a girl with a broken heart

47 days had passed ..
14th July was the last tym i met him ..
n i didnt expect it to b the last lahh ..
cus dat day , we're like NORMAL ..
thers no signs dat it wil b like dis ..
he asked mie 'eu .. kter aper ?..'
ma ans is the same ..
well , eventho we're not together , the feeling ish stil ther ..
i love him so much .. haiish ..
i may look okaes on the outside ..
but deep inside , everything is broken ..
tried to act as if nothin hapen ..
but how much longer can i pretend ?
i stil remember everything bout him ..
ma love fer him never fades ..
but does he feels the same way bout mie ?
hmm .. ntahlah ehk .. haiish ..
i just dun believe dat i can b like dis ..
brokened n hurt ..
weneva i realie think bout him jekk i feel like cryin ..
even just now ..
tym makan pat al-ameen , airmate bertakong lahh shiots ..
tried to control ma emotions ..
talked wif ma mum n try to cheer maself up ..
haiish !!!

[[MiSsY_biOlz]]

kenangan lalu

nie tym dulu2 ..
kter lek2 pat Gelare ..
we competed in finishin the drinks ..
n the last one to finish wil b forfeited ..
n so .. yahh .. im the LAST one .. haha ..
funny lahh ..
hafta walk in Cwp bare-footed ..
hahaks .. muke slumber jekk .. wakaka ..

yg nie laks ..
it was on last 2 yrs countdown if im not rong ..
we were so damn bored ..
haha .. muke mepek kann ..
we had so much fun lahh dat tym ..
haha .. 4 org dahh mcm 15 org .. huhu !~

6th day of puasa

wad the hell ish rong wif mie shiots ?..
i didnt fast since the 2nd day lahh shey ..
haish ..
y ehk ?.. i noe im not like dis lahh kann ..
hmm .. maken biolz ?..
yea mayb .. hees ..

thinkin of nothin ............
haha ..

ouh yahh ..
beAr2 owaes tok bout him ..
like wad the hell ..
cam nak cekik2 die .. ahaks !..
bahase kan org jekk keje die ..
tanak kalah laks tuhh ..
well .. sape takk knal die kann ..
slalu tanak kalah ..

hmm .. dis Mondae nak g WGS ke takk ehk ?
cam malas ponn ade .. haha ..
suspect kuat 'dorg' ade ..
haish ..

I MISS YOU SO MUCHIE !!

this song is for YOU

~ YoU ~

You were there to light my day .
You were there to guide me thru .
And my days down and up ,
I'll never stop thinking of you .
How can i forget all that .
You're the one who make me smile .
You'll always be a part of me.
How i wish you were still mine .

Never will forget the day .
How we've met and came this far .
Eventhough we got this feeling ,
but somehow it has to end up here .
I know its me who said goodbye .
That's the hardest thing to do .
'cause eu mean so much to me
And that's the truth from me to you .

For all the things we've done and say
For all the hurt that i've caused you .
I hope you will forgive me baby ,
cause that wasnt what i mean to do .

You were there to light my day .
You were there to guide me thru .
And my days down and up ,
I'll never stop thinking of you .
How can i forget all that .
You're the one who make me smile .
You'll always be a part of me.
How i wish you were still mine .

For all the things we've done and say
For all the hurt that i've caused you .
I hope you will forgive me baby ,
cause that wasnt what i mean to do .

4th day of puasa

can i say today shucks to the core ??
haish !~

woke up , met fyfie den went to maia's hse ..
as usual .. we just do our own stufs ..
hang out .. talked about so manie things ..
i was listening to songs wen fyfie sudenlie stood up n rushed out ..
den i heard people shouting .. arguing .. haish ..

y did they haf to treat her like dat ?
y r they so selfish ?
y cant they just understand ?
haiyoh .. i dunoe wad else to say lahh ..
i cant do anitin ..
all i can do ish just to b ther fer her ..
tok to her .. accompanie her ..

hmm .. their way in handling probs n our way ish diff ..
our families owaes sit down n tok ..
express wadeva eu feel n tell wad seems to b the prob ..
but the way they solve things are diff ..
not to say anitin bad bout them in dis fastin month lahh kann ..
but pls lahh ehk ..
THINK bout others like others think bout eu ..
yes , people do make mistakes .. but dis ish too much ..
like wad others said to you , just endure kkaes sis ..
i noe its too much oreadie , but just a bit more ..
im shure dat all dis hapens fer a reason ..
b strong aiites ..
we will owaes be by eur side ..


[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

3rd day of puasa ..

heyya ..
wana noe a secret ??
im not fastin todae ..
hees .. shhhhhh ..
dun tell people lahh kkaes ..
hmm .. just dun feel like it ..
or mayb i shud sae thers dis one devil ask mie not to ..
earlie in the mornin laks tuhh ..
ish ish ish ..
wakakakakaka !!
hope dis devil wil tag at ma tagboard 2moro mornin wen she read dis .. haha ..

well .. beAr2 didnt online yest ..
i wonder y .. hmm ..
ku takk cukop tdor ehk btw !! haish ..

i feel like cryin lahh now ..
dunoe y .. but i just feel like it ..
everything just shucks shiots ..
m i greedy or wad ??
love tOyoL but stil cant bear to lose beAr2 ..
hAish !~
its like wad the fcuk ..
feel like lettin go of everythin ..
but dis feelin ish just wayy too strong ..
urgh !!!
they wont understand how i feel ryt ??
ryt ryt ryt ??
like sumone said ..
i noe hu i wana b wif ..
but wif dis kinda situation i wonder if thers anie chance fer mie to b wif him ..
a part of mie wans mie to move on ..
but the other half wans mie to wait fer him ..
he said he dowan mie to get involve wif dis matter ..
i understand .. very well ..
but i dunoe y dis heart just cant seem to understand ..
haish ..

y do i hafta face all dis shit ?
y do i hafta b the one hu gets hurt ?
y i never get to be wif the one 1 love ?
y mie ?
y ?? y ?? y ??
hate it ! hate it ! hate it !
haish !~

im being childish eay ??
hees .. immature lahh katekann ..
18 ponn lom .. so its okaes fer mie to think dat way kann ??
haha .. kkaes .. wadeva ..
craps .. i noe ..
(:

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

suppose its gona b a bad dae .. haish !

WHAT THE HELL ??
he stil kips his ex mcgs ?..
now den i realize ?..
haish ..
kkaes .. think positive ..
mayb he's just lazie to delete all the mcgs ..
urgh ! wadeva ..
shit !! its gona b a bad day i gues ..
haish ! haish ! haish !

ouh yahh ..
btw , i miss eu too .. haha ..
muahks !
cant stop loving eu lahh kann ..
ILYSM !!!!

2nd day of puase ..

todae ish the lamest dae ever ..
haish ..
tell mie wads e use of fastin if eu slept al dae long ??
like wad the fuck kann .. haiyoh ..
just now break fast wif ma bro n yaya onie ..
ma parents went to ma grandparents hse..
hmm .. den afta dat went to my port ..
lek2 , chill2 , tok2 wif yaya n smoke ..
n gues wad ??!!
ma brader actualie saw mie smokin lahh sheyy ..
i was like OMIGOD !!
hmm .. but his reaction wasnt like wad i expected ..
feel guilty lahh kann .. hees ..
oh2 !! kuruku !~

FIRST DAY OF PUASE

hello ..
yest afta sahur i watched army daze n slep at 8am ..
haish .. army daze ..
reminds mie of sumone ..
ermm .. woke up at 12 ..
read mcg den kol HiM immediatelie ..
tok wif HiM .. den andie den went out ..
break fast outside ..
den go home ..
gues wat ??
thers no one at home wen i came bck ehk btw ..
dunoe wher ma parents gone to ..
everybodie's missing ..
hmm .. gerek pe fers dae puase nie mcm ..
well , wat to do .. hmm ..
to sumone .. i haf 2 werds fer eu ..
GROW UP lahh ..
dun b soo childish lahh kaes ..
im just a step away from hating eu ..
dun make mie hate eu lahh kkaes ..
just stop wadeva eur doin ..
they dun wan mie , its up to dem ..
they haf their own reason(s) fer not accepting mie ..
as fer the EGO guy eu mentioned in eur journal ..
i noe he's not as EGO as eu think he ish ..
i understand his situation very well ..
he even pitied eu wen he read eur journal ..
ish dat eur motive of writing those journals ??
to make dem feel dat wae ??
haish .. post it on tagged fer everyone to read ?
tak perlu lahh ehkk ..
haish .. im realie irritated shiots ..
haishh .. kau pehh pasal lahh ..
let mie repeat dis again ..
JUST DON'T MAKE ME HATE YOU KKAES ..

toodles .. (:

THIS IS FOR THOSE WHO WANTS TO SEE ME WEARING A DRESS !!

hahaks .. got nothin better to do lahh dat tym ..

so tried out the dresses lorr ..

wakaka !~

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

SMILE !!

woots !~
mie chatted wif beAr2 till 4am ..
webcam .. hahaks ..
he kip on askin mie to smile .. haha ..
gyler lahh die ..
hmm .. ouh yahh ..
he told mie dat he read kydo's journal at tagged ..
he said ' i believe the journal ish fer eu .'
n he pitied kydo ..
gud lahh kann ..
at least thers sumone hu pity him ..
mie ?.. i just cant b bothered lahh ..
sory to say dat ..
i was not in a gud mood yest ..
but i felt better wen i chat wif bear2 ..
much2 better !! (:
he kol mie nyonya lahh , amoi lahh ..
haha .. biskott tol ..
btw kann ..
i havent had 1 since yest nyt ..
hees .. kecoh pe .. sengaje tak belik ..
n yahh .
i think i noe y im confused ..
im confused cus i dunoe whether tOyoL realie love mie or not ..
im confused cus i dunoe whether i shud wait fer tOyoL or not ..
hmm .. im addicted to my sweetest addiction ..
love him loads .. muahks !~

AtiM_sEtaN

about AtiM ..
people said dat she doesnt haf a heart ..
haf no feelings ..
cus she dun gif a damn to those hu like her or haf feelings fer her ..
she dun mind being single for years just to wait fer sumone she realie love ..
its not easy fer her to fall in love ..
but if she started to realie love the guy , its hard fer her to let go ..(pity the guy .. haha .. )
if she dun like means she DONT ..
she's stubborn n hardlie listens to wat people say ..
she dont care wat people think bout her ..
she love being herself - the biOlz ghurl ..
she's complicated .. but easy to get along ..
she's very close to FyFiE ..
kept no secrets from her ..
if eu wana noe mor bout mie eu can ask her lahh kann ..
hahaks .. miss serba tahu .. (:
toodles !~

It Ends Tonight ..

well .. todae ehk ..
was a normal dae ..
fetched Yasin ..
i was late ehk btw ..
haish ..
sent him bck den i went to kak maia's hse ..
lek2 pat sane ..
SLEEP !! haha ..
ate alot .. seriouslie ..
cam nak meletop sia perot ..
haha .. ouh yahh .. bought donut at Marsiling ..
hees .. sodap shiots !!
tak caye g belik urh ..


yest tok wif beAr2 ..
bbual cam biase ..
klaka seram ade , kiyut ponn ade ..
hmm .. i enjoyed tokin to him ..
dari dulu pai skg , atim senang nak communicate nan die ..
walaupon kdg2 'network' cam siak .. (cHiPsMoRe kann .. jap ade , jap takde .. )
walaupon die panggil atim nyonya ..
i stil feel comfortable tokin to him ..
he can b a brader , a fwen , a father n a biscuit ..
hahaks !~
yea .. lu gerek urh brader !! (:

tdik pat umah kak maia i disturb kydo ..
sal Diyan ..
den i think he canot take it n kol zali ..
i dunoe wats his motive lahh kann ..
but i was realie pissed off ..
acted normal ..
thers no use lettin him noe how i felt ..
not a big deal aniwaes ..
Zali ..
he's one of the passer-bys in ma life ..
dunoe whether he realie love mie or not .. haha ..
wateva it ish .. i dun care animor ..
kak maia said its ma fault ehk btw ..
wat hapen btwn mie n beAr2 - my fault ..
wat hapen btwn mie n zali - my fault ..
yelahh .. my fault .. nak ckp ape lagiik kann ..
smue aku yg salah ..
org maen tarik2 tali nan aku ponn aku pehh salah ..
org busted aku ponn aku pehh salah ..
org tglkan aku n kasik alasan bodoh ponn aku pehh salah pe kann ..
so no matter wat they did to mie , its all my fault ..

BEST ACTRESS - the title kydo gave mie ..
if im the best actress den eu must b the best actor ryt ?
tell eu wat ..
lets just end all the acting thingy here kkaes ..
its jus not ryt ..
susah lahh nak jdik actress .. byk sgt pressure ..
so i gues the game ends here ..
n btw , i dun deserve the BEST ACTRESS title ..
cus loving bear2 wasnt an act .. NEVER !!
but i noe i did okaes ..
loved zali , it wasnt an act either ..
so i dun ned to b an actress ryt ?
loved people unconditionally n dis ish wat i get ?

haha .. im not a player ..
so to those people hu wana play games , im totally out of dis kkaes ..
sick n tired wif all dis stewpid games lahh ..
haish ..
all my life i onlie trust 1 guy ..
just one ..
n he wil b the onlie one .. foreva n owaes ..

hmm .. klah .. dahh pnat type ..
gudnyt !! Loves .. (:


[[AtiM_sEtaN]]

beAr2 .. bebeh .. bby ..

hello ..
he told mie dat he love mie ..
but im just confused lahh kann ..
haish ..
im dunoe y im afraid to lose 'HiM' n HiM ..
do i stil love HiM ?..

ANSWERS FROM THE HEART :

beAr2..
i noe dat i stil ned eu ..
its sumtin i cant deny ..
ive known eu since i was a kid ..
n ive been sharing wif eu since i dun even remember wen ..
how can i ever forget eu ??
eu wil owaes b ma 'One-In-A-Million' guy ..

bebeh ..
if eu were to ask mie dat qn once again ..
the ans wud stil b the same ..
im stil the same ZaRa eu knew ..
i wil kip ZaRa in ma heart like i kip eu in ma heart ..
ZaRa remain unchanged cus of eu ..

bby ..
it touches mie wen eu told mie dat eu love mie ..
but i stil cant get over beAr2 n bebeh ..
haish .. im sory ..
i noe dat the truth hurts ..
but i just hafta let eu noe ..
hmm .. but no worries ..
nothings gona change ..

Loving Someone Is Not Easy .. And Being Loved By Someone Is Difficult ..
i noe it makes no diff ryt ?? haha ..
klah2 .. gues dats it ..
toodles ..

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

my weekends

hmmmmmmmmmmm ....
friday ..
fetched Yasin .. n handed him to Yaya ..
den waited fer p2 at Cwp ..
makan LJS .. den g lpak pat port ..
afta dat thot of goin to maia's hse ..
but wak man dah pai pat bwh blk maia's ..
so p2 tak naek ..
mie n Kydo naek jap ..
den i planned to go to Admiralty's pasar malam ..
n we did .. haha ..
we walked ehk btw ..
n i slept earlie dat day ..

saturday ..
met putri at Cwp den walked to her hse area ..
lpak jap den met kak maia n her family at Yishun ..
go makan ..
mie n Kydo shared a plate of nasi ayam penyet as we've oreadie eaten ..
den we took train to Admiralty mrt den walked from ther to ma hse ..
haha ..
mental torture ?? nolah .. blueks !!

last week was great !!
i ate so much .. haha ..
2 plates of rice one day ..
a plastic full of tidbits ..
n a dozen of donuts !! hahaks ..

all thanks to Kydo ..
cos of him lahh i ate so much ..
haha ..

yesterdae ..
woke up at 7.45am ..
went to Johor .. ma kuzzies wedding ..
the journey from the guys hse to the ghurls hse ish so damn far ..
i slept sia in the van ..
gerak dari umah makcik kush kul 7.30pm ..
pai s'pore ard 10+..
like WTF ??!!
so tired ..
hmm .. den bdak2 dtg umahh ..
bAchEnN ponn ade .. hmm ..
he didnt salam mie ..
but ther was a couple of tyms i caught him lookin at mie ..
hmm .. biar lahh die .. sukeati die lahh kann ..
malas lahh nak pk anyak2 ..

hmm .. 2 movies in a week ..
UP n Where Got Ghost ..
huhu ! bler nak g tgk agiik yg2 ??
hahaks .. dis Friday mitting Iffah ..
woohoo !~ she ask mie bout my new guy ..
haha .. hmm ..
im mitting Kydo n p2 later at ard 3+ ..
lpak jekk kott ..
hmm .. i got no money lahh sheyy ..
like cb .. haish ..
wth .. wateba it ish ..
im realie moving on ..
i dun think of him latelie ..
but i do mish him as a fwen lahh kann ..
hope he's doin gud too ..
the guy hu gave mie dis name - BabYol
**smiles**
klah .. tc yahh .. Happy Monday !! wakaka ..
Loves ... MuAckiEs !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

Where Got Ghost

FUNNY ! BEST !
hees .. yea bebeh ..
'Where Got Ghost' is soooooo worth eur money n time ..
hees .. i laf all the wae ..
sittin arrangement was like dis .. from left to ryt ..
mamat , siti , farah , wawan , pojie , an . paijal , beAr2 , kydo n mie ..
hehe .. 10 peeps altogether ..
hmm ..
kydo said dat beAr2 kept on lookin at us ..
n wen we fers came beAr2 said to kydo ' laen mcm jekk .. ' n looked at mie ..
wats his motive ehk ?..
stop it ehk ckp nan die .. hees ..
den wen he's goin off , i salam him ..
but it just felt diff ..
his hands didnt even touch my forehead ehk btw ..
haish .. dunoe wats he's thinkin lahh kann ..
but yea .. overall it was so damn FUN !!

afta dat sent kydo bck home ..
den followed ma parents to changi ..
makan tym ..
but i onlie drank milo ..
i was so slepie lahh shey ..
i fell aslep otw bck home ..
haha .. but i stayed awake just to blog bout dis ehk ..
so ya ... haha ..
now im off to bed ..
but thers anotha thing i shud tell eu guys ..
narie , 14th , genap sebulan atim takk jmp tOyoL ..
well , thers nothin much to sae bout dis ..
but yea .. sumtyms i mish him ..
but just let the feeling remains as just mish .. FULLSTOP !!
nothin mor , nothin less ..
everythings gona b okaes ..
i'll do just fine .. (:
so , i gues dats it ..
gud morning .. MuaCkiEs !!


[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

BonCett

heyys ..
im at maia's hse ..
these few daes i ate so much lahh shiots !! haha ..
dahh boncet !!!!!! sobbs ..
hmm ... tonight gona watch movie ..
wif ma brader , pojie , kydo n sum othas ..
gona watch 'Where Got Ghost' .. huhu !~
perot dahh mtk ampon lahh sheyy .. haha ..

just now p2 met Jhazman ..
he's ok lahh kann ..
onlie dat he's a Malaysian lahh kann .. hehe ..
n he's too quiet lahh sheyy ..

hmm .. den we lpak at maia's hse ..
ate rice den watch tv ..
now p2 ish slepin .. Kydo n mie r just slackin ..
dunoe wat to do .. cant slep .. haish ..
n yahh .. i hafta go home earlie today .. hehe ..
will blog again later aiites .. hees ..
Loves .. MuAckiEs !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

National Day !!!!!!

HELLO !!
fers things fers ..
KU TAKK CUKOP TDOR !!!!
haish !~
i slept at 8am n woke up at 10am ..
wahhh !! gyler ehk aku niek .. haiyoh !~
woke up , read bAchEnN's mcg ..
he wans to lpak .. but i cant .. haish ..

hmm .. den andie , ciap2 den jmp Kydo pat 111 ..
accompanie him to his hse ..
die andie n ciap2 ..
umahh die kecoh beb ..
byk bdak2 kecik .. hees ..

afta he got readie , we went to Lagun Sari ..
ade org kawen .. its cool bebeh .. haha ..
makan free .. ahaks !~

pastuh kter proceed ke Esplanade ..
pat sane pehh lahh kecoh .. haha ..
ribot .. rimas saye dibuatnye ..
we met Kydo's fwen ..
den lpak wif Kydo's sec sch fwens ..
dok2 , lek2 , mkn2 , bbual2 , ketawe2 n tgk FIREWORKS !!
hees .. lawa lahh sheyy .. waaaaaaaa !!

afta the fireworks kter g Marina Square ..
jmp bdak2 chatters .. haha ..
ribott !! kecoh !! wow !! hahaks ..

den g Cwp .. watch movie ..
wif Pojie n Nad ..
cter 'UP' ..
hmm .. tak klaka sgt lahh ..
lagiik ckit nak tertdor .. hees ..
but thnks Kydo fer the treats .. (:

den Kydo sent mie home n took a cab bck ..
im so damn tired lahh kann ..
haha .. pnat .. nantokk .. lapar ..
hahahaha !! klah2 ..
off to bed .. nytes .. (:
Lurb2 .. Muahks !!~

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

The Day I Irritate Toyol ..

heyy ..
just now went out wif Kydo n Pojie ..
planned to watch movie ..
from Wdls to Orchard ..
g mkn dulu .. den g Dhoby Ghaut ..
thot of watchin at The Cathay ..
all packed .. like CB .. haha ..
at last ktorg chow cab alekk Wdls .. hees ..
den g Timezone .. played a few games ..
den lek2 jap pat Cwp ..
dey sent mie home , den now dey r at Pojie's hse ..
MINOM !! MINOM !! hahaks ..

wats my plan fer tmrw ehk ?
hmm .. i wonder ..
let Kydo do the planning .. huhu !~


HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE !!! *step semangat*
hahaks !!~

i'll upload the pics of tmrw , if thers anie ..
lau tak den too bad lahh kann ..
hmm .. kkaes .. dabes bbual .. hees ..
toodles !! MuaHks !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

cHiPsMoRe , bAchEnN , ApiQuE , FaDhLi & tOyoL

hello ..
lets tok bout guys ..

hmm .. bout cHiPsMoRe ..
well aru2 niek i added him at MSN , Tagged n Facebook ..
slalu jgak lahh kter chat .. hees ..
senang ckit nak carik die lau die ilang .. haha ..

bAchEnN laks ..
these few daes tak jmp die ..
skg die dahh start keje .. todae ish his fers dae ..
thot of askin how was it , but die tak mcg tak ape ..
so watpe nak menyebokk kann .. hmm ..

about ApiQuE ..
we're still in cntct ..
n he's stil attached ..
but he stil can say dat he stil loves mie ..
its like WTH lahh kann .. haish ..
we've been mcgin each otha 3 days straight including today ..
n he stil remembers everythin bout mie ehk btw ..
hmm .. ish dat a gud thing or a bad thing ?? haha ..
ntahlah .. but i dun remember much bout him .. hees ..

Fadhli ..
a guy dat i just got to noe last week ..
i dun realie mcg him lahh kann ..
cam malas gtuk ..
malas nak mcg .. malas nak knal2 ..
haha .. he's kiyut .. dat i cant deny lahh .. hees ..
tpik AtiM dahh cam tawar ati gtuk nak knal2 alekk ..
haha .. dunoe y ehk .. hmm .. i wonder .. (:

BabYoLurpes ..
our relationship ish like hanging lahh kann ..
haha .. i haf nothin to say bout him ..
its just too complicated lahh ..
hmm .. does he ned tym or he's letting go ??
AtiM ponn takk tau ..
if he neds tym , i can give him tym ..
i can wait fer him if he wans mie to ..
but if he's letting go den i'll just leave him ..
*konpius*

n narie AtiM sebot name die 3 kali jekk ehk btw ..
i tried very3 hard tao .. igt senang ehk .. hmm ..
these few daes AtiM makan byk lahh sheyy ..
boncet maken menjadi jadi .. haha ..
klah3 .. buhbye .. gudnyts ..
tc .. muahks !~ (:

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

Bowling

hmm .. wat i did todae ehk ..
fers , went AMK .. fetch Yasin ..
den to AMK Central ..
had our lunch at Banquet ..
i ate Chicken Porridge lahh sheyy ..
like a sicko freako !! hahaks ..
afta dat i met Putri , Qarnain & Nad at Yishun MRT ..
BOWLING lahh sheyy ..
haha .. its been like so damn long ever since i bowl ..
well , it was abit boring tho ..
ade lahh sbab2 tertentu .. hees ..
pastuh mie n Putri lpak wif Kydo n Lalam at Yishun ..
ate McChicken n ma stomach ish like bloated lahh siol ..
hehe .. now im HUNGRY !! AGAIN !!
wakaka !!
reached home at 10 ..
n here i am , online n blogging ..
hees .. now feeling tired , hungry & slepie ..
HAISH !!!!!!
kkaes .. blog again sum otha dae ..
till den .. sayonara !!

[[ZaRa_biOlz]]

its not mie bebeh ..

well , i never had the intention to hurt him ..
ever since i fell in love with him , i never stopped loving him ..
n i stil do .. so much ..
but i think its better if i stop showin ma love ..
n yea .. family comes fers ..
im not a self-centered kinda person ..
n dats y i chose to let him go ..
i dun deserve to b wif sumone like him ..
n i knew it all along ..
he's too gud fer a ghurl like mie ..
i deserve sumone better ??
nahh .. i noe wher i stand ..
hmm .. wateva i said at MSN just now , its just not mie ..
felt touched wen he sent 'My sis ckp menantu mak kirim salam.. Haha..' - dats mie ..
felt nervous n scared wen he said 'N yah one more ting.. Bout us..' - dats mie ..
felt sory fer fer him .. - dats mie ..
but all the sarcasm n those harsh werds, if thers anie , dats not mie ..
i did dat cus im tryin to hide ma feelings ..
i loved him too much ..
n i dun wana lose him ..
but all i did was to pretend dat im fine n everything's okaes ..
n now he's gone ..
haish !!

GoOdByE My LoVeR

heyy ..
hmm .. i've gif it a thot ..
n i've made ma decision ..
im gona let him go ..
i just hope dat he's hapie ..
those 3 werds , i wil nvr say it again ..
i wont bother him animor ..
wil just leave him fer gud ..
its not dat hard to 4get mie ryt ..
so i gues its reallie over ..
its tym fer mie to back out ..
goodbye tOyoL ..

The Most Boring Day For The Singles ..

HEYY !!
wana noe sumtin ??
im freakin bored ryt now ..
Diyan n Yaya went out ..
mit their BFs ..
so i gues todae ish the dae fer the Single ones to stay home ..
haish !~ mendakk gyler lahh sheyy ..
well , currentlie Diyan ish attached wif a mat motor ..
haha .. wats wif the mat motor ehk ??
** i wonder **
she seems hapie wif dat guy ..
so ya .. all the best .. (:
and dat guy bought fer her helmet ..
ade tAzzY .. ):
jeles i .. haha ..
kkaes .. stop it .. i dun ned a helmet aniwaes ..
hmm .. bler nak g east coast agiik ehk ?..
rindu laks nak maen rollerblade .. hmm ..
**thinking bout 'you know who' **
ermm .. still thinkin whether wana join Putri dis Wed ..
Bowling beb .. dah lamer tak maen .. hehe ..
n asl smorg nanak maen catchin niek ??
dat tym ajak Kydo , die tanak ..
ajak bAchEnN , die ponn tanak ..
boring urh dorg ehk ..
sape lahh leyy lyn aku nye mepek ??
agiik2 tym nga mendak gnik .. haha ..

hmm .. tdik ku tgk calendar ..
dah 2weeks n 5 days takk npk muke die ..
rindu kahh ?? hees ..
ntahlahh ehk .. no comment urh ..
eu shud noe oreadie pe by now ..

dat tym bAchEnN saw the movies tix dat i kept at the card holder tuhh ..
den he was like ' chey , simpan sheyy .. ' hehe ..
Kydo n Diyan said dat he likes mie ..
its like WTH .. hees ..
NO IT CANT BE TRUE !!
haha .. dramatic sia ..
but he ever said sumtin to mie ..
he love dis one ghurl ..
he lose her once , n he dowan it to hapen fer the second tym ..
but he dunoe how to tell her dat he realie love her ..
hmm .. Diyan said dat the ghurl ish mie ..
but i dun think so lahh kann ..
hmm .. or i dun even wana think bout it ??
ntahlah ehk .. sumtyms i noe wats hapenin but i tend to act as if nothin hapen ..
ish dat wat im doin ryt now ??
thinking too much bout tOyoL n not seein thers sumone infront of mie ??
ntahlah ehk .. but dis heart haf a reason dat reasons dun understand ..
so ya .. dun blame mie lahh kaes ..
but the bottomline ish , THAT GIRL IS NOT ME .. hehe ..

hmm .. thot he wont kol mie yest ..
but he did .. hmm .. i mean dis mornin ..
he kolled at ard 4+am ..
tol pehh bAchEnN .. hehs ..

I MISS MY PEEPS !!
bler agiik ehk nak kua nan dorg ..
hmm .. c how lahh kann ..
klah .. sampai disini saje ..
buhbye .. tc .. love eu .. mUaHks !!

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