if only .. haish !~

if only that day i didnt chat with him ..
things wont turn out this way ..
if only that day i didnt meet him ..
i wont start to fall for him ..
if only i know that its not going to work between us ..
i wouldnt love him like i do now ..
if only i know that he is just a passerby in my life ..
i wouldnt give him all the love and care ..
if only he feels the same way like i do ..
i wouldnt be sitting here n cry like a baby ..

i dunoe when it started ..
but i feel so gud wen i was wif him ..
i can easily forget the guy dat i liked fer almost 5yrs ..
all i can do ish to think bout him ..
wen he didnt contact mie i felt so lost ..
i realie love him ..

he said lets just be friends ..
i kept quiet ..
cus we ARE friends ..
just friends ..
from the very start ..
its onlie the feelings dat made mie think dat we're mor den just friends ..
n it hurts mie so bad ..
but wateva it ish ..
i just hope he's hapie wif his life ..
gudbye tOyoL ..

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

20th July 2009

20th July 2009
a date to remember ??
haha .. hell yeah ..
i wont forget dat date ..
sumthin hapen on dat day ..
haha .. wateva it is ..
MA BCK HURTS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *exaggerating*
hahaks ..
wen i was otw bck , in the train , i cried lahh shiots ..
i was listening to 'Selingkar Kasih - Rem ' ..
while readin his mcgs , tears ran down ma cheeks ..
i mish him alot lahh sheyy .. haish !~
but i tried to control ..
the harder i tried not to think of him , the mor i think of him ..
haish .. i think of him everydae ..
n fer the fers tym , i counted the daes ..
wen i was in love wif 'him' , i never did dat ..
yes i did n stil remember sum dates but i didnt count the daes ..
but wen it cums to him , its a big deal wen i didnt mit him fer mor den 3daes ..
i wana tell him dat i realie love him ..
i wana tell him dat i mish him so damn much ..
i wan him to noe how much he means to mie ..
but i dunoe wats stoppin mie from doin so ..
now we're not like US ..
haish !~

I MISS MY BABY SO BLOODIE DAMN MUCH !!

after exactlie 1 week we didnt mit ..

Heyys ..

yesterday i received a kol from tOyoL ..

well , i just woke up wen he kol ..

he said he's at ma voiddeck ..

n yahh , of cos im SURPRISED ..

takde angin takde ribot aley2 die kol ..

den wen i met him , he acted like as if nothin hapen ..

so , like him , i acted like nothin hapened lorr ..

but it hurts mie wen it seems like he dun care ..

hmm .. den we went to cwp ..

watch movie .. Transformers ..

b4 the show starts , we sat at Titanic ..

tOyoL: eu syg i ?

ZaRa: wat do eu think ?

tOyoL: i dunoe .. dats y i ask ..

ZaRa: ouh ..

tOyoL: nak jwb ke takk nie ?

ZaRa: ouh nak kenek jwb ehk .. hmm .. if yes ??

tOyoL: asl ? i takde pape tau ..

ZaRa: i syg eu sbab eu eu pe ..

hmm .. ntahlah ehk ..

sum tyms i just feel like sayin dis to him ..

' do eu reallie love mie ? cus if not den just leave mie .. '

but i dunoe y isit so hard fer mie to say dat ..

isit cus i love him so much n dun wan him to leave ?

but everybodie will leave eu in the end ryt ?

haish !~

sumtyms he can b unpredictable ..

hmm .. klahh .. i gtg ..

will post again soon !!

adios !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

what the hell is wrong with this month .. haish !~

bebeh ..
like eu said ..
dis month ish a bad month fer eu ..
well .. i agree wif eu .. hees ..
i mean , not onlie fer eu ..
but fer mie n everyone ard mie too ..
hmm .. so far in dis yr , dis ish the most problematic month ..
almost everyone ish having family n relationship problems ..
n like almost everyone out ther , im stressed too ..
but sumtyms eu just dun hafta show it .. ryt ??..
hmm .. i love eu bebeh ..
dats y im not leaving eu ..
im tryin to understand the problems eur facing ..
so dat i cud stay strong n wait fer eu ..
eu said dat all eur past relationship dun last due to sum circumstances ..
but i will try ma best to last long wif eu ..
but eu gotta stay strong too aiites bebeh ..
we'll make it thru ..

hmm ..
i feel dat we're driftin apart ..
tell mie if im rong ..
n tell mie dat its gona b okaes ..
love eu .. (:



MiSsY CoMpLiCaTeD

slepie n suay !!

hello !!

lets share stories ..

come , come !!

hehe ..

well .. life was okaes recentlie ..

as usual lahh kann ..

not getting enuf slep ehk btw ..

hmm .. i slept fer onlie 2hrs dis morning ..

hehe .. n yahh .. wana noe sumtin ??!!

in the aftanun , i went to AMK wif Diyan ..

to fetch Yasin ..

den wen we were at the platform , otw bck home ..

the mrt came ..

n i was like , stood up n boarded the train lahh kann ..

den i realised sumtin missin ..

ma HENFON !!!!!

i was like WTF ??!!

ma heart fell to the ground lahh sheyy ..

n i was abit panic .. hees ..

i wonder , how can i forget such things ..

i never forget ma henfon b4 sheyy ..

den luckielie dis Chinese lady was so kind to gif it bck to mie ..

if not den tak tau ape jdik .. hehe ..

woohoo !!~

kkaes .. dats all i wana tell ..

haha .. blueks !~

tata !! muahks !~

ZaRa_biOlz