heyy ..
nakk update apa ya .. hehe ..
hmm .. kkaes .. recentlie im contactin wif dis one guy ..
i'll just name him as 'bAchEnN' lahh kaes ..
we owaes hangout 2gether ..
wif Kydo n Diyan .. sometyms wif otha ppl lahh ..
but most of the tym its onlie the 3 of us ..
mie , bAchEnN n Kydo ..
well , the motive ish to make mie not to think bout tOyoL ..
but Kydo n bAchEnN owaes made mie think of him ..
hmm .. yea , bAchEnN noes bout tOyoL ..
i told him almost everything ..
fer example science ctr , catchin , 'usah tinggal daku kekasih' , zali zali boom boom n etc lahh kann ..
its not dat i wana 4get tOyoL ..
but i hafta 4get the feelings ..
cus he wans it to b dat wae ..
he wans mie to MOVE ON ..
but like bAchEnN said , we can onlie 4get the feelings we had but not the person we ever loved ..
but its not easy fer mie to let him go wen i stil haf the feeling dat he stil love mie ..
if we love each otha so much , y does it hafta end dis wae ??
its like as if thers nothin we can do to make it werk btwn us ..
hmm .. yea .. i dun sae much .. i onlie type wat i feel ..
n yea , now im typin ..
im letting it all out ..
I LOVE HIM ..
I MISS HIM ..
but i gues he's doin just fine w/o mie ..
unlike mie , struggling , lost n dwelling bout the past ..
haish .. why the hell m i crying ehk ?..
haish .. it just hurts mie so much ..
so damn much .. URGH !!!
im losing grip ..
like cb sia ..

wHeN iSh tHe tiMe ??..

haish ..
i need time to get over you ..
hmm .. its all fated right ..
after its all over
my phone spoilt and everythings gone ..
no more pictures of us ..
no more messages ..
no more memories left ..
the things that makes me think of you are
the peoples who ever knew about us
the places we've went to
the times we had
and the things you bought for me ..
other then that , there's nothing left here with me ..
one day , sooner or later
all the sweet memories will turn into history ..
if thats what you really want ..
i'll leave you for good ..
hmm .. not to say stupid things about girls
but once they love a guy so much its not easy for them to let go ..
and it will take a long time for the wound to heal ..
so i hope you can bear with me a little bit longer ..
i need some time to get over you ..
and im sorry for everything ..

[[BabYoLurpes]]

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i dowan eur FULL attention ..
i dun ned eu to spend ALL eur time on mie .
all ive ever wanted is SOMEONE fer mie to love n to be loved ..
a relationship dat LAST ..
i nvr ask fer anithin mor ..
but i respect eur decision to just FORGET bout everythin ..
yeah .. n thanks to eu too ..dun worry bout mie cus im gona b okaes ..
n bout dat karma thingy ..
i hope dat it wont hapen cus i dowan dat to hapen to eu ..
i wan eu to b hapie no matter wat hapens ..
n yeah .. its just the beginning ..
hmm .. thers nothin i hafta say either ..
so yahh ..
wateva it ish , i'll stil b ther if eu ned mie ..

*STILLcantSTOPthinkingABOUThim*

buhbye .. love yahh .. tc .. muahks .. (:
[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

23rd July 2oo9

tOyoL said (2:50 AM):
zara... i kept thinkin n think bout wat i ave said 2 u...

tOyoL said (2:50 AM):
i noe it hurts..

tOyoL said (2:51 AM):
and theres no point if i say sori 2 u.. cos it still will hurt...

tOyoL said (2:52 AM):
its just tat i dun want 2 keep u waitin n think bout me..

tOyoL said (2:53 AM):
theres alot tat u can do besides tat...

tOyoL said (2:54 AM):
i know where i stand.. im not ready 2 reli take care of u.. i tried... but i just cant... theres simply many other things tat is more important 2 me rite now..

tOyoL said (2:54 AM):
and i reli hope u can understand..

tOyoL said (2:55 AM):
i noe ur the gerl tat doesnt say much.. u only type wat u feel... tats just the way u r..

tOyoL said (2:57 AM):
there no point being together if i cant give my full attention n care 4 u.. although i tried.. but its just for some moments.. and i dun wanna hold u back any longer...

tOyoL said (2:58 AM):
u have a life 2 live..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
just 2 let u noe n stop u from wonderin more..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
wat eva i have said 2 u.. i reli mean it..

tOyoL said (2:59 AM):
the love n miss u..

tOyoL said (3:00 AM):
its from my heart...

tOyoL said (3:00 AM):
to hurt u now its beta den to hurt u later on..

tOyoL said (3:01 AM):
and i noe... its not fun 2 hurt someone... esp those who is sincere n honest in relationship..

tOyoL said (3:02 AM):
it will definately get back 2 me... the karma will com...

tOyoL said (3:02 AM):
one day.. ill get it 2.. being hurt.. n feel wat u feel rite now..

tOyoL said (3:03 AM):
i wanted 2 call u.. even meet u just 2 explain dis 2 u.. but i simply cant say it..

tOyoL said (3:04 AM):
i dun noe y.. maybe i always hav the tot tat u will just keep quiet n just listen..

tOyoL said (3:04 AM):
sumtimes i dunnoe how 2 interact wit ya..

tOyoL said (3:05 AM):
ur the action type.. less words.. if u understand wat i mean..

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
hmm...

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
guess tats all i have 2 say..

tOyoL said (3:06 AM):
the rest its up 2 u..

tOyoL said (3:08 AM):
i reli have no much say in this anymore.. i just hope tat wateva it is... atim or zara... just b urself.. n b happy k.. life is short..

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
and thk u 4 ur neva endin love n care 4 me..

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
thk u 4 ur time n patience...

tOyoL said (3:09 AM):
thk u 4 hugs n kisses..

tOyoL said (3:10 AM):
thk u 4 everythin..

tOyoL said (3:10 AM):
oh yah.. ur 'dale'.. u want it back? hmm.. kalau nak ckp k..

tOyoL said (3:11 AM):
learn 2 speak up n express urself 2 ppl more..

tOyoL said (3:11 AM):
it helps them understand u more..

tOyoL said (3:13 AM):
BTW atim/zara... its not the end.... its just the begining.. hear from u soon..

if only .. haish !~

if only that day i didnt chat with him ..
things wont turn out this way ..
if only that day i didnt meet him ..
i wont start to fall for him ..
if only i know that its not going to work between us ..
i wouldnt love him like i do now ..
if only i know that he is just a passerby in my life ..
i wouldnt give him all the love and care ..
if only he feels the same way like i do ..
i wouldnt be sitting here n cry like a baby ..

i dunoe when it started ..
but i feel so gud wen i was wif him ..
i can easily forget the guy dat i liked fer almost 5yrs ..
all i can do ish to think bout him ..
wen he didnt contact mie i felt so lost ..
i realie love him ..

he said lets just be friends ..
i kept quiet ..
cus we ARE friends ..
just friends ..
from the very start ..
its onlie the feelings dat made mie think dat we're mor den just friends ..
n it hurts mie so bad ..
but wateva it ish ..
i just hope he's hapie wif his life ..
gudbye tOyoL ..

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

20th July 2009

20th July 2009
a date to remember ??
haha .. hell yeah ..
i wont forget dat date ..
sumthin hapen on dat day ..
haha .. wateva it is ..
MA BCK HURTS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *exaggerating*
hahaks ..
wen i was otw bck , in the train , i cried lahh shiots ..
i was listening to 'Selingkar Kasih - Rem ' ..
while readin his mcgs , tears ran down ma cheeks ..
i mish him alot lahh sheyy .. haish !~
but i tried to control ..
the harder i tried not to think of him , the mor i think of him ..
haish .. i think of him everydae ..
n fer the fers tym , i counted the daes ..
wen i was in love wif 'him' , i never did dat ..
yes i did n stil remember sum dates but i didnt count the daes ..
but wen it cums to him , its a big deal wen i didnt mit him fer mor den 3daes ..
i wana tell him dat i realie love him ..
i wana tell him dat i mish him so damn much ..
i wan him to noe how much he means to mie ..
but i dunoe wats stoppin mie from doin so ..
now we're not like US ..
haish !~

I MISS MY BABY SO BLOODIE DAMN MUCH !!

after exactlie 1 week we didnt mit ..

Heyys ..

yesterday i received a kol from tOyoL ..

well , i just woke up wen he kol ..

he said he's at ma voiddeck ..

n yahh , of cos im SURPRISED ..

takde angin takde ribot aley2 die kol ..

den wen i met him , he acted like as if nothin hapen ..

so , like him , i acted like nothin hapened lorr ..

but it hurts mie wen it seems like he dun care ..

hmm .. den we went to cwp ..

watch movie .. Transformers ..

b4 the show starts , we sat at Titanic ..

tOyoL: eu syg i ?

ZaRa: wat do eu think ?

tOyoL: i dunoe .. dats y i ask ..

ZaRa: ouh ..

tOyoL: nak jwb ke takk nie ?

ZaRa: ouh nak kenek jwb ehk .. hmm .. if yes ??

tOyoL: asl ? i takde pape tau ..

ZaRa: i syg eu sbab eu eu pe ..

hmm .. ntahlah ehk ..

sum tyms i just feel like sayin dis to him ..

' do eu reallie love mie ? cus if not den just leave mie .. '

but i dunoe y isit so hard fer mie to say dat ..

isit cus i love him so much n dun wan him to leave ?

but everybodie will leave eu in the end ryt ?

haish !~

sumtyms he can b unpredictable ..

hmm .. klahh .. i gtg ..

will post again soon !!

adios !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

what the hell is wrong with this month .. haish !~

bebeh ..
like eu said ..
dis month ish a bad month fer eu ..
well .. i agree wif eu .. hees ..
i mean , not onlie fer eu ..
but fer mie n everyone ard mie too ..
hmm .. so far in dis yr , dis ish the most problematic month ..
almost everyone ish having family n relationship problems ..
n like almost everyone out ther , im stressed too ..
but sumtyms eu just dun hafta show it .. ryt ??..
hmm .. i love eu bebeh ..
dats y im not leaving eu ..
im tryin to understand the problems eur facing ..
so dat i cud stay strong n wait fer eu ..
eu said dat all eur past relationship dun last due to sum circumstances ..
but i will try ma best to last long wif eu ..
but eu gotta stay strong too aiites bebeh ..
we'll make it thru ..

hmm ..
i feel dat we're driftin apart ..
tell mie if im rong ..
n tell mie dat its gona b okaes ..
love eu .. (:



MiSsY CoMpLiCaTeD

slepie n suay !!

hello !!

lets share stories ..

come , come !!

hehe ..

well .. life was okaes recentlie ..

as usual lahh kann ..

not getting enuf slep ehk btw ..

hmm .. i slept fer onlie 2hrs dis morning ..

hehe .. n yahh .. wana noe sumtin ??!!

in the aftanun , i went to AMK wif Diyan ..

to fetch Yasin ..

den wen we were at the platform , otw bck home ..

the mrt came ..

n i was like , stood up n boarded the train lahh kann ..

den i realised sumtin missin ..

ma HENFON !!!!!

i was like WTF ??!!

ma heart fell to the ground lahh sheyy ..

n i was abit panic .. hees ..

i wonder , how can i forget such things ..

i never forget ma henfon b4 sheyy ..

den luckielie dis Chinese lady was so kind to gif it bck to mie ..

if not den tak tau ape jdik .. hehe ..

woohoo !!~

kkaes .. dats all i wana tell ..

haha .. blueks !~

tata !! muahks !~

ZaRa_biOlz

FOR MY DEAREST HATER ..

dis ish fer eu

SITI SUFIAH BTE MOHD OTHMAN..



kalau kau benci aku , den its gud fer eu lahh kann ..
like i said , hate mie all eu want ..
ku ponn takley pakse org suke aku kann ..
n aku gtuk sal aku sndr yg nakk ..
so thers no BAD INFLUENCE !!
n one mor thing ..
kau bkannye tau ku peh idop camane ..
n wat i did ther ..
so wats wif the bad influence ?..
DONT JUDGE ME lahh ehk ..
lau tak tau wat hal tak tau lahh kaes ..
jgn nak maen tudoh2 ..
n since kau dah BENCI aku kann ..
den just 4get bout EVERYTHING lahh ehk ..
tho i dun HATE eu ..
but i just hope dat eur hapie lahh ehk ..
i think eu'll b better off w/o mie ryt ..
cus ther wont b anie BAD INFLUENCE ..
so .. goodbye .....