp Kydo pat 111 ..
accompanie him to his hse ..
die andie n ciap2 ..
umahh die kecoh beb ..
byk bdak2 kecik .. hees ..

afta he got readie , we went to Lagun Sari ..
ade org kawen .. its cool bebeh .. haha ..
makan free .. ahaks !~

pastuh kter proceed ke Esplanade ..
pat sane pehh lahh kecoh .. haha ..
ribot .. rimas saye dibuatnye ..
we met Kydo's fwen ..
den lpak wif Kydo's sec sch fwens ..
dok2 , lek2 , mkn2 , bbual2 , ketawe2 n tgk FIREWORKS !!
hees .. lawa lahh sheyy .. waaaaaaaa !!

afta the fireworks kter g Marina Square ..
jmp bdak2 chatters .. haha ..
ribott !! kecoh !! wow !! hahaks ..

den g Cwp .. watch movie ..
wif Pojie n Nad ..
cter 'UP' ..
hmm .. tak klaka sgt lahh ..
lagiik ckit nak tertdor .. hees ..
but thnks Kydo fer the treats .. (:

den Kydo sent mie home n took a cab bck ..
im so damn tired lahh kann ..
haha .. pnat .. nantokk .. lapar ..
hahahaha !! klah2 ..
off to bed .. nytes .. (:
Lurb2 .. Muahks !!~

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

The Day I Irritate Toyol ..

2009-08-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

heyy ..
just now went out wif Kydo n Pojie ..
planned to watch movie ..
from Wdls to Orchard ..
g mkn dulu .. den g Dhoby Ghaut ..
thot of watchin at The Cathay ..
all packed .. like CB .. haha ..
at last ktorg chow cab alekk Wdls .. hees ..
den g Timezone .. played a few games ..
den lek2 jap pat Cwp ..
dey sent mie home , den now dey r at Pojie's hse ..
MINOM !! MINOM !! hahaks ..

wats my plan fer tmrw ehk ?
hmm .. i wonder ..
let Kydo do the planning .. huhu !~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE !!! *step semangat*
hahaks !!~

i'll upload the pics of tmrw , if thers anie ..
lau tak den too bad lahh kann ..
hmm .. kkaes .. dabes bbual .. hees ..
toodles !! MuaHks !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

cHiPsMoRe , bAchEnN , ApiQuE , FaDhLi & tOyoL

2009-08-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

hello ..
lets tok bout guys ..

hmm .. bout cHiPsMoRe ..
well aru2 niek i added him at MSN , Tagged n Facebook ..
slalu jgak lahh kter chat .. hees ..
senang ckit nak carik die lau die ilang .. haha ..

bAchEnN laks ..
these few daes tak jmp die ..
skg die dahh start keje .. todae ish his fers dae ..
thot of askin how was it , but die tak mcg tak ape ..
so watpe nak menyebokk kann .. hmm ..

about ApiQuE ..
we're still in cntct ..
n he's stil attached ..
but he stil can say dat he stil loves mie ..
its like WTH lahh kann .. haish ..
we've been mcgin each otha 3 days straight including today ..
n he stil remembers everythin bout mie ehk btw ..
hmm .. ish dat a gud thing or a bad thing ?? haha ..
ntahlah .. but i dun remember much bout him .. hees ..

Fadhli ..
a guy dat i just got to noe last week ..
i dun realie mcg him lahh kann ..
cam malas gtuk ..
malas nak mcg .. malas nak knal2 ..
haha .. he's kiyut .. dat i cant deny lahh .. hees ..
tpik AtiM dahh cam tawar ati gtuk nak knal2 alekk ..
haha .. dunoe y ehk .. hmm .. i wonder .. (:

BabYoLurpes ..
our relationship ish like hanging lahh kann ..
haha .. i haf nothin to say bout him ..
its just too complicated lahh ..
hmm .. does he ned tym or he's letting go ??
AtiM ponn takk tau ..
if he neds tym , i can give him tym ..
i can wait fer him if he wans mie to ..
but if he's letting go den i'll just leave him ..
*konpius*

n narie AtiM sebot name die 3 kali jekk ehk btw ..
i tried very3 hard tao .. igt senang ehk .. hmm ..
these few daes AtiM makan byk lahh sheyy ..
boncet maken menjadi jadi .. haha ..
klah3 .. buhbye .. gudnyts ..
tc .. muahks !~ (:

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

Bowling

2009-08-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

hmm .. wat i did todae ehk ..
fers , went AMK .. fetch Yasin ..
den to AMK Central ..
had our lunch at Banquet ..
i ate Chicken Porridge lahh sheyy ..
like a sicko freako !! hahaks ..
afta dat i met Putri , Qarnain & Nad at Yishun MRT ..
BOWLING lahh sheyy ..
haha .. its been like so damn long ever since i bowl ..
well , it was abit boring tho ..
ade lahh sbab2 tertentu .. hees ..
pastuh mie n Putri lpak wif Kydo n Lalam at Yishun ..
ate McChicken n ma stomach ish like bloated lahh siol ..
hehe .. now im HUNGRY !! AGAIN !!
wakaka !!
reached home at 10 ..
n here i am , online n blogging ..
hees .. now feeling tired , hungry & slepie ..
HAISH !!!!!!
kkaes .. blog again sum otha dae ..
till den .. sayonara !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

its not mie bebeh ..

2009-08-05T04:53:00.000+08:00

well , i never had the intention to hurt him ..
ever since i fell in love with him , i never stopped loving him ..
n i stil do .. so much ..
but i think its better if i stop showin ma love ..
n yea .. family comes fers ..
im not a self-centered kinda person ..
n dats y i chose to let him go ..
i dun deserve to b wif sumone like him ..
n i knew it all along ..
he's too gud fer a ghurl like mie ..
i deserve sumone better ??
nahh .. i noe wher i stand ..
hmm .. wateva i said at MSN just now , its just not mie ..
felt touched wen he sent 'My sis ckp menantu mak kirim salam.. Haha..' - dats mie ..
felt nervous n scared wen he said 'N yah one more ting.. Bout us..' - dats mie ..
felt sory fer fer him .. - dats mie ..
but all the sarcasm n those harsh werds, if thers anie , dats not mie ..
i did dat cus im tryin to hide ma feelings ..
i loved him too much ..
n i dun wana lose him ..
but all i did was to pretend dat im fine n everything's okaes ..
n now he's gone ..
haish !!

GoOdByE My LoVeR

2009-08-04T21:03:00.003+08:00

heyy ..
hmm .. i've gif it a thot ..
n i've made ma decision ..
im gona let him go ..
i just hope dat he's hapie ..
those 3 werds , i wil nvr say it again ..
i wont bother him animor ..
wil just leave him fer gud ..
its not dat hard to 4get mie ryt ..
so i gues its reallie over ..
its tym fer mie to back out ..
goodbye tOyoL ..

The Most Boring Day For The Singles ..

2009-08-02T17:04:00.001+08:00

HEYY !!
wana noe sumtin ??
im freakin bored ryt now ..
Diyan n Yaya went out ..
mit their BFs ..
so i gues todae ish the dae fer the Single ones to stay home ..
haish !~ mendakk gyler lahh sheyy ..
well , currentlie Diyan ish attached wif a mat motor ..
haha .. wats wif the mat motor ehk ??
** i wonder **
she seems hapie wif dat guy ..
so ya .. all the best .. (:
and dat guy bought fer her helmet ..
ade tAzzY .. ):
jeles i .. haha ..
kkaes .. stop it .. i dun ned a helmet aniwaes ..
hmm .. bler nak g east coast agiik ehk ?..
rindu laks nak maen rollerblade .. hmm ..
**thinking bout 'you know who' **
ermm .. still thinkin whether wana join Putri dis Wed ..
Bowling beb .. dah lamer tak maen .. hehe ..
n asl smorg nanak maen catchin niek ??
dat tym ajak Kydo , die tanak ..
ajak bAchEnN , die ponn tanak ..
boring urh dorg ehk ..
sape lahh leyy lyn aku nye mepek ??
agiik2 tym nga mendak gnik .. haha ..

hmm .. tdik ku tgk calendar ..
dah 2weeks n 5 days takk npk muke die ..
rindu kahh ?? hees ..
ntahlahh ehk .. no comment urh ..
eu shud noe oreadie pe by now ..

dat tym bAchEnN saw the movies tix dat i kept at the card holder tuhh ..
den he was like ' chey , simpan sheyy .. ' hehe ..
Kydo n Diyan said dat he likes mie ..
its like WTH .. hees ..
NO IT CANT BE TRUE !!
haha .. dramatic sia ..
but he ever said sumtin to mie ..
he love dis one ghurl ..
he lose her once , n he dowan it to hapen fer the second tym ..
but he dunoe how to tell her dat he realie love her ..
hmm .. Diyan said dat the ghurl ish mie ..
but i dun think so lahh kann ..
hmm .. or i dun even wana think bout it ??
ntahlah ehk .. sumtyms i noe wats hapenin but i tend to act as if nothin hapen ..
ish dat wat im doin ryt now ??
thinking too much bout tOyoL n not seein thers sumone infront of mie ??
ntahlah ehk .. but dis heart haf a reason dat reasons dun understand ..
so ya .. dun blame mie lahh kaes ..
but the bottomline ish , THAT GIRL IS NOT ME .. hehe ..

hmm .. thot he wont kol mie yest ..
but he did .. hmm .. i mean dis mornin ..
he kolled at ard 4+am ..
tol pehh bAchEnN .. hehs ..

I MISS MY PEEPS !!
bler agiik ehk nak kua nan dorg ..
hmm .. c how lahh kann ..
klah .. sampai disini saje ..
buhbye .. tc .. love eu .. mUaHks !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

2009-07-30T20:45:00.000+08:00

heyy ..
nakk update apa ya .. hehe ..
hmm .. kkaes .. recentlie im contactin wif dis one guy ..
i'll just name him as 'bAchEnN' lahh kaes ..
we owaes hangout 2gether ..
wif Kydo n Diyan .. sometyms wif otha ppl lahh ..
but most of the tym its onlie the 3 of us ..
mie , bAchEnN n Kydo ..
well , the motive ish to make mie not to think bout tOyoL ..
but Kydo n bAchEnN owaes made mie think of him ..
hmm .. yea , bAchEnN noes bout tOyoL ..
i told him almost everything ..
fer example science ctr , catchin , 'usah tinggal daku kekasih' , zali zali boom boom n etc lahh kann ..
its not dat i wana 4get tOyoL ..
but i hafta 4get the feelings ..
cus he wans it to b dat wae ..
he wans mie to MOVE ON ..
but like bAchEnN said , we can onlie 4get the feelings we had but not the person we ever loved ..
but its not easy fer mie to let him go wen i stil haf the feeling dat he stil love mie ..
if we love each otha so much , y does it hafta end dis wae ??
its like as if thers nothin we can do to make it werk btwn us ..
hmm .. yea .. i dun sae much .. i onlie type wat i feel ..
n yea , now im typin ..
im letting it all out ..
I LOVE HIM ..
I MISS HIM ..
but i gues he's doin just fine w/o mie ..
unlike mie , struggling , lost n dwelling bout the past ..
haish .. why the hell m i crying ehk ?..
haish .. it just hurts mie so much ..
so damn much .. URGH !!!
im losing grip ..
like cb sia ..

wHeN iSh tHe tiMe ??..

2009-07-26T17:08:00.006+08:00

haish ..
i need time to get over you ..
hmm .. its all fated right ..
after its all over
my phone spoilt and everythings gone ..
no more pictures of us ..
no more messages ..
no more memories left ..
the things that makes me think of you are
the peoples who ever knew about us
the places we've went to
the times we had
and the things you bought for me ..
other then that , there's nothing left here with me ..
one day , sooner or later
all the sweet memories will turn into history ..
if thats what you really want ..
i'll leave you for good ..
hmm .. not to say stupid things about girls
but once they love a guy so much its not easy for them to let go ..
and it will take a long time for the wound to heal ..
so i hope you can bear with me a little bit longer ..
i need some time to get over you ..
and im sorry for everything ..

[[BabYoLurpes]]

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Masih ada cinta

2009-07-23T17:30:00.006+08:00

i dowan eur FULL attention ..
i dun ned eu to spend ALL eur time on mie .
all ive ever wanted is SOMEONE fer mie to love n to be loved ..
a relationship dat LAST ..
i nvr ask fer anithin mor ..
but i respect eur decision to just FORGET bout everythin ..
yeah .. n thanks to eu too ..dun worry bout mie cus im gona b okaes ..
n bout dat karma thingy ..
i hope dat it wont hapen cus i dowan dat to hapen to eu ..
i wan eu to b hapie no matter wat hapens ..
n yeah .. its just the beginning ..
hmm .. thers nothin i hafta say either ..
so yahh ..
wateva it ish , i'll stil b ther if eu ned mie ..

*STILLcantSTOPthinkingABOUThim*

buhbye .. love yahh .. tc .. muahks .. (:
[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

2009-07-23T15:30:00.002+08:00

23rd July 2oo9

tOyoL said (2:50 AM):
zara... i kept thinkin n think bout wat i ave said 2 u...

tOyoL said (2:50 AM):
i noe it hurts..

tOyoL said (2:51 AM):
and theres no point if i say sori 2 u.. cos it still will hurt...

tOyoL said (2:52 AM):
its just tat i dun want 2 keep u waitin n think bout me..

tOyoL said (2:53 AM):
theres alot tat u can do besides tat...

tOyoL said (2:54 AM):
i know where i stand.. im not ready 2 reli take care of u.. i tried... but i just cant... theres simply many other things tat is more important 2 me rite now..

tOyoL said (2:54 AM):
and i reli hope u can understand..

tOyoL said (2:55 AM):
i noe ur the gerl tat doesnt say much.. u only type wat u feel... tats just the way u r..

tOyoL said (2:57 AM):
there no point being together if i cant give my full attention n care 4 u.. although i tried.. but its just for some moments.. and i dun wanna hold u back any longer...

tOyoL said (2:58 AM):
u have a life 2 live..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
just 2 let u noe n stop u from wonderin more..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
wat eva i have said 2 u.. i reli mean it..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
the love n miss u..

tOyoL said (3:00 AM):
its from my heart...

tOyoL said (3:00 AM):
to hurt u now its beta den to hurt u later on..

tOyoL said (3:01 AM):
and i noe... its not fun 2 hurt someone... esp those who is sincere n honest in relationship..

tOyoL said (3:02 AM):
it will definately get back 2 me... the karma will com...

tOyoL said (3:02 AM):
one day.. ill get it 2.. being hurt.. n feel wat u feel rite now..

tOyoL said (3:03 AM):
i wanted 2 call u.. even meet u just 2 explain dis 2 u.. but i simply cant say it..

tOyoL said (3:04 AM):
i dun noe y.. maybe i always hav the tot tat u will just keep quiet n just listen..

tOyoL said (3:04 AM):
sumtimes i dunnoe how 2 interact wit ya..

tOyoL said (3:05 AM):
ur the action type.. less words.. if u understand wat i mean..

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
hmm...

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
guess tats all i have 2 say..

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
the rest its up 2 u..

tOyoL said (3:08 AM):
i reli have no much say in this anymore.. i just hope tat wateva it is... atim or zara... just b urself.. n b happy k.. life is short..

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
and thk u 4 ur neva endin love n care 4 me..

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
thk u 4 ur time n patience...

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
thk u 4 hugs n kisses..

tOyoL said (3:10 AM):
thk u 4 everythin..

tOyoL said (3:10 AM):
oh yah.. ur 'dale'.. u want it back? hmm.. kalau nak ckp k..

tOyoL said (3:11 AM):
learn 2 speak up n express urself 2 ppl more..

tOyoL said (3:11 AM):
it helps them understand u more..

tOyoL said (3:13 AM):
BTW atim/zara... its not the end.... its just the begining.. hear from u soon..

if only .. haish !~

2009-07-22T03:36:00.002+08:00

if only that day i didnt chat with him ..
things wont turn out this way ..
if only that day i didnt meet him ..
i wont start to fall for him ..
if only i know that its not going to work between us ..
i wouldnt love him like i do now ..
if only i know that he is just a passerby in my life ..
i wouldnt give him all the love and care ..
if only he feels the same way like i do ..
i wouldnt be sitting here n cry like a baby ..

i dunoe when it started ..
but i feel so gud wen i was wif him ..
i can easily forget the guy dat i liked fer almost 5yrs ..
all i can do ish to think bout him ..
wen he didnt contact mie i felt so lost ..
i realie love him ..

he said lets just be friends ..
i kept quiet ..
cus we ARE friends ..
just friends ..
from the very start ..
its onlie the feelings dat made mie think dat we're mor den just friends ..
n it hurts mie so bad ..
but wateva it ish ..
i just hope he's hapie wif his life ..
gudbye tOyoL ..

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

20th July 2009

2009-07-21T01:36:00.001+08:00

20th July 2009
a date to remember ??
haha .. hell yeah ..
i wont forget dat date ..
sumthin hapen on dat day ..
haha .. wateva it is ..
MA BCK HURTS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *exaggerating*
hahaks ..
wen i was otw bck , in the train , i cried lahh shiots ..
i was listening to 'Selingkar Kasih - Rem ' ..
while readin his mcgs , tears ran down ma cheeks ..
i mish him alot lahh sheyy .. haish !~
but i tried to control ..
the harder i tried not to think of him , the mor i think of him ..
haish .. i think of him everydae ..
n fer the fers tym , i counted the daes ..
wen i was in love wif 'him' , i never did dat ..
yes i did n stil remember sum dates but i didnt count the daes ..
but wen it cums to him , its a big deal wen i didnt mit him fer mor den 3daes ..
i wana tell him dat i realie love him ..
i wana tell him dat i mish him so damn much ..
i wan him to noe how much he means to mie ..
but i dunoe wats stoppin mie from doin so ..
now we're not like US ..
haish !~

I MISS MY BABY SO BLOODIE DAMN MUCH !!

after exactlie 1 week we didnt mit ..

2009-07-15T14:45:00.000+08:00

Heyys ..

yesterday i received a kol from tOyoL ..

well , i just woke up wen he kol ..

he said he's at ma voiddeck ..

n yahh , of cos im SURPRISED ..

takde angin takde ribot aley2 die kol ..

den wen i met him , he acted like as if nothin hapen ..

so , like him , i acted like nothin hapened lorr ..

but it hurts mie wen it seems like he dun care ..

hmm .. den we went to cwp ..

watch movie .. Transformers ..

b4 the show starts , we sat at Titanic ..

tOyoL: eu syg i ?

ZaRa: wat do eu think ?

tOyoL: i dunoe .. dats y i ask ..

ZaRa: ouh ..

tOyoL: nak jwb ke takk nie ?

ZaRa: ouh nak kenek jwb ehk .. hmm .. if yes ??

tOyoL: asl ? i takde pape tau ..

ZaRa: i syg eu sbab eu eu pe ..

hmm .. ntahlah ehk ..

sum tyms i just feel like sayin dis to him ..

' do eu reallie love mie ? cus if not den just leave mie .. '

but i dunoe y isit so hard fer mie to say dat ..

isit cus i love him so much n dun wan him to leave ?

but everybodie will leave eu in the end ryt ?

haish !~

sumtyms he can b unpredictable ..

hmm .. klahh .. i gtg ..

will post again soon !!

adios !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

what the hell is wrong with this month .. haish !~

2009-07-10T18:50:00.000+08:00

bebeh ..
like eu said ..
dis month ish a bad month fer eu ..
well .. i agree wif eu .. hees ..
i mean , not onlie fer eu ..
but fer mie n everyone ard mie too ..
hmm .. so far in dis yr , dis ish the most problematic month ..
almost everyone ish having family n relationship problems ..
n like almost everyone out ther , im stressed too ..
but sumtyms eu just dun hafta show it .. ryt ??..
hmm .. i love eu bebeh ..
dats y im not leaving eu ..
im tryin to understand the problems eur facing ..
so dat i cud stay strong n wait fer eu ..
eu said dat all eur past relationship dun last due to sum circumstances ..
but i will try ma best to last long wif eu ..
but eu gotta stay strong too aiites bebeh ..
we'll make it thru ..

hmm ..
i feel dat we're driftin apart ..
tell mie if im rong ..
n tell mie dat its gona b okaes ..
love eu .. (:

MiSsY CoMpLiCaTeD

slepie n suay !!

2009-07-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

hello !!

lets share stories ..

come , come !!

hehe ..

well .. life was okaes recentlie ..

as usual lahh kann ..

not getting enuf slep ehk btw ..

hmm .. i slept fer onlie 2hrs dis morning ..

hehe .. n yahh .. wana noe sumtin ??!!

in the aftanun , i went to AMK wif Diyan ..

to fetch Yasin ..

den wen we were at the platform , otw bck home ..

the mrt came ..

n i was like , stood up n boarded the train lahh kann ..

den i realised sumtin missin ..

ma HENFON !!!!!

i was like WTF ??!!

ma heart fell to the ground lahh sheyy ..

n i was abit panic .. hees ..

i wonder , how can i forget such things ..

i never forget ma henfon b4 sheyy ..

den luckielie dis Chinese lady was so kind to gif it bck to mie ..

if not den tak tau ape jdik .. hehe ..

woohoo !!~

kkaes .. dats all i wana tell ..

haha .. blueks !~

tata !! muahks !~

ZaRa_biOlz

FOR MY DEAREST HATER ..

2009-07-02T14:57:00.000+08:00

dis ish fer eu

SITI SUFIAH BTE MOHD OTHMAN..

kalau kau benci aku , den its gud fer eu lahh kann ..
like i said , hate mie all eu want ..
ku ponn takley pakse org suke aku kann ..
n aku gtuk sal aku sndr yg nakk ..
so thers no BAD INFLUENCE !!
n one mor thing ..
kau bkannye tau ku peh idop camane ..
n wat i did ther ..
so wats wif the bad influence ?..
DONT JUDGE ME lahh ehk ..
lau tak tau wat hal tak tau lahh kaes ..
jgn nak maen tudoh2 ..
n since kau dah BENCI aku kann ..
den just 4get bout EVERYTHING lahh ehk ..
tho i dun HATE eu ..
but i just hope dat eur hapie lahh ehk ..
i think eu'll b better off w/o mie ryt ..
cus ther wont b anie BAD INFLUENCE ..
so .. goodbye .....

i mish him lahh shey .. haish ..

2009-06-28T06:05:00.000+08:00

haish !!

what the fuck !!

y r we like dis ma dear ??

takkan sal pm tuhh ponn eu nak cam gnik nan i ??

i never meant to hurt eur feelings ..

n dat pm , its just random lahh sheyy ..

im NOT okaes without eu lahh sheyy ..

I LOVE YOU !!

but i just dunoe y im scared ..

n dats the reason y sumtyms i acted differentlie ..

today shucks to the core bebeh ..

eu slept til 8pm ..

n i didnt even get to tok to eu otp .. haish ..

mish eu lahh sheyy..

well .. mayb im used to haf eu ard ..

dats y i felt so lost wen eur not ther ..

i didnt show dat i care but dat doesnt mean i reallie dun care ..

yg2 .. pls come bck ..

i mish eu so much .. so damn much ..

im sory if i over reacted ..

but i reallie mish eu bebeh ..

hope we're gona b okaes soon ..

do tok to mie kkaes bebeh ..

muahks !!

[ZaRa_biOlz] [HeArTs] [tOyoL]

aNotHer DaY sPeNt wiTh HiM

2009-06-27T13:57:00.000+08:00

HeLLo peEps !!
wAs ouT yEstErDae ..
fiRst , wEnt to tOyoL's hsE ..
wAke hiM Up ..
dEn MaKaNnn ....
deNn aCcoMpaNie HiM tO tHe bAnk ..
tO seTtLe sOmE sTuffS ..
dEn wEnt tO cUt HiS hAir ..
n i dO wAsh, bLow n tReAtmEnt ..
hmMm .. wAs sO sO sLepiE sHiotS .. hEheKs ..
aFtA dAt wE weNt tO Jurong Point ..
pLanniNg tO wAtcH TraNsFormErs ..
But wAs cAncElleD bcOs tHerS sO maNie pPl lAhh sHeyy ..
dEn wE waLk aRd n sEarCh FeR dVds ..
n hE bOugHt 'siFu & tOnggA' ..
dUn aSk Mie wat MoviE isH daT laHh ..
bUt iT waS sO dAmn fUnniE .. wAkaKa !..
An !! An !! An !! (:
dEn wAtch AnUgEraH .. rEpeaT ..
'cOmmEnt sEssiOn' .. haha ..

yEsteRdaE iSh tHe fErs tYm i LafF sO mUch wEn iM wiF HiM ..
hEhe .. veRy3 fUn ..
n He keEps oN sAyin 'iLOVEyou' ..
bUt i dUnOe wHeTheR i sHud bEliEve iT oR nOt ..
hAish !~
kkAes .. 4gEt bOut iT ..
hMmm .. i'LL updAte aGaiN soOn aiTes ..
tAkE cArE ..

LoVe ,
ZaRa_biOlz