i dowan eur FULL attention ..
i dun ned eu to spend ALL eur time on mie .
all ive ever wanted is SOMEONE fer mie to love n to be loved ..
a relationship dat LAST ..
i nvr ask fer anithin mor ..
but i respect eur decision to just FORGET bout everythin ..
yeah .. n thanks to eu too ..dun worry bout mie cus im gona b okaes ..
n bout dat karma thingy ..
i hope dat it wont hapen cus i dowan dat to hapen to eu ..
i wan eu to b hapie no matter wat hapens ..
n yeah .. its just the beginning ..
hmm .. thers nothin i hafta say either ..
so yahh ..
wateva it ish , i'll stil b ther if eu ned mie ..

*STILLcantSTOPthinkingABOUThim*

buhbye .. love yahh .. tc .. muahks .. (:
[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

23rd July 2oo9

tOyoL said (2:50 AM):
zara... i kept thinkin n think bout wat i ave said 2 u...

tOyoL said (2:50 AM):
i noe it hurts..

tOyoL said (2:51 AM):
and theres no point if i say sori 2 u.. cos it still will hurt...

tOyoL said (2:52 AM):
its just tat i dun want 2 keep u waitin n think bout me..

tOyoL said (2:53 AM):
theres alot tat u can do besides tat...

tOyoL said (2:54 AM):
i know where i stand.. im not ready 2 reli take care of u.. i tried... but i just cant... theres simply many other things tat is more important 2 me rite now..

tOyoL said (2:54 AM):
and i reli hope u can understand..

tOyoL said (2:55 AM):
i noe ur the gerl tat doesnt say much.. u only type wat u feel... tats just the way u r..

tOyoL said (2:57 AM):
there no point being together if i cant give my full attention n care 4 u.. although i tried.. but its just for some moments.. and i dun wanna hold u back any longer...

tOyoL said (2:58 AM):
u have a life 2 live..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
just 2 let u noe n stop u from wonderin more..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
wat eva i have said 2 u.. i reli mean it..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
the love n miss u..

tOyoL said (3:00 AM):
its from my heart...

tOyoL said (3:00 AM):
to hurt u now its beta den to hurt u later on..

tOyoL said (3:01 AM):
and i noe... its not fun 2 hurt someone... esp those who is sincere n honest in relationship..

tOyoL said (3:02 AM):
it will definately get back 2 me... the karma will com...

tOyoL said (3:02 AM):
one day.. ill get it 2.. being hurt.. n feel wat u feel rite now..

tOyoL said (3:03 AM):
i wanted 2 call u.. even meet u just 2 explain dis 2 u.. but i simply cant say it..

tOyoL said (3:04 AM):
i dun noe y.. maybe i always hav the tot tat u will just keep quiet n just listen..

tOyoL said (3:04 AM):
sumtimes i dunnoe how 2 interact wit ya..

tOyoL said (3:05 AM):
ur the action type.. less words.. if u understand wat i mean..

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
hmm...

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
guess tats all i have 2 say..

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
the rest its up 2 u..

tOyoL said (3:08 AM):
i reli have no much say in this anymore.. i just hope tat wateva it is... atim or zara... just b urself.. n b happy k.. life is short..

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
and thk u 4 ur neva endin love n care 4 me..

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
thk u 4 ur time n patience...

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
thk u 4 hugs n kisses..

tOyoL said (3:10 AM):
thk u 4 everythin..

tOyoL said (3:10 AM):
oh yah.. ur 'dale'.. u want it back? hmm.. kalau nak ckp k..

tOyoL said (3:11 AM):
learn 2 speak up n express urself 2 ppl more..

tOyoL said (3:11 AM):
it helps them understand u more..

tOyoL said (3:13 AM):
BTW atim/zara... its not the end.... its just the begining.. hear from u soon..

if only .. haish !~

if only that day i didnt chat with him ..
things wont turn out this way ..
if only that day i didnt meet him ..
i wont start to fall for him ..
if only i know that its not going to work between us ..
i wouldnt love him like i do now ..
if only i know that he is just a passerby in my life ..
i wouldnt give him all the love and care ..
if only he feels the same way like i do ..
i wouldnt be sitting here n cry like a baby ..

i dunoe when it started ..
but i feel so gud wen i was wif him ..
i can easily forget the guy dat i liked fer almost 5yrs ..
all i can do ish to think bout him ..
wen he didnt contact mie i felt so lost ..
i realie love him ..

he said lets just be friends ..
i kept quiet ..
cus we ARE friends ..
just friends ..
from the very start ..
its onlie the feelings dat made mie think dat we're mor den just friends ..
n it hurts mie so bad ..
but wateva it ish ..
i just hope he's hapie wif his life ..
gudbye tOyoL ..

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

20th July 2009

20th July 2009
a date to remember ??
haha .. hell yeah ..
i wont forget dat date ..
sumthin hapen on dat day ..
haha .. wateva it is ..
MA BCK HURTS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *exaggerating*
hahaks ..
wen i was otw bck , in the train , i cried lahh shiots ..
i was listening to 'Selingkar Kasih - Rem ' ..
while readin his mcgs , tears ran down ma cheeks ..
i mish him alot lahh sheyy .. haish !~
but i tried to control ..
the harder i tried not to think of him , the mor i think of him ..
haish .. i think of him everydae ..
n fer the fers tym , i counted the daes ..
wen i was in love wif 'him' , i never did dat ..
yes i did n stil remember sum dates but i didnt count the daes ..
but wen it cums to him , its a big deal wen i didnt mit him fer mor den 3daes ..
i wana tell him dat i realie love him ..
i wana tell him dat i mish him so damn much ..
i wan him to noe how much he means to mie ..
but i dunoe wats stoppin mie from doin so ..
now we're not like US ..
haish !~

I MISS MY BABY SO BLOODIE DAMN MUCH !!

after exactlie 1 week we didnt mit ..

Heyys ..

yesterday i received a kol from tOyoL ..

well , i just woke up wen he kol ..

he said he's at ma voiddeck ..

n yahh , of cos im SURPRISED ..

takde angin takde ribot aley2 die kol ..

den wen i met him , he acted like as if nothin hapen ..

so , like him , i acted like nothin hapened lorr ..

but it hurts mie wen it seems like he dun care ..

hmm .. den we went to cwp ..

watch movie .. Transformers ..

b4 the show starts , we sat at Titanic ..

tOyoL: eu syg i ?

ZaRa: wat do eu think ?

tOyoL: i dunoe .. dats y i ask ..

ZaRa: ouh ..

tOyoL: nak jwb ke takk nie ?

ZaRa: ouh nak kenek jwb ehk .. hmm .. if yes ??

tOyoL: asl ? i takde pape tau ..

ZaRa: i syg eu sbab eu eu pe ..

hmm .. ntahlah ehk ..

sum tyms i just feel like sayin dis to him ..

' do eu reallie love mie ? cus if not den just leave mie .. '

but i dunoe y isit so hard fer mie to say dat ..

isit cus i love him so much n dun wan him to leave ?

but everybodie will leave eu in the end ryt ?

haish !~

sumtyms he can b unpredictable ..

hmm .. klahh .. i gtg ..

will post again soon !!

adios !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]