To whom it may concern .

Why must you ask about my past ?

What has it got to do with my future ?

Why must you hurt me this way ?

You make me feel like a whore .

Rather than i hurt myself more , it's better to keep myself quiet .

It's up to you if you think what i did is not right or unreasonable .

What i know is , your words hurt me too much !

If you really want to know about my past , you're most welcome to get to know it BY YOURSELF !

Or maybe you want to be in it ?

I'm sick and tired of this stupid thingy .

If you think my past is more interesting than my present , then might as well leave me .

I don't want to hurt myself anymore .

Especially because of guys .

If you think i'm over-reacting , well , yes , i am .

I won't let anybody hurt me .

Be it the one i love or whoever who's in my life right now .

If you think we could be happy with you keep on asking about my past and hurt my feelings , well then , FUCK YOU !

I'm a human being full of sins and mistakes .

All i want is your love to go through all these pains and start anew .

But you keep on reminding me about my past .

You think i'm okay with it ?

Do you want me to write you a long composition about my life ?

Who i dated with , who i had sex with , how many rounds we had , where it happened , how it happened and whatever shits .

Would you like it if i were to ask you those questions ?

Ouh yahh ! You're a guy .

No loss anyway hurh .

Seems like you're giving up on me right ?

If you can stand it , neither do i .

Being with you , who keeps on asking me about my past , might as well i stay on my past right ?

Why must i find somebody NEW who always talks , asks and reminds me of my PAST ?

If you think you're better of without me and can't stand with my attitude , then just fuck off .

I think about myself first before thinking about others .

Why should i try not to hurt you when everything you do for me seems like bullshit the moment you started to mention about my past .

Yeah . I promised not to leave you .

But i ain't gona apologies for your stupid acts .

And if you were to leave me , i'm not going to stop eu either .

Do what you think is right for you .

If separation is the best for you and me , then just let it go .

Saye Zara Biolz

Thank You Friend .

Today is the 26 may 2011 .

Exactly 2 years back , on 26th may 2009 , was the first time we met .

Not holding on to the past we shared .

Just miss the moments we had .

You're a good friend .

How can i forget you .

I don't know why we ended up like this .

But i think you've made a good choice to stop being a friend of mine .

I really appreciate for everything you've done for us .

Thank you Sazali Bin Othman .

Muchly appreciated . (:

I Love You (:

Even after we argued or have any misunderstandings , i will still love you .

Even if you continue biting or pinching me , i will still love you .

Even when you said that you love Miko more than you love me , i will still love you .

Although you're shorter than me , i will still love you .

And although you sometimes keep some things to yourself , i will still love you .

I never get tired of telling you that i love you .

I never hated it when i missed you so much .

I never think of letting you go .

When you're infront of me , i just can't stop looking at you .

When you're not with me , i just can't stop thinking about you .

I can't remember when i started to love you .

I don't know why i love you .

But what i know is , I NEED YOU .

I always thought that guys the same age as me thinks immaturely .

But you proved me wrong .

And i love you more for that . (:

I know that you don't get to read whatever i post here in my blog , but i just want you to know that ,

I really do love you so much Muhammad Shakir .

I hope we'll go through everything TOGETHER .

And also hope that we will last forever . <3

My Baby You ~~

Boo ! Just want to do some updates .

Muhammad Shakir Bin Mohamad Sharom is the name .

08.05.2011 is the date .

He's a sweet guy . NOT handsome BUT cute . (:

Very the caring gitu lo .

And the best part is , i have a feeling that i could move on with my life with him .

That's a good thing right ? ((:

ABOUT HIM :

Gets older every 21st may .

Was born in 1991 .

Staying at Yishun .

Serving NS now . ORD on the 7th dec 2011 . SCDF at Jalan Bahar .

SHORT ! Hees . No offence b .

Part -time rider at MacDonald's .

Rides Super 4 Spec 1 .

Bonchet !

AND HE LOVES ME !! (:

Ouh yahh . This morning i dreamt about Toyol .

About us , spending time together and stuffs .

Sungguh takk perlu shey .

Didn't even think about him before i sleep .

How i dreamt about him also i don't know . Haish !

Please get out of my mind !! Thank you .

P/S : I Love You . <3

No Title .

I miss YOU ! ):