Sazali Bin Othman

heyys ..
i hafta let dis out ..
til wen i wana kip dis to maself ryt ..
haish !~
i think i made the wrong move by mitting HiM ..
shudnt haf done dat in the fers place ..
He's doing just fine w/o mie ..
n i dun think thers a ned fer mie to bother HiM animor ..
i love HiM too much lahh ehh ??
lau ikot kan ati , mmg ku takley lpaskan die ..
i cant stop lovin HiM ..
i wana b wif HiM ..
but dun think He feels the same wae like i do ..
thot of mittin HiM dis Sunday to tok about it ..
but He's goin out wif His camp mates ..
i dunoe wen i can tok to HiM ..
or i shud just leave ?..
just walk outta His lyf ..
haish !~
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH LAHH !!
urgh !!~
sial lahh ..
wher's AtiM ??
wher's the strong ghurl ??
haish !~

[AtiM_sEtaN]


to my 'baby' :

just wana tell eu dat i love eu so much ..
so damn much ..
of all these daes we didnt mit , i never 4get to think about eu ..
even fer a dae ..
mish eu lots ..
mish the tyms we spent 2geder ..
i noe its hard fer mie to express ma feelings n communicate wif eu ..
but dis feeling i haf fer eu ish true ..
i love eu so much ..
i want eu so badlie ..
but unfortunatelie , we cant b 2geder ..
yea , it hurts ..
so much ..
but i hope dat tym wil heal the pain ..
i realie hope so ..
yg2 , eu tc ok ..
Muahks !~

[[BabYoLurpes]]

GOOD or BAD ?? haish !~

heyheyhey !!
nak tau about yest ehk ??
haha ..
kkaes .. umm .. ape ku wad ehk smlm ..
hmm .. ouh yahh ..
met Nadiah , matae pojie ..
g mamm at IMM ..
den jln2 japs ..
pastuh g umah die ..
lek2 pat sane from 4+ to 8+ ..
hmm ..
die saket .. ):
smlm tgk die cam cian gtuk ..
agik ckit nak nangis ..
tpik takpe lahh kann .. simpan jekk airmate ku tuhh ..
hmm .. narie laks ..
werk pagy ..
met fyfie n bakya at cwp ..
n gues wad ??
wa kena saman lahh sia ..
like CB sia ..
haish ..
den went bck .. get readie den met tOyoL ..
den took bus to his hse ..
lek jap , mkn ..
den alek ..
sejok pe ..
now mie just reached home ..
watchinng Criminal Minds ..
sok keje pagy dehh ..
haiyah ..
klah .. tata !~

Thursday & Friday

Yesterdae ..
werk aftanun ..
til 6 onie ..
suroh bakya coverkann ..
met iffah , mira , linda n her fwen ..
went bugis den bedok fer karaoke session !
whaeng ..
haha ..
just now werk PM ..
not tired .. but slepie lahh shey ..
yest slept at 3+am n woke up at 7+am ..
haiyah ..
went breakfast at mac wif FyFie ..
den jln2 pat cwp pagy2 bute .. haha ..
waited fer ma sis ..
den went bck 2geder ..
not long afta dat i hafta go werk oreadie ..
suppose to reach ther at 2.30pm ..
but i went out at 2.40pm ..
wakakakaka !
siak jekk ehk prangai ..
hmm .. just now at werk , wasnt realie concentrating on ma werk lahh kann ..
pkran .. but takk tau pk sal ape .. haish ..
dunoe lahh wads rong wif mie jus now ..
skg niek kann .. ade henfon ponn cam takde henfon ..
tak bunyik langsong !..
dulu slalu bsy wif mcgs n kols ..
but now , jgn harap !..
pena nak try knal2 alek ..
but tak pai 3 jam dahh malas nak lyn ..
haha ..
ku ponn tak tau ape ku nakk ..
bler henfon snyp , bored ..
bler dahh ade org utk nak bbual n mcg , malas nak layan lahh plaks ..
hmm ..
ouh yahh .. havent told eu bout December ehk ..
plan jeklahh kann ..
tak tau jdik ke takk ..
hmm .. mayb mid Dec enrol motor ..
abg nak sponsor beb .. huhu !~
den wana buy helmet ..
den pelan2 kayoh urh .. hees ..
cant wait fer Dec ..
waaaaaa ....... (:

bdw kann ..
dis Sunday .... shud b mittin HiM lahh kann ..
He said He's free on Sunday ..
Lookin forward to Sunday ..
wee !~
hehe .. kkaes .. i nak slep ..
tata .. MuAcKiEs !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

Monday - Wednesday

heyys ..
blogg tym !!!!!
hehe ..
tired lahh these few daes ..
werk , den lynkan dorg g jln aye smue ..
hmm ..
Monday ..
forgot wad i did on dat dae .. haha ..
Tuesday ..
g jln aye nan bdak2 KK ..
the Kedai Kopi gang ..
(Mamat n his ghurl , bAcHeNn , Bear2 , Bro , Salleh , Nazar , Kak Maia n family , Bakya , Fyfie n Pojie)
dorg plan nak jmp kul 4 ..
but mie , bro , kak maia family , bakya n fyfie reached ther at 6.30pm ..
hahaks .. baek pe ..
pat umah , dah ciap smue , slipper laks takde ..
bngit pe .. nak pkai tnye urh org dulu ..
den ku prangai lahh kann ..
malas nak g ..
beh dorg ajak g ..
terpakse kai heels ..
like cb sia ..

Fers hse .. umah bear2 ..
mamm mee hoon ..
den went to bachenn's hse ..
mamm roti wif curry ..
den g Jurong West ..
umah Izzati ..
perjalanan nak p sane tak perlu lahh ehh ..
haish ..
at dat hse mie , bakya , kak maia , bear2 n salleh sat at the dining table ..
kecoh pe ktorg ..
bear2 pehh lokek ..
ku mtk ckit behh die tanak kasik ...
haiyo ..
den brooch ilang ..
kwang3 ..
Siti , matae Mamat , irrits ehk bdw ..
org gurau2 nan matae die ponn nak jeles ..
fed the ups shiots !!
kkaes , tanak ckp urh ..
pastuh3 .. g umah Siti at bkt panjang ..
den g Sembawang .. umah Mamat ..
naseb baek bdak irrits tuhh takde .. haha ..
Nazar kasik kter duit aye lahh shey .. hahaks ..
siaks jekk .. hees ..
den g umah yan bunny .. pat blk sblah pehh blakang ..
heheks ..
they ask fer drink refill ..
beh wen yan refill satu , ade agik satu cwn kosong ..
dorg minom cpat2 kasik abes ..
byk kali shiots org tuh patah alekk nak refill kan air ..
hahhahaahahahahaha !!!
pastuh , ALEK !!
pi umah , lek 10-15 mins den tros K.O ..
hehe ..

Wednesday ..
werk .. den ask papa to fetch mie ..
den g makan pat Sembawang ..
den alek jap den g kdai ..
wif bakya n p2 ..
thot of buyin choc .. but ntah lahh kann ..
haha ..
lek2 pat bawah blk ..
minom ..
ckit jek !
den alek .. dgr mj12 ..
den online jap ..
den bbual nan tOyoL ..
tdor same2 ..
hmm ..
huggs ?? Kish ?? Mishh ??
haish !~
Still Do Love You Baby ..
but den .. haish ..
klah3 .. nak p werk niek ..
tata .. (:

[ZaRa_biOlz]

Jalan Raya

heyya !!
just reached home ..
tdik g jln aye ..
pnat lahh shiots !!
hmm ..dorg smue kai heels ..
hah ! amek kau !!
hahaks ..
fers hse was at 541 .. umah jiran p2 ..
den went to kak yati's hse ..
ku tdor lahh shiots pat sane ..
siak jekk prangai .. hees ..
den g umah Alang ..
den walked to wak esah's hse ..
den took bus to bedok .. umah wak payah ..
so slepie siak .. slept in the bus ..
contact lense irritates mie .. cb !
den went to Mac civic ..
g makan ..
kul 1am ehh .. makan Mac ..
dah lame pe tak wad gtuk .. hees ..
im gona slep soon ..
later werkin lahh at 7.30 ..
dpat tdor jap ponn jdik lahh kann ..
hahaks .. kkaes ..
nytes ..

Loves ..
Muahks !~

~! bab[Y]o[L]urpes !~

TWOmonthsANDtenDAYS

quick updates ..
bakya werk at ma werkplace ..
yest fers dae ..
better sia .. if not all aunties sia werk ther .. no teens .. except fer christin lahh ..
the indian ghurl ..
sial lahh .. racist siak !
haha .. jokin .. she's okaes lahh .. (:
umm .. went to Zali's hse on Thursday ..
smue ade ..
n smue cam biase jekk ..
saw Dale ! hahaks ..
didnt pinish ma mee ..
SEBAB :
1) im not hungry ..
2) i feel diff lahh ..

den tym nakk alek mak die ckp
'senang2 dtg lahh ..'
*silence* fer a few secs b4 sayin InsyaAllah ..
otak blank japs ..
haha ..
den he sent mie home ..
salam him den walked away without lookin bck ..
tak tau ehh asl camtuh ..
den watched him go from 6th floor ..
haish ..
he asked mie wen wana mit again ..
i didnt ans him .. i think .. hees ..
BECAUSE shud ask himself lahh ..
not mie ..
kann3 ?.. (:
an an an an !! hahaks ..
he called mie wen he reached home just to tell dat he reached home le ..
hmmmmmm .. wonder y ..
teringt ku tym dulu2 ..
haish .. kkaes .. tak perlu ehk !!
klah .. peace outs ..

Cherrie Cherrie Boom Boom !!!

Hello .. yest i tok on the fon wif HiM .. He said i sounded like a guy .. rabak pe .. batok pehh pasal urh niek .. suare dahh cam gtuk , sengau laks tuhh .. haish .. apelah naseb c bangau niek .. wakaka !~ we tok3 den slep together2 .. onie wif HiM lahh im like dat .. nan org laen , jgn harap ! malas nak lyn .. hees .. umm .. die ade tnye whether im stil sgl .. lupe laks nak tnye die alek .. hehs .. die ckp bpak tnye 'bangau tak dtg ?' hmm .. nga pk niek .. bler nak p sane .. g sorg ? cam tak biase lahh pulaks kann .. hmm .. im thinkin .. camane ehk ? thot of goin ther on thursdae or saturdae .. i think saturdae wud b betta ryt ? hmmmmm .. behh beAr2 ponn jempot p umah die .. tak tau lahh ape angin die jempot zara kann .. but he did .. tuh ponn i havent plan wen to go .. beh die tnye zara itot ke takk g jln aye nan bdak2 KK .. hmm .. c how lahh kann .. bdw kann , 'He' posted "MERAH JUGAK !!" pat FB .. we actualie wore red on the fers day of aye .. doinkk !! behh kenek kcau .. haish .. fedup2 .. im slepie ehk bdw .. jap agik dean's family nak dtg .. but dunoe wad tym .. hmm .. nak tdor jap lahh .. kkaes .. adios !~

Second Day Of Raya

dis mornin went to Johor ..
atok's hse ..
naek motor ..
rambotku kusut !!
siak betol ..
umm .. tdor jap pat sane .. hehe ..
den alek .. sambong tdor ..
til 5+pm ..
den angon , ciap2 den tros g bugis ..
wif bakya , fyfie , yaya n awin ..
ferst thing we did ish to find food !!
haha ..
ate at Rex ..
den patah alek g bugis street ..
jln2 jap .. den alek ..
singgah pat port cus maia ajak tron ..
but den bler kter sampai die takde ..
siak tol ..
kter kenek trick shiots ..
so kter alek tros ..
MERAH JUGAKK !! wakaka ..
bdw kann .. tdik tym odw alek pat dlm train kecoh sak ..
hahaks ..
kacau org .. kekek lahh shey ..
i laff til ma face turn red ..
hehehe ..
beh pai umah , online , tgk fb , jiwang ..
hahaks .. pai skg ..
cough n flu .. like CB sia ..
umm .. wen ehk nak g umah die ?..
i wonder ..
hmm .. klah .. nak slep ..
nyte2 .. muahks !

First Day Of Raya

Hari Raya ..
just now woke up at 9am ..
den waited fer everyone to arrive ..
eat ! eat ! n eat !
hmm ..
todae kann , very the touchin gtuk ..
hmm .. we had the 'seek for forgiveness' session ..
den photo taking session ..
den makan session ..
hahaks ..
fer the fers tym , i cried ..
realie cried ..
dunoe y lahh kann ..
hahaks .. pai nak mtk maaf ponn suare tak terkua ..
later afta maghrib , we all goin to pojie's hse ..
den go bck ..
wil blog again later ..
tata (:

eve of hari raya ..

heyys ..
now mak2 nga seybokk2 pat dapor ..
tdik kter2 tlg jap jekk ..
haha ..
i dunoe wad i wana do wif ma hair lahh kann ..
gunting botakk urh .. hahaks ..
hmm .. dis wil b the fers aye i didnt buy aniting ..
NOTHING ..
mood aye tol2 takde ..
but thanks to adeq n ayg fer the 'taik kambing' ..
love dat thing .. haha ..
sodap dok !!
hmm .. sok cam biase jgak ..
kua g umah sdare2 ..
den mlm mok , man n mamat dtg ..
standard procedure .. hahaks ..
klah2 .. nnt mlm gue sambong ..
tata !~

slepie n tired ..

boo !
just came bck ..
werk in the morning ..
den went to auntie pojie's hse ..
hmm ..
wat inai lahh shey ..
hahaks ..
2moro i wana do sumting to ma hair ..
hahaks ..
canot tell lahh kan ..
surprise .. haha ..
so yea ..
i gotta get ma beauty slep now ..
toodles .. (:

work morning shift ..
came late ..
reached ther at 8am ..
ma dad sent mie to werk ..
in his cab , he kinda nagg bout mie stayin up late den werk mornin shift the next dae ..
but i didnt hear wad he said lahh ..
cus i was slepin .. haha ..
so slepie lahh ..
hmm .. 2moro mayb goin to putri's hse aft werk ..
off on Sat , Sun N Monday ..
huhu !~
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO THOSE WHO ARE CELEBRATING .. (:

Pictures Of Us ..

PIX OF US !!

otw nak g buke

waiting fer buke

the brader lurb

all the guys

US at Geylang

otw bck !

Sunday - Monday - Tuesday

~~Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa khabarnya pujaan hatiku ..
Aku disini menunggunya
Masih berharap didalam hatinya ..~~



lets blog bout Geylang .. umm .. sunday .. went out at ard 3+ .. met kak maia family , pojie , nad , paijal , an , faiz n bro at Cwp at 5pm .. den proceed to Geylang .. pick mamat n couple , man n mok up .. den went fer break fast .. eventho majority of us didnt fast .. muahaha ..

den walk2 jln2 .. hehe .. saw Eddy at Joo Chiat .. wahh .. dat was soooo 2007 .. hahaks .. kkaes .. den we walk2 jln2 till 12+ .. Thaqifah was unwell .. she vomitted fer mor den 3 tyms lahh shey dat nyt .. den drove to KKH .. reached ther at 1am .. accompanie kak maia in the hosp while the rest went sumwher to chill .. den hafta wait fer a few hrs .. so we chilled at KKH fer awhile .. til 3+am .. den headed to Wdls lame .. went sahur .. but i think onie sum of dem puasa today .. haha .. ate black pepper beef wif rice .. woahhh !! perot ley meletop beb !! byk makan urh smlm .. kkaes .. afta dat smue alekk .. reached home at 5am .. planned not to slep .. but den tertdor jap .. slept fer 45mins onie .. den hafta go to werk .. was abit late .. hehe ..

heyy .. stil remember Didi ?? if eu dun den go read ma May posts lahh kkaes .. haha .. kkaes .. met Didi afta werk .. he fetched mie lahh .. hmm .. dat was the fers tym we met ehk bdw .. umm .. went to 888 .. den admiralty .. bought lenses .. hehe .. den he sent mie home .. afta dat went out wif mama n kakak .. went to Cwp .. buke pat Banquet .. den alekk !!!!

Todae .. cam zombie shiot ku pat werk .. haha .. kak ju asked mie to do banking .. so went to amk hub .. behh ley terlelap jap pat dlm bus .. padahal jap jekk shey journey .. haha .. tym nak p werk , uncle anta naek van .. tuhh pon ley tertdor .. hehe .. cam lahh pnat cgt aku niek .. hehes .. den met kakak jap pat cwp .. bought sum studs .. heheks .. dah kai studs alekk lahh shey .. dah lame pe tak kai .. dah 4 mths plus .. huhu !~ now just reached home .. tros online .. hahaks .. wad the hell lahh kann .. hmm .. lapar .. tak puase ponn lapar .. hahaks .. bdw , todae's weather like cb sia .. panas gyler .. den just now i clipped ma hair lahh shey pat werk .. till now lahh kann .. haha .. fers tym pe .. weehee .. n im addicted to dis song now .. the title ish 'Your Eyes Don't Lie' sang by David Archuleta ..



I saw you yesterday,
It's been a while
You tried but failed
At holdin' back your smile right then
It's not over yet, I knew, for you
(You see)
I couldn't sleep
I thought of nothin' else
I needed help
Everyone was tellin' me
You were movin' on with someone else
But what we had was so special
People can be jealous, oh
I had to see it for myself
I can see it in your eyes
You feel the same about us as I
There is no way the truth can be disguised
You're still in love with me
You were never really out of love with me
Your eyes don't lie
I know I hurt you
I know you are hurtin' still (mmm, yeah)
But I'll make it up to you
Yeah, baby, I will
'Cause what we had was so special
You know we can't give it up
Now that I'ma lookin' at you I can see
I can see it in your eyes (your eyes)
You feel the same about us as I
There is no way (there is no way) the truth can be disguised (there is no way)
You're still in love with me
You were never really out of love with me
Your eyes don't lie
And they never will, girl
Oh, now that I know
We were apart but your heart never let go
So thank you for showin' me with one look
What used to be, and still is, a possibility
I can see it in your eyes
You feel the same about us as I
There is no way the truth can be disguised
You're still in love with me
You were never really out of love with me
Your eyes don't lie
Your eyes don't lie

91182114 ??

i cant slep ..
haish ..
hafta wake up at 7 am ..
dunoe if i can wake up norts later ..
now got no one to chat wif ..
no one to tok to ..
feelin so damn bored ..
but STILL CANT SLEEP !!
gahhh !!
i gotta go training later ..
hmm .. not shure wad training lahh ..
but i noe its a training ..
cus i was told that it IS a training ..
hahaks ..
den hafta go werk ..
wil b pinishin at 4.30 pm ..
dunoe wher to go afta werk ..
go home n slep ? haha ..
ok jgak tuhh .. (:
well .. just now read thru the Army Notebook ..
was jus flippin thru at fers ..
but den sumtin caught ma eye ..
91182114 ..
dat was the line i used ryt ??
haha .. shud b urh ..
hmm .. but its not mie hu wrote dat ..
it was HiM ..
umm .. mayb he wrote dat wen we just got to noe each other ..
nak hafal num kott .. haha ..
n yea .. afta i saw dat , i took out the movie tix from ma wallet n pasted it on one of the pages lahh ..
hahaks ..
gyler ? yea ..
let it b 'OuR' book ..
dats the book wher he drew tazzy on ma very fers mornin at Jurong ..
sat in the room ..
mimicked Kahmunrah from the movie Night At The Museum 2 .. ahaks ..
laff like hell ..
den played poker ..
n chilled ..
the funny part is wen we made plans to buy breakfast ..
haha ..
June '09 ...
i miss dat month ..
had a lot of fun ..
unforgetable memories ..
wish to stay dat way .. (:
hmm .. now its alreadie september ..
known him fer almost 4 mths ..
it took mie 1 week plus to fall in love wif HiM ..
he was my first priority fer 1 mth plus ..
n the rest of the daes were spent on gettin hurt .. haha ..
afta dat 'separation' , thinkin bout HiM became ma daily routine ..
everyday without fail ehh bdw ..
haha ..
ppl thot dat im okaes ..
onie the closest noe how i feel ..
felt LOST ..
totallie lost ..
i was like 'Who Am I ?' , 'Why Im Like This ?'
seems okaes .. but dlm aty hanye tuhan saje yg tau .. haha ..
ehh .. im supposed to blog bout the Present ryt ? not the past ..
hmm .. got nothin to say actualie ..
onlie one thing lahh ..
ma bro dah bkak P plate .. huahuahua ..
klah .. enuff of the story telling thingy ..
buhbye .. muahks !

ADDICTED - stevie hoang

since u went away its been one year two months
but it just dun seem like yesterday we were still together
time has passed and things have changed so
why do i feel this way
cos you're with somebody else
and im with somebody else but

whenever i think about the the love we had
it hurts so bad
whenever i think about the love we made
i said that i'd be strong
girl i really thought that i'd move on
but still i find myself asking

do u still think of me like i think about u
do u still dream of me cos i cant sleep without u
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
your love has got me addicted
said i dont know
when im with a chick and hittin it girl i call your name
said i dont know
when i be with somebody else i push them away
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
i know i gotta move on but im so addicted to u

its been long enough dont know why im still holding on
if i had a wish babe i would turn back the hands of time
cos u dont know what u got untill its gone
its the reason why im writing u this song
girl im slippin and i dont know what to do
girl i admit it, im sick over u
damn i realised my mistake, my pride got in the way
i should have begged u to stay

do u still think of me like i think about u
do u still dream of me cos i cant sleep without u
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
your love has got me addicted
said i dont know
when im with a chick and hittin it girl i call your name
said i dont know
when i be with somebody else i push them away
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
i know i gotta move on but im so addicted to u

if u ever lost someone u truely love
let me hear u say yeah
and if u lost someone u truely need
let me hear u say yeah

do u still think of me like i think about u
do u still dream of me cos i cant sleep without u
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
your love has got me addicted
said i dont know
when im with a chick and hittin it girl i call your name
said i dont know
when i be with somebody else i push them away
tell me if time should make a change
then why do i feel the same
i know i gotta move on but im so addicted to u

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mishin HiM loads ..

okaes ..
dat song realie shucks ryt ..
hahaks ..
cant slep ..
thinkin of hu ehk ??
i wonder ..
haha ..
klahh ..
wateba .. (:

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'HiM' & HiM

heyys ..
just came from werk just now ..
just now ate YanYan n KitKat fer break fast ..
drank Hl Chocolate n Oreo Chocolate Ice Blended ..
ALL CHOCOLATE !!
hahaks ..
now just pinish eating Kinder Bueno ..
hees ..
just now i mcg him ..
asked whether he's followin or not dis Sunday ..
den he said that he wil konfem wif mie again on thursday ..
haish ..
realie hope he wil follow ..
mish him lahh kann ..
die tak mish tuh die pehh pasal urh ..
bdw kann ..
bear2 viewed toyol's profile ehkk ..
hmm .. wondering wads his purpose of viewin toyol's profile ..
nak tgk kter ade pape ke takk ehk ?
wakakaka !!
belo tols ..
wadeva lahh ehk ckp nan die ..
hees ..
now i wana eat !
lapar beb .. (:

sleeping beauty

woots !~
slept fer 13 hours ..
waaa ... best pahh ..
hahaks ..
its oreadie 12.30 lahh ..
haish ..
hafta get readie n go werk ..
malas nyer .. lau ley fly kan bagos ..
hmm .. bdw yest b4 went to slep i mcg 'HiM' ..
but was oreadie asleep wen he eplied bck ..
haha .. tak pai 10 min dahh pengsan ..
canot tahan oreadie urhh ..
narie nak buke ape ehk ?..
hmm .. CHOCOLATES !!
yea .. kkaes .. bye !!

slept fer one hour onie .. haiish ..

weiits !!
ku nantokk !!
aiyayo ..
just now werk till 3 ..
bro fetched mie ..
den lekk2 japs n went out again ..
met kak maia den went to pojie's hse ..
i ate maggi goreng fer buke ..
n donut .. (:
den walked to port ..
otw ther , as we're walkin kann , saw bear2 ..
den we walked wif him ..
cus he's goin port too ..
umm .. yg ade pat port kter2 , bear2 , man n mamat ..
Thaqifah jatoh byk kali shey ..
pai luke2 smue .. haish ..
ciian die ..
NAMPAK DIE MAEN GUITAR !!
woohoo !~
had fun ..
but at the beginning of the day was like wad the hell lahh kann ..
im so tired n slepie ..
but stil cant slep ..
*sMiLe*

Dale

yest reached werk place a bit late ..
hees .. star karat lahh kater kann ..
werk was okaes ..
buke mamm nasik wif black pepper beef ..
was allowed to go home earlie cus im werkin at 7.30am ehk later ..
but stil havent slep .. haha ..
well , abg fetched mie yest ..
he said just mcg him if i wan him to fetch mie todae .. hees ..
kann bagos gtuk .. (:
now gona eat !!
cus im lazie to wake up fer sahur later ..
hees ..
saw DALE !! haha ..
kiut nyerh die ..
haha .. k lame ..
adios !!

haish ..

bro saw his pic ..


Bro : sape nie ?
ZaRa : Zali .. yg dat tym kau npk die pat tangge tuhh ..
Bro : yg ade moto TZM tuhh ?
ZaRa : camane kau tau ? niek mesti pojie lang .. hmm .. a'ah ..
Bro : ouh .. die matae kau ehk ?
ZaRa : dulu kter ade pape lahh .. tpik takk matae .. skg kter takde pape ..
Bro : asl ?
ZaRa : ntahh .. agikpon die nga bsy .. commited nan skul die ..
Bro : skul ane ?
ZaRa : NAFA .. hmm .. he's a gud guy lahh ..

ermm .. i tried not to tok bout HiM to anione ..
but y did Bro started it ..
haish ..
i ned a hug man .. cb urh ..

fer the fers tym i dun tok muchie2 .. (:

heyya ..
todae was okaes lahh ..
hmm ..
i was late ..
so bro sent mie to werk ..
dahh lame beb tak naek motor ..
helmet besar ehk bdw ..
cam cartoon shiots ku kai ..
wakaka !~
reached ther , do sum stufs ..
abehh , pastuhh agu 'Wait For You' laks bunyik ..
melayang japs plahotaks kush ..
haiish ..
mepeks !!
umm .. ehh bdw kann ..
tdik ade org belik condom pai berkotak2 shiots ..
1 mth supply agaknye ..
wakaka !~
tdik kann , i buke sorg eu ..
makan sorg .. minom sorg .. amekk angin sorg ..
mendaks pe ..
naseb baek dahh lame practice idop sorg2 ..
heheks ..
klah2 .. adios amigos ..
wiket2 !~
kuruku !~
mumuchai !~
[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

URGH !!

i dun ned all dat ..
hate all dat ..
like wad the hell lahh kann ..
haish ..
mepek urh ..

I'm Your Guardian Angel

heyys ..
just came bck ..
just now went to the Guardian thingy ..
n yeah ..
got a job ..
hahaks ..
keje die cam rilek lahh kann ..
leyy slack .. hehes ..
tpik kann .. takot boring laks ..
hmm .. sok fers dae ..
hope its gona b ok ..
ermm .. nak puase ke takk ehk sok ?..
haha .. puase jekk lahh ..
umm .. den went to pojie's hse ..
buke ther .. walauponn ku takk puase ..
huahuahua !!
tdik ade syarahan ckit pat sane ..
hees .. sape lagik lau bkan wak2 kush n aunty pojie ..
haha .. kkaes wateba ..
pale pening urh ..
i think i smoke too much lahh ..
cus dat tym rape ari tak isap rokok ..
ishh .. irritatin siak niek pale ..
huhu !~
n bdw , eu wont get tired tokin bout sum1 eu love ehk ?
haha .. tak abes2 pk sal die , bbual sal die , rindu die n apape yg sewaktu nan nye lahh ..
n im slepie ehkk btw ..
padahal smlm tdor cpat sheyy ..
terlebih tdor agiik ..
aiyayo .. (:

Pening Lalat Lahh ..

im so damn tired .. haish ..
sleepy plus tired ..
like wad the hell lahh kann ..
pale pening ehk bdw ..
ade lahh sebab2 tertentu ..
well , received a mcg from sumone dis aftanun ..
dun wish to mention his name lahh kann ..
if eu noe den gud lahh .. (:
urgh !!
pale kush SUPERpening lahh shey ..
now nak edit kann kak maia nye blogskin ..
den im off to slep ..
canot tahan oreadie ..
sok nak puase ke takk ehk ?
hmm .. i wonder .. haha ..
klah .. toodles .. (:

Happy !!

Heyy !!
just got to noe dat he passed his TP ..
dunoe y im like excited gtukk ..
hehe ..
cant stop smilin from just now ..
biOlz tols .. haha ..
happyHAPPYhappy !!
haha ..
k stop it ..
hahas ..
Love eu bebeh ..
(:

ZaRa Owl

heyys ..
slept fer 1hr just now ..
from 3+ to 4+ ..
i was so damn slepie dat i thot of not wakin up fer sahur ..
cant barely open ma bloodie damn eyes lahh shey ..
but forced maself to wake up ..
onlie drank milo n ate few slices of bread ..
umm ..
thot of goin bck to slep ryt afta sahur ..
but cant slep lahh kann ..
wahh .. dis lappy become ma husband lahh ..
been wif mie all the tym , watch mie slep ..
wakaka !~
bdw , thot of mcgin him n wish gud luck fer his TP ..
tpik takpe lahh kann ..
biar lahh die tak tau yg AtiM ingat ponn ..
even if he noes dat i remember it wont make anie diffs ryt ?..
hahaks !
hmm .. dun haf plan lahh fer todae ..
lpak ? ntah ehh ..
dah rape ari niek AtiM jdik gud ghurl lahh ..
dok umah jekk .. kua pon wif family ..
haha .. now ma brader is in his gyler2 mood ..
he's singing all the songs he haf in his lappy ..
hahaks .. nga mendak lahh tuh ..
kiyut laks abg ku niek .. hees ..
sok mayb i follow Yaya fetch Yasin from skul ..
i mean later lahh kann .. hehe ..
klah2 .. dis supposed to be a short post .. hahas ..
toodles !~
MuAckiEs !

Random Post

okays .

lets make a plan .

tonight slep at 2 .

den wake up for sahur at 4.30 .

den slep at 5.3o .

wake up again at 11.30 .

haha ..

okayy takk ??

cam takk jekk .

hees .

now waiting fer buka .

sooo thirsty !! haha .

bdw kann .

dun feel like raya-ing lahh dis year .

takyah belik aju aye .

puase ponn cam nak tanak jekk dis year .

sebelom puase pnyelahh smangat .

dunoe wad hapen lahh kann .

hmm ..

and if im not rong he's goin fer TP 2moro .

if i remembered correctlie lahh .

hope he wil pass . hmm .

and yeah .

like sumone said ..

dis ish just the beginnin .

LovesLoves (:

out of boredom

boohoo !~
cant slep lahh sheyy ..
hmm ..
he's stil awake ?..
at dis hour ??
aiyayo ..
bdw kann .. i've tryna find a suitable blogskin ..
a nice one of cos ..
but takk dpat .. ):
been edittin dis stewpid thing since 11+ ..
haish ..
like wad the hell lahh kann ..
hmm .. klah .. nak g sahur ..
buhbye .. MuaCkiEs !~

Haril Ahmad Dhani

My Dearest Nephew

well .. just now went to bugis n arab street wif mum , sis , niece n nephew ..

jln2 jekk .. n belik mamm tok buke skalie ..

hmm .. dokong bdak gemok nie pnat lahh sheyy ..

lengoh tgn .. haha ..

kiyut .. dah pandai salam org ..

n tdik pat dlm bus he bit mie ..

saket gyler .. cam nak sepak2 muke die ..

naseb baek die kecik .. hees ..

he's so damn kiyut sia ..

OMG .. haha ..

bdw .. 3 daes oreadie ehk tak berasap ..

tak makan tak smoke ..

i dunoe y ..

hmm .. k wadeva .. (:

mendak lahh shiots

heyys ..
stayed home the whole day ..
bored lahh shey .. haha ..
wad i did ehkk ??
hmm ..
woke up at 11+ ..
online til 3+ ..
den bathe ..
went out wif ma parents ..
bought food fer buka ..
den went bck home ..
slacked all the way ..
haha ..
n here i am now ..
stil haf nothin to do ..
wakaka ...
hmm .. mayb i'll slep a bit earlie todae ..
yest i slept at 4+ ..
wanted to wake up at 5 fer sahur but slept all the wae til the next mornin ..
haha .. siak2 ..
but den .. im stil not slepie sia .. haiish ..

a girl with a broken heart

47 days had passed ..
14th July was the last tym i met him ..
n i didnt expect it to b the last lahh ..
cus dat day , we're like NORMAL ..
thers no signs dat it wil b like dis ..
he asked mie 'eu .. kter aper ?..'
ma ans is the same ..
well , eventho we're not together , the feeling ish stil ther ..
i love him so much .. haiish ..
i may look okaes on the outside ..
but deep inside , everything is broken ..
tried to act as if nothin hapen ..
but how much longer can i pretend ?
i stil remember everything bout him ..
ma love fer him never fades ..
but does he feels the same way bout mie ?
hmm .. ntahlah ehk .. haiish ..
i just dun believe dat i can b like dis ..
brokened n hurt ..
weneva i realie think bout him jekk i feel like cryin ..
even just now ..
tym makan pat al-ameen , airmate bertakong lahh shiots ..
tried to control ma emotions ..
talked wif ma mum n try to cheer maself up ..
haiish !!!

[[MiSsY_biOlz]]

kenangan lalu

nie tym dulu2 ..
kter lek2 pat Gelare ..
we competed in finishin the drinks ..
n the last one to finish wil b forfeited ..
n so .. yahh .. im the LAST one .. haha ..
funny lahh ..
hafta walk in Cwp bare-footed ..
hahaks .. muke slumber jekk .. wakaka ..

yg nie laks ..
it was on last 2 yrs countdown if im not rong ..
we were so damn bored ..
haha .. muke mepek kann ..
we had so much fun lahh dat tym ..
haha .. 4 org dahh mcm 15 org .. huhu !~

6th day of puasa

wad the hell ish rong wif mie shiots ?..
i didnt fast since the 2nd day lahh shey ..
haish ..
y ehk ?.. i noe im not like dis lahh kann ..
hmm .. maken biolz ?..
yea mayb .. hees ..

thinkin of nothin ............
haha ..

ouh yahh ..
beAr2 owaes tok bout him ..
like wad the hell ..
cam nak cekik2 die .. ahaks !..
bahase kan org jekk keje die ..
tanak kalah laks tuhh ..
well .. sape takk knal die kann ..
slalu tanak kalah ..

hmm .. dis Mondae nak g WGS ke takk ehk ?
cam malas ponn ade .. haha ..
suspect kuat 'dorg' ade ..
haish ..

I MISS YOU SO MUCHIE !!

this song is for YOU

~ YoU ~

You were there to light my day .
You were there to guide me thru .
And my days down and up ,
I'll never stop thinking of you .
How can i forget all that .
You're the one who make me smile .
You'll always be a part of me.
How i wish you were still mine .

Never will forget the day .
How we've met and came this far .
Eventhough we got this feeling ,
but somehow it has to end up here .
I know its me who said goodbye .
That's the hardest thing to do .
'cause eu mean so much to me
And that's the truth from me to you .

For all the things we've done and say
For all the hurt that i've caused you .
I hope you will forgive me baby ,
cause that wasnt what i mean to do .

You were there to light my day .
You were there to guide me thru .
And my days down and up ,
I'll never stop thinking of you .
How can i forget all that .
You're the one who make me smile .
You'll always be a part of me.
How i wish you were still mine .

For all the things we've done and say
For all the hurt that i've caused you .
I hope you will forgive me baby ,
cause that wasnt what i mean to do .

4th day of puasa

can i say today shucks to the core ??
haish !~

woke up , met fyfie den went to maia's hse ..
as usual .. we just do our own stufs ..
hang out .. talked about so manie things ..
i was listening to songs wen fyfie sudenlie stood up n rushed out ..
den i heard people shouting .. arguing .. haish ..

y did they haf to treat her like dat ?
y r they so selfish ?
y cant they just understand ?
haiyoh .. i dunoe wad else to say lahh ..
i cant do anitin ..
all i can do ish just to b ther fer her ..
tok to her .. accompanie her ..

hmm .. their way in handling probs n our way ish diff ..
our families owaes sit down n tok ..
express wadeva eu feel n tell wad seems to b the prob ..
but the way they solve things are diff ..
not to say anitin bad bout them in dis fastin month lahh kann ..
but pls lahh ehk ..
THINK bout others like others think bout eu ..
yes , people do make mistakes .. but dis ish too much ..
like wad others said to you , just endure kkaes sis ..
i noe its too much oreadie , but just a bit more ..
im shure dat all dis hapens fer a reason ..
b strong aiites ..
we will owaes be by eur side ..


[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

3rd day of puasa ..

heyya ..
wana noe a secret ??
im not fastin todae ..
hees .. shhhhhh ..
dun tell people lahh kkaes ..
hmm .. just dun feel like it ..
or mayb i shud sae thers dis one devil ask mie not to ..
earlie in the mornin laks tuhh ..
ish ish ish ..
wakakakakaka !!
hope dis devil wil tag at ma tagboard 2moro mornin wen she read dis .. haha ..

well .. beAr2 didnt online yest ..
i wonder y .. hmm ..
ku takk cukop tdor ehk btw !! haish ..

i feel like cryin lahh now ..
dunoe y .. but i just feel like it ..
everything just shucks shiots ..
m i greedy or wad ??
love tOyoL but stil cant bear to lose beAr2 ..
hAish !~
its like wad the fcuk ..
feel like lettin go of everythin ..
but dis feelin ish just wayy too strong ..
urgh !!!
they wont understand how i feel ryt ??
ryt ryt ryt ??
like sumone said ..
i noe hu i wana b wif ..
but wif dis kinda situation i wonder if thers anie chance fer mie to b wif him ..
a part of mie wans mie to move on ..
but the other half wans mie to wait fer him ..
he said he dowan mie to get involve wif dis matter ..
i understand .. very well ..
but i dunoe y dis heart just cant seem to understand ..
haish ..

y do i hafta face all dis shit ?
y do i hafta b the one hu gets hurt ?
y i never get to be wif the one 1 love ?
y mie ?
y ?? y ?? y ??
hate it ! hate it ! hate it !
haish !~

im being childish eay ??
hees .. immature lahh katekann ..
18 ponn lom .. so its okaes fer mie to think dat way kann ??
haha .. kkaes .. wadeva ..
craps .. i noe ..
(:

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

suppose its gona b a bad dae .. haish !

WHAT THE HELL ??
he stil kips his ex mcgs ?..
now den i realize ?..
haish ..
kkaes .. think positive ..
mayb he's just lazie to delete all the mcgs ..
urgh ! wadeva ..
shit !! its gona b a bad day i gues ..
haish ! haish ! haish !

ouh yahh ..
btw , i miss eu too .. haha ..
muahks !
cant stop loving eu lahh kann ..
ILYSM !!!!

2nd day of puase ..

todae ish the lamest dae ever ..
haish ..
tell mie wads e use of fastin if eu slept al dae long ??
like wad the fuck kann .. haiyoh ..
just now break fast wif ma bro n yaya onie ..
ma parents went to ma grandparents hse..
hmm .. den afta dat went to my port ..
lek2 , chill2 , tok2 wif yaya n smoke ..
n gues wad ??!!
ma brader actualie saw mie smokin lahh sheyy ..
i was like OMIGOD !!
hmm .. but his reaction wasnt like wad i expected ..
feel guilty lahh kann .. hees ..
oh2 !! kuruku !~

FIRST DAY OF PUASE

hello ..
yest afta sahur i watched army daze n slep at 8am ..
haish .. army daze ..
reminds mie of sumone ..
ermm .. woke up at 12 ..
read mcg den kol HiM immediatelie ..
tok wif HiM .. den andie den went out ..
break fast outside ..
den go home ..
gues wat ??
thers no one at home wen i came bck ehk btw ..
dunoe wher ma parents gone to ..
everybodie's missing ..
hmm .. gerek pe fers dae puase nie mcm ..
well , wat to do .. hmm ..
to sumone .. i haf 2 werds fer eu ..
GROW UP lahh ..
dun b soo childish lahh kaes ..
im just a step away from hating eu ..
dun make mie hate eu lahh kkaes ..
just stop wadeva eur doin ..
they dun wan mie , its up to dem ..
they haf their own reason(s) fer not accepting mie ..
as fer the EGO guy eu mentioned in eur journal ..
i noe he's not as EGO as eu think he ish ..
i understand his situation very well ..
he even pitied eu wen he read eur journal ..
ish dat eur motive of writing those journals ??
to make dem feel dat wae ??
haish .. post it on tagged fer everyone to read ?
tak perlu lahh ehkk ..
haish .. im realie irritated shiots ..
haishh .. kau pehh pasal lahh ..
let mie repeat dis again ..
JUST DON'T MAKE ME HATE YOU KKAES ..

toodles .. (:

THIS IS FOR THOSE WHO WANTS TO SEE ME WEARING A DRESS !!

hahaks .. got nothin better to do lahh dat tym ..

so tried out the dresses lorr ..

wakaka !~

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

SMILE !!

woots !~
mie chatted wif beAr2 till 4am ..
webcam .. hahaks ..
he kip on askin mie to smile .. haha ..
gyler lahh die ..
hmm .. ouh yahh ..
he told mie dat he read kydo's journal at tagged ..
he said ' i believe the journal ish fer eu .'
n he pitied kydo ..
gud lahh kann ..
at least thers sumone hu pity him ..
mie ?.. i just cant b bothered lahh ..
sory to say dat ..
i was not in a gud mood yest ..
but i felt better wen i chat wif bear2 ..
much2 better !! (:
he kol mie nyonya lahh , amoi lahh ..
haha .. biskott tol ..
btw kann ..
i havent had 1 since yest nyt ..
hees .. kecoh pe .. sengaje tak belik ..
n yahh .
i think i noe y im confused ..
im confused cus i dunoe whether tOyoL realie love mie or not ..
im confused cus i dunoe whether i shud wait fer tOyoL or not ..
hmm .. im addicted to my sweetest addiction ..
love him loads .. muahks !~

AtiM_sEtaN

about AtiM ..
people said dat she doesnt haf a heart ..
haf no feelings ..
cus she dun gif a damn to those hu like her or haf feelings fer her ..
she dun mind being single for years just to wait fer sumone she realie love ..
its not easy fer her to fall in love ..
but if she started to realie love the guy , its hard fer her to let go ..(pity the guy .. haha .. )
if she dun like means she DONT ..
she's stubborn n hardlie listens to wat people say ..
she dont care wat people think bout her ..
she love being herself - the biOlz ghurl ..
she's complicated .. but easy to get along ..
she's very close to FyFiE ..
kept no secrets from her ..
if eu wana noe mor bout mie eu can ask her lahh kann ..
hahaks .. miss serba tahu .. (:
toodles !~

It Ends Tonight ..

well .. todae ehk ..
was a normal dae ..
fetched Yasin ..
i was late ehk btw ..
haish ..
sent him bck den i went to kak maia's hse ..
lek2 pat sane ..
SLEEP !! haha ..
ate alot .. seriouslie ..
cam nak meletop sia perot ..
haha .. ouh yahh .. bought donut at Marsiling ..
hees .. sodap shiots !!
tak caye g belik urh ..


yest tok wif beAr2 ..
bbual cam biase ..
klaka seram ade , kiyut ponn ade ..
hmm .. i enjoyed tokin to him ..
dari dulu pai skg , atim senang nak communicate nan die ..
walaupon kdg2 'network' cam siak .. (cHiPsMoRe kann .. jap ade , jap takde .. )
walaupon die panggil atim nyonya ..
i stil feel comfortable tokin to him ..
he can b a brader , a fwen , a father n a biscuit ..
hahaks !~
yea .. lu gerek urh brader !! (:

tdik pat umah kak maia i disturb kydo ..
sal Diyan ..
den i think he canot take it n kol zali ..
i dunoe wats his motive lahh kann ..
but i was realie pissed off ..
acted normal ..
thers no use lettin him noe how i felt ..
not a big deal aniwaes ..
Zali ..
he's one of the passer-bys in ma life ..
dunoe whether he realie love mie or not .. haha ..
wateva it ish .. i dun care animor ..
kak maia said its ma fault ehk btw ..
wat hapen btwn mie n beAr2 - my fault ..
wat hapen btwn mie n zali - my fault ..
yelahh .. my fault .. nak ckp ape lagiik kann ..
smue aku yg salah ..
org maen tarik2 tali nan aku ponn aku pehh salah ..
org busted aku ponn aku pehh salah ..
org tglkan aku n kasik alasan bodoh ponn aku pehh salah pe kann ..
so no matter wat they did to mie , its all my fault ..

BEST ACTRESS - the title kydo gave mie ..
if im the best actress den eu must b the best actor ryt ?
tell eu wat ..
lets just end all the acting thingy here kkaes ..
its jus not ryt ..
susah lahh nak jdik actress .. byk sgt pressure ..
so i gues the game ends here ..
n btw , i dun deserve the BEST ACTRESS title ..
cus loving bear2 wasnt an act .. NEVER !!
but i noe i did okaes ..
loved zali , it wasnt an act either ..
so i dun ned to b an actress ryt ?
loved people unconditionally n dis ish wat i get ?

haha .. im not a player ..
so to those people hu wana play games , im totally out of dis kkaes ..
sick n tired wif all dis stewpid games lahh ..
haish ..
all my life i onlie trust 1 guy ..
just one ..
n he wil b the onlie one .. foreva n owaes ..

hmm .. klah .. dahh pnat type ..
gudnyt !! Loves .. (:


[[AtiM_sEtaN]]

beAr2 .. bebeh .. bby ..

hello ..
he told mie dat he love mie ..
but im just confused lahh kann ..
haish ..
im dunoe y im afraid to lose 'HiM' n HiM ..
do i stil love HiM ?..

ANSWERS FROM THE HEART :

beAr2..
i noe dat i stil ned eu ..
its sumtin i cant deny ..
ive known eu since i was a kid ..
n ive been sharing wif eu since i dun even remember wen ..
how can i ever forget eu ??
eu wil owaes b ma 'One-In-A-Million' guy ..

bebeh ..
if eu were to ask mie dat qn once again ..
the ans wud stil b the same ..
im stil the same ZaRa eu knew ..
i wil kip ZaRa in ma heart like i kip eu in ma heart ..
ZaRa remain unchanged cus of eu ..

bby ..
it touches mie wen eu told mie dat eu love mie ..
but i stil cant get over beAr2 n bebeh ..
haish .. im sory ..
i noe dat the truth hurts ..
but i just hafta let eu noe ..
hmm .. but no worries ..
nothings gona change ..

Loving Someone Is Not Easy .. And Being Loved By Someone Is Difficult ..
i noe it makes no diff ryt ?? haha ..
klah2 .. gues dats it ..
toodles ..

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

my weekends

hmmmmmmmmmmm ....
friday ..
fetched Yasin .. n handed him to Yaya ..
den waited fer p2 at Cwp ..
makan LJS .. den g lpak pat port ..
afta dat thot of goin to maia's hse ..
but wak man dah pai pat bwh blk maia's ..
so p2 tak naek ..
mie n Kydo naek jap ..
den i planned to go to Admiralty's pasar malam ..
n we did .. haha ..
we walked ehk btw ..
n i slept earlie dat day ..

saturday ..
met putri at Cwp den walked to her hse area ..
lpak jap den met kak maia n her family at Yishun ..
go makan ..
mie n Kydo shared a plate of nasi ayam penyet as we've oreadie eaten ..
den we took train to Admiralty mrt den walked from ther to ma hse ..
haha ..
mental torture ?? nolah .. blueks !!

last week was great !!
i ate so much .. haha ..
2 plates of rice one day ..
a plastic full of tidbits ..
n a dozen of donuts !! hahaks ..

all thanks to Kydo ..
cos of him lahh i ate so much ..
haha ..

yesterdae ..
woke up at 7.45am ..
went to Johor .. ma kuzzies wedding ..
the journey from the guys hse to the ghurls hse ish so damn far ..
i slept sia in the van ..
gerak dari umah makcik kush kul 7.30pm ..
pai s'pore ard 10+..
like WTF ??!!
so tired ..
hmm .. den bdak2 dtg umahh ..
bAchEnN ponn ade .. hmm ..
he didnt salam mie ..
but ther was a couple of tyms i caught him lookin at mie ..
hmm .. biar lahh die .. sukeati die lahh kann ..
malas lahh nak pk anyak2 ..

hmm .. 2 movies in a week ..
UP n Where Got Ghost ..
huhu ! bler nak g tgk agiik yg2 ??
hahaks .. dis Friday mitting Iffah ..
woohoo !~ she ask mie bout my new guy ..
haha .. hmm ..
im mitting Kydo n p2 later at ard 3+ ..
lpak jekk kott ..
hmm .. i got no money lahh sheyy ..
like cb .. haish ..
wth .. wateba it ish ..
im realie moving on ..
i dun think of him latelie ..
but i do mish him as a fwen lahh kann ..
hope he's doin gud too ..
the guy hu gave mie dis name - BabYol
**smiles**
klah .. tc yahh .. Happy Monday !! wakaka ..
Loves ... MuAckiEs !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

Where Got Ghost

FUNNY ! BEST !
hees .. yea bebeh ..
'Where Got Ghost' is soooooo worth eur money n time ..
hees .. i laf all the wae ..
sittin arrangement was like dis .. from left to ryt ..
mamat , siti , farah , wawan , pojie , an . paijal , beAr2 , kydo n mie ..
hehe .. 10 peeps altogether ..
hmm ..
kydo said dat beAr2 kept on lookin at us ..
n wen we fers came beAr2 said to kydo ' laen mcm jekk .. ' n looked at mie ..
wats his motive ehk ?..
stop it ehk ckp nan die .. hees ..
den wen he's goin off , i salam him ..
but it just felt diff ..
his hands didnt even touch my forehead ehk btw ..
haish .. dunoe wats he's thinkin lahh kann ..
but yea .. overall it was so damn FUN !!

afta dat sent kydo bck home ..
den followed ma parents to changi ..
makan tym ..
but i onlie drank milo ..
i was so slepie lahh shey ..
i fell aslep otw bck home ..
haha .. but i stayed awake just to blog bout dis ehk ..
so ya ... haha ..
now im off to bed ..
but thers anotha thing i shud tell eu guys ..
narie , 14th , genap sebulan atim takk jmp tOyoL ..
well , thers nothin much to sae bout dis ..
but yea .. sumtyms i mish him ..
but just let the feeling remains as just mish .. FULLSTOP !!
nothin mor , nothin less ..
everythings gona b okaes ..
i'll do just fine .. (:
so , i gues dats it ..
gud morning .. MuaCkiEs !!


[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

BonCett

heyys ..
im at maia's hse ..
these few daes i ate so much lahh shiots !! haha ..
dahh boncet !!!!!! sobbs ..
hmm ... tonight gona watch movie ..
wif ma brader , pojie , kydo n sum othas ..
gona watch 'Where Got Ghost' .. huhu !~
perot dahh mtk ampon lahh sheyy .. haha ..

just now p2 met Jhazman ..
he's ok lahh kann ..
onlie dat he's a Malaysian lahh kann .. hehe ..
n he's too quiet lahh sheyy ..

hmm .. den we lpak at maia's hse ..
ate rice den watch tv ..
now p2 ish slepin .. Kydo n mie r just slackin ..
dunoe wat to do .. cant slep .. haish ..
n yahh .. i hafta go home earlie today .. hehe ..
will blog again later aiites .. hees ..
Loves .. MuAckiEs !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

National Day !!!!!!

HELLO !!
fers things fers ..
KU TAKK CUKOP TDOR !!!!
haish !~
i slept at 8am n woke up at 10am ..
wahhh !! gyler ehk aku niek .. haiyoh !~
woke up , read bAchEnN's mcg ..
he wans to lpak .. but i cant .. haish ..

hmm .. den andie , ciap2 den jmp Kydo pat 111 ..
accompanie him to his hse ..
die andie n ciap2 ..
umahh die kecoh beb ..
byk bdak2 kecik .. hees ..

afta he got readie , we went to Lagun Sari ..
ade org kawen .. its cool bebeh .. haha ..
makan free .. ahaks !~

pastuh kter proceed ke Esplanade ..
pat sane pehh lahh kecoh .. haha ..
ribot .. rimas saye dibuatnye ..
we met Kydo's fwen ..
den lpak wif Kydo's sec sch fwens ..
dok2 , lek2 , mkn2 , bbual2 , ketawe2 n tgk FIREWORKS !!
hees .. lawa lahh sheyy .. waaaaaaaa !!

afta the fireworks kter g Marina Square ..
jmp bdak2 chatters .. haha ..
ribott !! kecoh !! wow !! hahaks ..

den g Cwp .. watch movie ..
wif Pojie n Nad ..
cter 'UP' ..
hmm .. tak klaka sgt lahh ..
lagiik ckit nak tertdor .. hees ..
but thnks Kydo fer the treats .. (:

den Kydo sent mie home n took a cab bck ..
im so damn tired lahh kann ..
haha .. pnat .. nantokk .. lapar ..
hahahaha !! klah2 ..
off to bed .. nytes .. (:
Lurb2 .. Muahks !!~

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

The Day I Irritate Toyol ..

heyy ..
just now went out wif Kydo n Pojie ..
planned to watch movie ..
from Wdls to Orchard ..
g mkn dulu .. den g Dhoby Ghaut ..
thot of watchin at The Cathay ..
all packed .. like CB .. haha ..
at last ktorg chow cab alekk Wdls .. hees ..
den g Timezone .. played a few games ..
den lek2 jap pat Cwp ..
dey sent mie home , den now dey r at Pojie's hse ..
MINOM !! MINOM !! hahaks ..

wats my plan fer tmrw ehk ?
hmm .. i wonder ..
let Kydo do the planning .. huhu !~


HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE !!! *step semangat*
hahaks !!~

i'll upload the pics of tmrw , if thers anie ..
lau tak den too bad lahh kann ..
hmm .. kkaes .. dabes bbual .. hees ..
toodles !! MuaHks !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

cHiPsMoRe , bAchEnN , ApiQuE , FaDhLi & tOyoL

hello ..
lets tok bout guys ..

hmm .. bout cHiPsMoRe ..
well aru2 niek i added him at MSN , Tagged n Facebook ..
slalu jgak lahh kter chat .. hees ..
senang ckit nak carik die lau die ilang .. haha ..

bAchEnN laks ..
these few daes tak jmp die ..
skg die dahh start keje .. todae ish his fers dae ..
thot of askin how was it , but die tak mcg tak ape ..
so watpe nak menyebokk kann .. hmm ..

about ApiQuE ..
we're still in cntct ..
n he's stil attached ..
but he stil can say dat he stil loves mie ..
its like WTH lahh kann .. haish ..
we've been mcgin each otha 3 days straight including today ..
n he stil remembers everythin bout mie ehk btw ..
hmm .. ish dat a gud thing or a bad thing ?? haha ..
ntahlah .. but i dun remember much bout him .. hees ..

Fadhli ..
a guy dat i just got to noe last week ..
i dun realie mcg him lahh kann ..
cam malas gtuk ..
malas nak mcg .. malas nak knal2 ..
haha .. he's kiyut .. dat i cant deny lahh .. hees ..
tpik AtiM dahh cam tawar ati gtuk nak knal2 alekk ..
haha .. dunoe y ehk .. hmm .. i wonder .. (:

BabYoLurpes ..
our relationship ish like hanging lahh kann ..
haha .. i haf nothin to say bout him ..
its just too complicated lahh ..
hmm .. does he ned tym or he's letting go ??
AtiM ponn takk tau ..
if he neds tym , i can give him tym ..
i can wait fer him if he wans mie to ..
but if he's letting go den i'll just leave him ..
*konpius*

n narie AtiM sebot name die 3 kali jekk ehk btw ..
i tried very3 hard tao .. igt senang ehk .. hmm ..
these few daes AtiM makan byk lahh sheyy ..
boncet maken menjadi jadi .. haha ..
klah3 .. buhbye .. gudnyts ..
tc .. muahks !~ (:

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

Bowling

hmm .. wat i did todae ehk ..
fers , went AMK .. fetch Yasin ..
den to AMK Central ..
had our lunch at Banquet ..
i ate Chicken Porridge lahh sheyy ..
like a sicko freako !! hahaks ..
afta dat i met Putri , Qarnain & Nad at Yishun MRT ..
BOWLING lahh sheyy ..
haha .. its been like so damn long ever since i bowl ..
well , it was abit boring tho ..
ade lahh sbab2 tertentu .. hees ..
pastuh mie n Putri lpak wif Kydo n Lalam at Yishun ..
ate McChicken n ma stomach ish like bloated lahh siol ..
hehe .. now im HUNGRY !! AGAIN !!
wakaka !!
reached home at 10 ..
n here i am , online n blogging ..
hees .. now feeling tired , hungry & slepie ..
HAISH !!!!!!
kkaes .. blog again sum otha dae ..
till den .. sayonara !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

its not mie bebeh ..

well , i never had the intention to hurt him ..
ever since i fell in love with him , i never stopped loving him ..
n i stil do .. so much ..
but i think its better if i stop showin ma love ..
n yea .. family comes fers ..
im not a self-centered kinda person ..
n dats y i chose to let him go ..
i dun deserve to b wif sumone like him ..
n i knew it all along ..
he's too gud fer a ghurl like mie ..
i deserve sumone better ??
nahh .. i noe wher i stand ..
hmm .. wateva i said at MSN just now , its just not mie ..
felt touched wen he sent 'My sis ckp menantu mak kirim salam.. Haha..' - dats mie ..
felt nervous n scared wen he said 'N yah one more ting.. Bout us..' - dats mie ..
felt sory fer fer him .. - dats mie ..
but all the sarcasm n those harsh werds, if thers anie , dats not mie ..
i did dat cus im tryin to hide ma feelings ..
i loved him too much ..
n i dun wana lose him ..
but all i did was to pretend dat im fine n everything's okaes ..
n now he's gone ..
haish !!

GoOdByE My LoVeR

heyy ..
hmm .. i've gif it a thot ..
n i've made ma decision ..
im gona let him go ..
i just hope dat he's hapie ..
those 3 werds , i wil nvr say it again ..
i wont bother him animor ..
wil just leave him fer gud ..
its not dat hard to 4get mie ryt ..
so i gues its reallie over ..
its tym fer mie to back out ..
goodbye tOyoL ..

The Most Boring Day For The Singles ..

HEYY !!
wana noe sumtin ??
im freakin bored ryt now ..
Diyan n Yaya went out ..
mit their BFs ..
so i gues todae ish the dae fer the Single ones to stay home ..
haish !~ mendakk gyler lahh sheyy ..
well , currentlie Diyan ish attached wif a mat motor ..
haha .. wats wif the mat motor ehk ??
** i wonder **
she seems hapie wif dat guy ..
so ya .. all the best .. (:
and dat guy bought fer her helmet ..
ade tAzzY .. ):
jeles i .. haha ..
kkaes .. stop it .. i dun ned a helmet aniwaes ..
hmm .. bler nak g east coast agiik ehk ?..
rindu laks nak maen rollerblade .. hmm ..
**thinking bout 'you know who' **
ermm .. still thinkin whether wana join Putri dis Wed ..
Bowling beb .. dah lamer tak maen .. hehe ..
n asl smorg nanak maen catchin niek ??
dat tym ajak Kydo , die tanak ..
ajak bAchEnN , die ponn tanak ..
boring urh dorg ehk ..
sape lahh leyy lyn aku nye mepek ??
agiik2 tym nga mendak gnik .. haha ..

hmm .. tdik ku tgk calendar ..
dah 2weeks n 5 days takk npk muke die ..
rindu kahh ?? hees ..
ntahlahh ehk .. no comment urh ..
eu shud noe oreadie pe by now ..

dat tym bAchEnN saw the movies tix dat i kept at the card holder tuhh ..
den he was like ' chey , simpan sheyy .. ' hehe ..
Kydo n Diyan said dat he likes mie ..
its like WTH .. hees ..
NO IT CANT BE TRUE !!
haha .. dramatic sia ..
but he ever said sumtin to mie ..
he love dis one ghurl ..
he lose her once , n he dowan it to hapen fer the second tym ..
but he dunoe how to tell her dat he realie love her ..
hmm .. Diyan said dat the ghurl ish mie ..
but i dun think so lahh kann ..
hmm .. or i dun even wana think bout it ??
ntahlah ehk .. sumtyms i noe wats hapenin but i tend to act as if nothin hapen ..
ish dat wat im doin ryt now ??
thinking too much bout tOyoL n not seein thers sumone infront of mie ??
ntahlah ehk .. but dis heart haf a reason dat reasons dun understand ..
so ya .. dun blame mie lahh kaes ..
but the bottomline ish , THAT GIRL IS NOT ME .. hehe ..

hmm .. thot he wont kol mie yest ..
but he did .. hmm .. i mean dis mornin ..
he kolled at ard 4+am ..
tol pehh bAchEnN .. hehs ..

I MISS MY PEEPS !!
bler agiik ehk nak kua nan dorg ..
hmm .. c how lahh kann ..
klah .. sampai disini saje ..
buhbye .. tc .. love eu .. mUaHks !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

heyy ..
nakk update apa ya .. hehe ..
hmm .. kkaes .. recentlie im contactin wif dis one guy ..
i'll just name him as 'bAchEnN' lahh kaes ..
we owaes hangout 2gether ..
wif Kydo n Diyan .. sometyms wif otha ppl lahh ..
but most of the tym its onlie the 3 of us ..
mie , bAchEnN n Kydo ..
well , the motive ish to make mie not to think bout tOyoL ..
but Kydo n bAchEnN owaes made mie think of him ..
hmm .. yea , bAchEnN noes bout tOyoL ..
i told him almost everything ..
fer example science ctr , catchin , 'usah tinggal daku kekasih' , zali zali boom boom n etc lahh kann ..
its not dat i wana 4get tOyoL ..
but i hafta 4get the feelings ..
cus he wans it to b dat wae ..
he wans mie to MOVE ON ..
but like bAchEnN said , we can onlie 4get the feelings we had but not the person we ever loved ..
but its not easy fer mie to let him go wen i stil haf the feeling dat he stil love mie ..
if we love each otha so much , y does it hafta end dis wae ??
its like as if thers nothin we can do to make it werk btwn us ..
hmm .. yea .. i dun sae much .. i onlie type wat i feel ..
n yea , now im typin ..
im letting it all out ..
I LOVE HIM ..
I MISS HIM ..
but i gues he's doin just fine w/o mie ..
unlike mie , struggling , lost n dwelling bout the past ..
haish .. why the hell m i crying ehk ?..
haish .. it just hurts mie so much ..
so damn much .. URGH !!!
im losing grip ..
like cb sia ..

wHeN iSh tHe tiMe ??..

haish ..
i need time to get over you ..
hmm .. its all fated right ..
after its all over
my phone spoilt and everythings gone ..
no more pictures of us ..
no more messages ..
no more memories left ..
the things that makes me think of you are
the peoples who ever knew about us
the places we've went to
the times we had
and the things you bought for me ..
other then that , there's nothing left here with me ..
one day , sooner or later
all the sweet memories will turn into history ..
if thats what you really want ..
i'll leave you for good ..
hmm .. not to say stupid things about girls
but once they love a guy so much its not easy for them to let go ..
and it will take a long time for the wound to heal ..
so i hope you can bear with me a little bit longer ..
i need some time to get over you ..
and im sorry for everything ..

[[BabYoLurpes]]

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i dowan eur FULL attention ..
i dun ned eu to spend ALL eur time on mie .
all ive ever wanted is SOMEONE fer mie to love n to be loved ..
a relationship dat LAST ..
i nvr ask fer anithin mor ..
but i respect eur decision to just FORGET bout everythin ..
yeah .. n thanks to eu too ..dun worry bout mie cus im gona b okaes ..
n bout dat karma thingy ..
i hope dat it wont hapen cus i dowan dat to hapen to eu ..
i wan eu to b hapie no matter wat hapens ..
n yeah .. its just the beginning ..
hmm .. thers nothin i hafta say either ..
so yahh ..
wateva it ish , i'll stil b ther if eu ned mie ..

*STILLcantSTOPthinkingABOUThim*

buhbye .. love yahh .. tc .. muahks .. (:
[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

23rd July 2oo9

tOyoL said (2:50 AM):
zara... i kept thinkin n think bout wat i ave said 2 u...

tOyoL said (2:50 AM):
i noe it hurts..

tOyoL said (2:51 AM):
and theres no point if i say sori 2 u.. cos it still will hurt...

tOyoL said (2:52 AM):
its just tat i dun want 2 keep u waitin n think bout me..

tOyoL said (2:53 AM):
theres alot tat u can do besides tat...

tOyoL said (2:54 AM):
i know where i stand.. im not ready 2 reli take care of u.. i tried... but i just cant... theres simply many other things tat is more important 2 me rite now..

tOyoL said (2:54 AM):
and i reli hope u can understand..

tOyoL said (2:55 AM):
i noe ur the gerl tat doesnt say much.. u only type wat u feel... tats just the way u r..

tOyoL said (2:57 AM):
there no point being together if i cant give my full attention n care 4 u.. although i tried.. but its just for some moments.. and i dun wanna hold u back any longer...

tOyoL said (2:58 AM):
u have a life 2 live..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
just 2 let u noe n stop u from wonderin more..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
wat eva i have said 2 u.. i reli mean it..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
the love n miss u..

tOyoL said (3:00 AM):
its from my heart...

tOyoL said (3:00 AM):
to hurt u now its beta den to hurt u later on..

tOyoL said (3:01 AM):
and i noe... its not fun 2 hurt someone... esp those who is sincere n honest in relationship..

tOyoL said (3:02 AM):
it will definately get back 2 me... the karma will com...

tOyoL said (3:02 AM):
one day.. ill get it 2.. being hurt.. n feel wat u feel rite now..

tOyoL said (3:03 AM):
i wanted 2 call u.. even meet u just 2 explain dis 2 u.. but i simply cant say it..

tOyoL said (3:04 AM):
i dun noe y.. maybe i always hav the tot tat u will just keep quiet n just listen..

tOyoL said (3:04 AM):
sumtimes i dunnoe how 2 interact wit ya..

tOyoL said (3:05 AM):
ur the action type.. less words.. if u understand wat i mean..

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
hmm...

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
guess tats all i have 2 say..

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
the rest its up 2 u..

tOyoL said (3:08 AM):
i reli have no much say in this anymore.. i just hope tat wateva it is... atim or zara... just b urself.. n b happy k.. life is short..

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
and thk u 4 ur neva endin love n care 4 me..

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
thk u 4 ur time n patience...

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
thk u 4 hugs n kisses..

tOyoL said (3:10 AM):
thk u 4 everythin..

tOyoL said (3:10 AM):
oh yah.. ur 'dale'.. u want it back? hmm.. kalau nak ckp k..

tOyoL said (3:11 AM):
learn 2 speak up n express urself 2 ppl more..

tOyoL said (3:11 AM):
it helps them understand u more..

tOyoL said (3:13 AM):
BTW atim/zara... its not the end.... its just the begining.. hear from u soon..