Just Bored (:

weeehoooooo !
at home , bored !
well , he went fer the operation yest .
all went well . thot of visitin him .
but , can i ?
if i can , shud i ?
if i shud , wud i ?
it's at j.e sia .
nehmind ! it all depends on momok .
if momok's gona visit him den i'll just tagg along . ((:
hope he's doin gud now .
wonderin if he's aslep .
tgh tinggikan ego niek .
tanak mcg die .
bialah die . haha . die igt die sorg ley ego .


hmmmm . i noe im strong enuff to let go .
but y i didnt ? siao !
haha . wad saket aty jekk .
buang mase jekk .
takyah lahh nakk pk2 .
im hapie now .
so y shud i think abt sumtin which makes me unhapie .
tol takk ?
takk tau lahh kan .
bdw . on 5th march , Sat , went fer bbq pit .
saw EC ther .
he kol me minah batam !
kwang asam tols .
sengaje kcao org . org takk kcau die tuh dah urh .
mangkok urh diktuhh . besar pehh mangkok .
den on the 8th , momok ajak lpak nan EC .
den i said i dowan .
then EC kol me tnye nak lpak ke takk .
momok showed the mcgs btwn me n him to EC .
tuh lagyk satu mangkok . haha .
but they r nice ppl . FRIENDS i mean .
i made a bet with momok .
hu drinks hafta treat swensen's . haha .
actualy i did dat cus i wana restrain maself frm drinkin .
just makin up excuses . (:
but dis sunday mayb pojie nak bkak botol . CHIVAS !
woww ! temptation sia . cb tols . takpe2 .
c how it goes . ((:
klah . nytes . muahks ! <3

-.-'

Clubbing yesterday .

But seriously no mood for all that .

I dont know why im starting to think about him again .

was in the bus on our way to Clarke Quay , thinking bout him .

was gonna cry . but stil stay strong .

changed my wallpaper to the tazzy he airbrushed when we just got to know each otha .

im not okay , m i ? idk ! fuck !

was thinkin of getting drunk yest . but when reached there , lost the mood to drink . -.-'

i know i dun haf anie feelings fer him animor .

but y i stil mish n care fer him ? idk !

sometimes i just hate maself . i hate this feelings im feeling . -.-'

MSN conversation . That will be the last . (:

Sazali Toyol says :
can do me a favor?

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
wad ?

Sazali Toyol says :
bbl serious jap leh?
bout us...
can?

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
ape ?

Sazali Toyol says :
hmm..
cam ne ehk nak start
u have anytin 2 ask me tak?

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
ape yg eu nak ckp eu ckp jek urh .

Sazali Toyol says :
takpe lah..
nvm

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
ckp urh .
dahh ckp gtuk behh takk bbual .

Sazali Toyol says :
hm..
takut sakit kan hati u..

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
takpe .
dah biase .

Sazali Toyol says :
takmu ckp gitu
haiz..
sblm ape2..
i wana say sorry n also thk u 4 all the things u have done for m
me*
sorry cos i gave u hope..
sorry i always ignore u..

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
n y ish dat ?

Sazali Toyol says :
thks cos u always b there if i need u..
dun ask why lah.
i also dunnoe
but i want all dis to end..
not even as a fren.. i just cant lah..

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
y not ?
cus i always kacau eu ?
disturb eu ?

Sazali Toyol says :
yeah.
sorry
i dun like

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
okae den .
sory

Sazali Toyol says :
no im sorry not u

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
no .
im suppose to say dat to eu .
ish dat all ?

Sazali Toyol says :
tsk ape2 lah..
yeah tats all..

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
ok .

Sazali Toyol says :
have u got anytin 2 say?

ZaRa_biOlz LuRpEz says :
just take care .

Sazali Toyol says :
u 2..

Last message received at 3:32 AM on 4/2/2011.

What do i actually want in life ? I dont know ? That's not a good answer .

i realy dont know wads gonna hapen next .
i dun even noe wad im thinkin ryt now ?
why do i like him so much ?
n why he reminds mie of toyol so much ?
the way he acts , the way he toks .
haish . i dun think we wil ever b tgt .
even if he sound mie now , i wud haf rejected .
he's a mature guy . mie ? not even near . haha .
he's expectin a future . wher as i dun even think abt it YET .
well , mayb i do . my heart is ready to commit .
but me , myself n my life like dis ? NO !
i hafta change b4 finding a guy .
my stubborness always gets in the way .
haish . y was i born like dis ?
can i just shut maself down just like a computer ?
or mayb reboot ?
ARGHH ! fuck man . i hate dis life .

The Girl Inside Me

Lets welcome AtiM back .
In my life . haha .
The symptoms are there .
Tak keysahh , kutok org , tak pedulik ape org rase . haha .
Slow and steady ......
n BOOM ! We attack !! haha .
But someone said she hates AtiM .
Y ehk ? okay pe .
hmm . sedih shey org tak suke kter . haha !
takpe lahh . asalkan ku bahgie sudahh . (:
lebih baek ku jdyk cam dulu . daripade makan aty . (:
i really mish those tyms .
i really ned AtiM now to move on . ((:
haha .
Adios ! ((: